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    Sissy7  23, Female, Minnesota, USA - 2 entries
09
Oct 2011
8:05 PM EDT
   

Have you ever sat on the side?

Have you ever forced yourself to smile, while tears trembled behind your eyes? Have you ever laughed, while you throat wanted to curddle a shrill? Have you ever stood tall, while you want to be on the floor curled in a ball of hurt? Have you ever said "love", while you felt hate? Have you ever tried to be yourself, while others try to form you? Have you found the answers? We want to please. We want to hide. We want to be brave. We want to change our feelings. We want to fit. What if I don't please you? What if I want to be seen? What if I am fine with being scared? What if I can't change my thoughts? What if I want to be me? The other day I sat along side the bleachers of my high schools homecoming dance and watched the boy I was going to ask, dance with a girl whom has repeatedly interferred with my relationships. As sitting with tears and a combination of black mascara trickling down my cheeks I realise that I don't need anybody. I am fine sitting alone with my thoughts. Not that they are nice to me, but this way I don't have to worry about anyone hurting me other than myself.
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    Hedda  57, Female, Massachusetts, USA - 4 entries
20
Jan 2008
7:33 PM EDT
   

JANUARY 20, 2008 - DEPRESSED

DEPRESSED. THAT'S HOW I FEEL TODAY. WHY? LET'S SEE:

1. I'M $15,000.00 IN CREDIT CARD DEBT!

2. MY MARRIAGE IS IN DIAR NEED OF REPAIR, WHICH I'M HAPPY TO SAY WE ARE WORKING ON BUT THERE'S SOME THINGS THAT JUST CAN'T BE AGREED ON WHICH TAINTS THE REST, FOR ME ANYWAY.

3 I DON'T HAVE ASTEADY JOB BECAUSE HUBBY WANTSME TO WORK WITH HIM AND HELP HIM WITH HIS BUSINESS SO I DON'T HAVE A STEADY INCOME. I WORK A FEW HOURS A WEEK UNDER THE TABLE BUT THAT'S IT.

4. I'M OUT OFSHAPE.

5. MY SELF ESTEEM IS AT AN ALL TIME LOW.

6. I FEEL VERY ALONE. I HAVE DAUGHTER AND HUBBY BUT NO PARENTS, NO BROTHERS OR SISTERS.

7. I FEEL LIKE A BURDEN TO HUBBY JUST BY THINGS HE'S SAID.

8. I HAVE TOO MUCH SCATTERED ENERGY. CAN'T FOCUS ON ANYTHING.

9. I HAVE NO MOTIVATION.

10. I HAVE NO GOALS, AMBTIONS AND DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET MYSELF MOTIVATED TO HAVE THEM.

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    Raneem  22, Female, United Arab Emirates - First entry!
12
Mar 2015
9:53 AM PDT
   

Me

So this is the first time i try this. i dont know wether i should be excited that im sharing my feelings with everyone or feel desperate and in need for attention both ways im not happy and i know that one day when everything is alright i wanna go back to this exact first entry and smile knowing everything is better now. i hope this day comes soon because this is unbearable.
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