Well, today I'm having some emotional struggles up and downs.� I've had moments that my heart jumps and think on how prior to exactly 7 days ago he used to always ask me if I still love him
(constantly) and that If I was his, and I'd ask him if he's mine and that if he has eyes for me only or if he's always faithful to me while he's at work, he'd always answer yes and I'd always
answer yes too.....� today, we don't care to ask that to each other any more.�
I found out he has been making "social" phone calls to different community hotlines for a while now..... when I first discovered it over 4 months ago he swore up and down that it was a co-worker
who he was lending his phone to, yeah right!� I confronted him about a recent activity which happened to be on a day that I was visiting my mom who was sick over at a hospital which was over 1 1/2
hr drive.� When I discovered this he said it was not him, that the phone is acting up, he also did it during a day that we spent at DMV to inspect his vehicle to get it back on the road again.�
WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?WHYYYYYYYYY????????????????? gosh, it hurts soooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He finally admitted it, looked at my crying and swore that nothing bad ever happened, that he never spent a penny on it., and that he won't do it again because he loves me, I believe him.�
I won't lye, I've been checking the phone records, no sign of daring calls like that, but then I wonder if he's using his business phone to do those calls, or maybe even meet someone physically or
be with someone physically while he's at work, I worry so much, it's not even funny.� It's very very very hard to trust him again.
Can someone outthere gimme please some encouraging words.� I'm hurting so much, I love this man soooooo much!
Anyone can make a baby, it takes a man to be a father are rather harsh words to use
when the man is but a boy, with no lesson of how to be a father because his own father was never a father to him.�
We can only hope the boy finds a mentor who'll teach him the ways of life, of how to treat people with respect, courtesy, and understanding that we're not all the same outside, but inside we're all
human beings - act like one who has a brain and your sons and daughters love will be your reward, until the day you die, and then some.
I'm a dreamer i'm constantly day dreaming hence my username. This is just a recap of what has happend in the past two years.
I met some one...lets call him Eddy*. We met on myspace, We clicked just like that though it was a very slow devloping relationship. We were on platonic grounds for a year. we flirted occasionaly
I sent him a myspace message�giving him my �telephone number informing him that i had left myspace.�Guess what i didnt delete the myspace...i dunno why i just didn't.
we talked for hours and hours about everything and nothing topics ranged from sex to politics and even family..... I got to know a great deal about him,myself and the world. When we talked it was
like the whole world did not mater....it was nothing but sheer bliss
what happens next is just a force of nature we fell in love....by the way i told him i loved him first.