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        Racquelc6  33, Female, New York, USA - 12 entries
    26
    Apr 2011
    8:24 AM
       

    It's not FAIR!!!

    I think it's finally over. I feel horrible that there is a sense of relief. I should be feeling heartbreak not relief. The first D&C not going correctly has robbed me from having the feelings I should have had about the loss of this pregnancy. I swear after the second D&C that the chunks that were coming out was my baby. Everyone kept saying no, that it was just blood clots (mind you it wasn't even red) but then I got a call from my doc telling me that they tested what they sucked out at the D&C and it was fetal tissue. I knew it!!!! I wanted to keep it and bury it but I felt silly and stupid after everyone said it wasn't possible. Now I have lost that opportunity as well. So nothing to bury to give me closure and no feeling of mourning because the whole situation was so horrible and drawn out. It's just not fair.
    Tags: miscarriage, mourning, sadness
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        burqunde  20, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 4 entries
    12
    Jun 2010
    4:48 PM EDT
       

                                                   WHY                                                        


     Why would u stay if u really didn't want to be with me?
    why would u feel my head with lies that this was meant to be?
    why would u wisper "i love u"in my ear all the time?
    why did u let me think eveything between  us was fine?
    why did u let me play the fool for so long?
    why did u let me dance everytime they played our song?
    why did y have to be the person that held the key to my heart?
    why did u leave in the end when u were there in the start?
    why do u get me missing u so much?
    why did u have to be my frist kiss and my first touch?
    why did u give me you coat when we got caught in the rain?
    why were u always there to ease my pain?
    why did u tell your mom you finally found true love?
    why did u tell me i was special because i was sent from above?
    why were u always the sunshine to my stormy weather?
    why with one look from u everything seemed better?
    why? just tell me why before u say good bye.

    Tags: heart broken, let down, sadness, worn out
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