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    HeartAttackGirl  35, Male, Arizona, USA - First entry!
30
Oct 2007
5:21 PM EDT
   

Relationships- there are those that open you up to something new and exotic. Those that are old and familiar. Those that bring up lots of questions. Those that bring you somewhere unexpected. Those that bring you far from where you started. And those that bring you back.And even when you'relooking for love(like me);Ridiculous, Inconvenient, Consuming, Can't-Live-With-Out-Each-Other Love. You have to realize many things:

You can never get to your future, if the past is present.And the best relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. If you can find someone to love the you, You love. Well then that's just Fabulous.

You need to realize what true love REALLY is:
Those butterflies. That feeling that is incomprehensible. The knowing in your heart that your flaws are suddenly beautiful. The abrupt friendship, trust, respect and integrity you have for someone.And the urge to better yourself, not only for that person, but for your own good.As well as MANYother stupendous feelings.

You also have to realize that your mistakes and bad decisions in life are what make your destiny. Perhaps if you never veered off course, you wouldn't fall in love or have babies, or be who you are. After all, season's change, so do cities. People come and people go in and out of your life. But it's comforting knowing the one's you love are always in your heart-and if you're lucky, just a plane ride away.

There are times in our lives when we meet the 'perfect guy'. Some one tall, dark and handsome. Someone who meets all your needs. Someone who financially secures your. Someone who is perfect on paper;all your friends and family love him. But you have to realize that there is no such thing of ANYTHING perfect. There is only close to perfect.And when you meet the guy who fufills all your needs, burns your desires, is funny, has goals, stands up for you, fights to make it work and has a million flaws that you can't help, but love. That's when you've truely found 'the one' who completes you. Because in the end; you just want to be with the one who makes you laugh.

When you've found that guy-dont let him go. The best things in life, fall into your lap, but it's YOUR job to fight to keep it there. Don't let him know everyday that you love him(it's not the most important thing). Because EVERY guy would give up, knowing their girl loved them, just to feel adequet and respected. So tell him every day how proud you are of him. How much you respect him, appreciate him,how he is everything you need, and how he is your hero.Let him know 'You are my friend, my family, my insides. You will be fine.You will be famous.You will have everything because that's how important you are to me'.

It will be hard to hold onto 'the one'. When you are faced with something you have been waiting for your entire life. You tend to react erratically. Because you notice all these changes occuring in your lifethat make you want to cry tears of joy. And the thought and chanceof you losing that, is atrocious.Though that person is supposed to be your best friend, how you act around them sometimes differ's from how you would act around your other friends. The reason for this is simple: 'the one' completes you. So OBVIOUSLY things about you will change. And that's ok. It's all for the best. But don't get caught up in those facts just be yourself;who you are with 'the one'.

If for some reason you lose 'the one'. Move on. Throw yourself into the other parts of your life. Though you will be incomplete without them. Realize and be realistic in knowing that you have spent your whole life, before them, and been just fine. And don't dwell on what you did wrong in the relationship because in the end, be happy for the memories you get to carry with you FOREVER, with that person. Cause' memories are better than never having anything with 'the one'.

And last, but not least, remember:
A smart girl listens,but doesn't belive.Kisses, but doesnt fall in love.And leaves before she is left.

(...I guess im just a big dumby.)

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    irishbaby  32, Female, Indiana, USA - First entry!
30
Oct 2007
5:16 PM EDT
   

Today i talked to my friends, at lunch, and one of my friends was being mean to me, i didn't know what to say, i was like omg! why is he doing this to me, does he know that i like him as a boyfriend? does he know that i really want to kiss him? what else does he know??? I wish that someday that he can be nice to me, i just don't understand, i just don't! i wish that i love him more then anything in the world, but god is first! I love god, but i love my friend sooo much. I just can't do this alone... i mean i just want to talk to him abt what going on with him... I just wanted to! but MAYBE he likes me? :$.. i'm just worried that he might not like me back. i like alot of ppl. but hes the right 1. because we have alot in commons! i'm serious! i swear! thx to all to my friend!



Ashley C. 10/30/07
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    deuce8301  40, Male, California, USA - First entry!
30
Oct 2007
11:51 AM PST
   

So, this is my first entry. Truly, this is my first time ever writing or typing anything about my day. Which is wierd in a sense but I never really thought that it could be interesting until now. When I was just browsing around and thought to myself, hmmmm, maybe I should write something and put it up in a public blog or something so someone can here the daily life of a Marine Sergeant who is instructing at the School Of Infantry on Camp Pendleton in sunny southern California.

It October 30, 2007 and the fires are finally out and the smoke has finally lifted. Along with the smoke going away so did my headaches and soar throat. I have been with my students pretty much everyday for the last 10 days feeding, bedding and training them for combat. I woke up at 0600 this morning took a shower, got dressed, cleaned up my room which consist of straightening up and making my bed. You know, those things your mother taught you to do when you were just a weeeeeee little tike.I put on my "flight" suit and headed down toward the ramp(where we keep the vehicles). When I finally arrived to work at 0700 I gave my vehicle keys to my young Marines to unlock my vehicle and start prepping. So, one of them checks the oil and comes running to me to tell me that it is low. I go check it and its right at the full mark and he swears that it was low. It was pretty funny to see him go from crew member to crew memeber asking if they saw it and ofcourse none of them did.

Once we were all prepped we left and headed out to the training areas and started driving threw the hills. I'm on my 11th class and this crew I have now is the best crew I've ever had. However, there is always 1. Sadly this one happens to be a Sergeant who is going threw my school and is the biggest idiot I've ever met. He is supposed ot lead in combat. I'm not going to let it happen. He isn't capable of leading a fly into a pile of $h#tif you catch my drift. Or should I say his. Anywho, they each got 1 hour of drive time in for the day portion and when we put the thermal site in they each get 30 minutes. This Sergeant doesn't understand what go left or right meens nor speed up or slow down. He brake checks me at the rapid rate and one day is going to roll me off of a cliff. We traverse some rough terrain and he just doesn't have a clue.

After standing in the turret for roughly 8 hours today without missing a beat and dilling with my pet rock my 18 and 19 year old Marines cheered me up. They were packing the dummy man(fake person) back into the Lagistics vehicle and I told them to pack in such way that we could fit everything in it. When I go look back there they had propped this fake person up and put goggles on his head, crossed its legs and put a MRE in its lap. Was hilarious. That pretty much concluded the day but its 2100 now and I just got off of work. Easy day.
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    amandaonfire69  35, Female, Georgia, USA - First entry!
29
Oct 2007
10:50 PM EDT
   

Hey everyone, Whats up? Well anyways, my name is Amanda and I am from Athens, GA. I am 18 years old and i grew up in jackson county! I live with my mother! my parents have been seperated since I was 15 years old! my best friend Ashley lives with me and come 2008 were gonna get are own place to live! I am in the process of getting my ged at lanier tech! I dropped out of high school a gew weeks before graduation bc of a guy and plus I was a credit short from walking! I have been in love twice but my actually first real love was Josh Holbrook. He is from Athens, GA and is 22 years old! We dated for a year on and off! I thought he was my world but i guess not! he use to beat me and put me down and make me feel like I am nothing worth loving in this world! But I have moved on and got a new life now and I am loving life to the fullest! I live day by day through whatever I choose to do! I party on weekends! and to school go to school on weekdays! weekends are mine and my friends time at the club! I love to go tocountry rock and level one thirtyone... I am pretty much a all around chick who is down to earth, determined, outspoken, and very opinionated, and blunt! I really don't care if I hurt ur feelings or not! I also can be the sweetest person u have ever met! but then again I can be the biggest bitch ever! I love to hang with my girls mostly and sometimes my guys! I drive a honda with a sound system! my dream truck is a 2007 z71 king cab all crome! well if there is anything else u would like to know about me let me know or jsut hit me up in my email acount at fussyloveangle17@hotmail.com

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    jazzsoulp  38, Female, Rhode Island, USA - 32 entries
28
Oct 2007
6:10 PM EST
   

...Wow...A lot has gone down since my birthday. I quit my wonderful job because I got admission into graduate school. I am more in Love with Babe than I have ever been...It's wierd...Like I Like Him more everyday. He's abroad now, and I'm nervous because He's so much closer even though we are still far apart. School is kicking. I'lll be getting my midterm grades tomorrow, so hopefully they are good ; )

I lost my God-father 3 Sundays ago. I miss Him and I hate knowing I wont be able to talk to Him ever again.
I really pray that my 4 girlfriends find true Love mehn...It's eating at my soul that they are lonely and unsure, but I'll keep praying for them. They have just got to experience this high...It's unexplainable.

Live in Love and Peace in the World...Much Love,...Me
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    journalist  30, Female, Texas, USA - First entry!
28
Oct 2007
3:13 PM EDT
   

dear sweety, baby its not your fault nore is it mine.god said lets go and you went! baby girl momma will always love you never forget.i know i put the leach on ,but you ran toward the light.iam so glad your in a better place. where you have a better family and are safer.i know you love me too.oh ,yeah dont fight with boots!!!
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    Phoebe4  47, Female, Minnesota, USA - 4 entries
26
Oct 2007
1:10 AM CST
   

Interesting how live changes from one moment to another. In reading an old journal I realized how in 4 months so much of my life can turn around. 4 Months ago all I wanted to to was to be alone and experience life- on my own. Bitter, jaded, and unhappy has now turned into positive, joyful, and simply happy. It is truly amazing how one person can change all of the in a very shory time.
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    amenard89  35, Female, Rhode Island, USA - First entry!
25
Oct 2007
3:39 PM EDT
   

For four years
For four years I struggled
I wrestled you night after night
And you were always stronger
And every morning
I covered the bruises
And made the best of my muses
I healed best the bones that had broken
For four years
I was alone
But at the same time
I was still alive
But yet feeling destroyed
Ready to self-destruct
The distinction between heaven and hell was know a blur
For four years
There was what you called tough love
I thought it rough
For everyday, for all the years
I tried to try and fell and failed
I tried to write...this is all I got
I tried to sing, but this is how it sounds.
But after all was said and done
You were now in the true place known to hell
With dripping pipes
Solid steel bars
Concrete coffins
And food that will turn your insides out
And one morning
I woke up and for the first time
Noticed the sun
I felt the beat of my heart
It was like a piece of art
I started to cry
Forgetting everything I had tried
Leaving everything behind
Because guess what… I survived
And where are you today?!
Because I'm exactly where I want to be!!!
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    HiddenScars  34, Female, Louisiana, USA - 7 entries
25
Oct 2007
4:18 AM CDT
   

Well there really is not much to say there is alot going on in my life and I dont really know what to do about all of it...I am back to cutting and that sucks... I have had a few slip ups in the last few weeks which is not good.. But its okay..Me and kris are doing okay.. and all of viv's puppies are growing up to be beautiful! I love my vivvy... and now we have star trigger anna bell bear and trey... all of which I will have to sell soon... but I think that scott is going to get to keep trey... He is really excited especially with me and kris moving out soon!!! I HOPE,,,, Mom kicked us out agian but as normal she was all Im sorry by the end of the day... I love my kris kris but we are fighting alot lately.. I dont really know what to do about all that.. I have tried talking to he that doesnt really help any..just makes her mad that seems to be what I am good at... I really dont know what to do anymore... But it is okay we will work through it like we work through everything,, I know we will.... I am starting to talk even if it will make her mad.... i am at the point that if I have something that I want to say I am going to say it... I really am getting better... i dont really know what to rant anything else about so I guess Im gonna go ahead and get off of here...atleast everyone knows i am kinda sorta alive... LOVE YALL....

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    garryageez  60, Male, United Kingdom - 14 entries
24
Oct 2007
11:11 AM GMT
   

Lets not forget Burma.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

BURMA LETS NOT FORGET.
Current mood: worried
Category: Life

Since the oppressive government of Burma have severed all contact with the outside world, through a ban on tv, radio and internet media, It can easily seem to those outside that the terrible oppression that the people of Burma are suffering is over, but far from it. Reports leaking from the Country suggest that things are still bad and getting worse. Here is what Amnesty international have to say on the matter.

Burma crisis - Stop the bloodshed

Violent crackdown on protesters continues

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A heavy military presence on Burma's streets, combined with mass arrests, has stamped out the massive protests of the past week. Huge numbers of troops are visible on street corners across Yangon, the focal point for the demonstrations, and fear is widespread.

The flood of reports in the city of alleged brutal killings, disappearances and arrests is causing major concern for the people of Burma and those watching the continuing crisis.

52Watch footage of protests in Burma (RealPlayer)

Background

Amnesty International has long documented Burma's appalling human rights record. This includes widespread and systematic human rights violations:

  • The holding of more than 1,160 political prisoners in deteriorating prison conditions. Detainees include most senior opposition figures
  • The use of torture and other cruel, inhuman and degrading treatment, especially during interrogation and pre-trial detention
  • The use of child soldiers and forced labour
  • Laws that criminalise the peaceful expression of political dissent
  • People frequently being arrested without warrant and held incommunicado
  • Judicial proceedings against political detainees that fall short of international fair trial standards
  • Defendants being denied the right to legal counsel and prosecutors relying on confessions extracted through torture

Act nowto protect peaceful protestors The Governments hope is that through the meassures it has taken through the media ban, the world will forget their peoples plight, We must not let them succeed in this endeavour. The problem we face is that the media of the western world are there to make interesting tv, and if there is nothing to report the situation is put on the shelf until something terrible happens. Lets not wait for that to happen to remind us. Lets act now, by writing to our governments, and the chinese government demanding that they act to stop these crimes against humanity. Look out for any protest that are taking place that we can attend.. Also you can do what i have done and bring the situation to peoples attention by writing an entry in our blogs and on our comments on myspace etc. We all have the tools to be able to do this and this seemingly small act can reach so many and do so much. I thank you all very much for your attention on this matter and hope and pray you all have the love and compassion in your hearts to act NOW. With Metta (LOVING KINDNESS) Garry D. AKA SOOPANOVA.



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