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    aGiftFromAbov  34, Female, Virginia, USA - 25 entries
15
Mar 2009
1:58 PM EDT
   

Reality Check..

Well i guess its been awhile since ive updated this thing..

Ive learned alot in the past year..

dont get into a relationship with a man who keeps downgrading your wants and needs..

Dont settle.. absolutely no damn settling.

My current relationship is as rocky as mount rushmore.. yet i keep trying and he continues not to try...

he even thinks i dont kno what kinda bullshit hes been up to lately online.. i keep seein this damn craigslist thread for encounters on his screen... for the past 3 weeks and i asked him about it and hes like,.. im laughing at these ppl who are lookin for ppl online.. motherfucker dont play me.. you dont log in that damn often every damn day to look at ppl.. fuck that..

so.. ive been looking for places with and without him..

i have needs wants and desires too.. and right now none of them are being met..

he keeps handing out ultimatums.. ill have one soon.. and it will be final

mesha is moving to the beach this summer.. imma love it.

with or without him.. yes i prefer with.. but i can do bad by my got dammed self.

Im tired of the shit.. the constant his way or the highway..

Ive done it by myself.. and was happy..

im doing it with him and all i am.. is angry.. sad or distraught.

He dosent even seem to care that he just picks little petty ass arguements..

maybe hes just trying to be a dick.. so that i can leave him.. so he wont feel bad..

maybe...

maybe i will..

We went a month and a half without sex..

i havent had any oral since.. he got back from annual training last year!

nevertheless..

i still stay..

when he isnt.. and has not forfilled any part of this relationship in a long time.

Promises of a better tomorrow never to come..

hopes of a future that dosent exist..

imma grow up.. get out.. and get married and have somebodys kids..

at least they will actually want those things with me..

i mean he dosent even want those things..

not even for me.. with me.. nothing..

the only future he can promise me.. and has promised me was him in a casket and me a fat check when its all said and done..

fuck the money.. i can only live once..

in life youhave one shot to give it your all.. and im not going to miss out because he wants to be everyones hero besides mine.

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    Trace  54, Female, Virginia, USA - 34 entries
25
Jun 2007
3:05 AM EDT
   

Drunk Ass Got Left Behind!!

Now after leaving our house, my cousin went to stay at his son's apartment until the end of the week when he was to leave with his wife for Indiana. Now that was only like 5 days away. Okay, from the time he left my house on Sunday to like Thursday evening, he screwed up yet again (turning up MIA and his wife out looking for him andwhatnot). Now she's pissed AGAIN!! Thursday evening she drops off his leather duffle bag, and told my daughter that he would be by to get it. That right there told me something was up because I knew"they" were supposed to be leaving for Indiana the next day, so why is she dropping his shit off at ourhouse. THEN....I woke up mid-early morning to use the bathroom, and then decide to read my book. This is about 3:45 am Friday. I heard a car pull up in front of the house. Me being"the neighborhood watchperson"looks out the window and I see a dark car, lights are off but car is running. Then I notice someone walking out of our driveway back to the car. But I can't tell who it is. And they get in the car and drive off, never turning on any lights until they weredown the street almost to the corner. The next morning my daughter finds his wallet with his license and pictures and stuff on the front porch.So that was his wife thatpulled up this morning infront of the house. So about 9:30--10:00 am Friday morning, I call the wife's cell to ask her what's going on....why is she dropping off his stuff like that, aren't they leaving for Indiana or not? And that's when she tells me after a few minutes that....she's already left for Indiana (she was on the road at that time), and she left his ass, which he did not know at the time that she was already gone. So basically, he was going to be calling me at some point about his things sheleft with us. So, I'm thinking...Good for her!! Later on, his phone calls start coming in asking us to call her, findout where she is because he waiting for her to come get him, he's got to get hisstuff out of the storage andsoforth. I played dumb and said, alright I'll call her and tell her tocall him. When he finally finds out she already is gone, he's calling my mother crying and saying she did him dirty, he's so hurt, he can't believe she did this to him. What an idiot...he's the onethat screwed that up. I guess he went to go get one more piece of ass fromwhoever it is he was with that night and she found out. Ohhhh well. Now his son has to deal with him.
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