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04
May 2010
7:25 AM EDT
   

weEee!

geeze...i hope they'll be off this week....if they won't i'll be excited for nothing.... :P
i really hope they're taking them off on thursday..... i can't wait...hihi
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30
Apr 2010
6:42 PM EDT
   

am i?

am i being too strict?
i just don't want him to get bad habbits...
he's smart and doesn't nedd to study as much now,
but in highschool he'll need the good habbit of studying...
games? he can play them after doing homework right?
i wish he could understand that things don't always go your way...
that he has to work for the things he want...
but i'm afraid that all he sees is that i'm keeping him from what he enjoys...
his games, computer...
i just want him to know what he's supposed to do, then he can play...
i hope he understands......
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24
Apr 2010
8:11 AM EDT
   

an ordinery day

they say: "life is not measured by the number of breaths you take,�BUT by the moments that take your breath away."

today i woke up,
did what i needed to do,
cleaned the house a bit,
watched tv,
now i'm about to cook lunch,
later on maybe work out a little,
take a nice warm shower,
sketch what i feel like sktetching,
cook dinner,
watch somethig with my family,
go on my computer,
sleep...

...and that wouldbe my day.

i'm still thinking of how to make it a better day,
so it wouldn't go to waste...
hopefully i'll find something...
i hope you people are enjoying yours, if not, try to find something as well...

make everyday a special day, you'll see how you'll enjoy life more... :)
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16
Apr 2010
2:55 PM EDT
   

when you feel down, think.

�Problems are usually temporary,
and death is permanent.
There is always a brighter side to things,
even when everything seems wrong.
You gotta just look really hard for something
that keeps you going, and stick with it.

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16
Apr 2010
2:50 PM EDT
   

i don't know if this has ever happened to you... but did it ever happen that in a random day, for no reason... you suddenly feel sad, alone, like noone understands and end up crying? if yes... how do you stop?
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16
Apr 2010
12:50 PM EDT
   

nothing really...

i'm just excited to have my hair cut tomorrow...
i'm worried about certain people in my life now...but i still believe that they can get through it and come out as winner..:)
everytime i write here...
it feels like my reflection time...LOL
anyways.... got to go read again... got an exam tomorrow at night..ish..hehehe

life sure is complicated...
but what can we do...
we just have to deal with it
and make it work/..... :)always!

kiya

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16
Apr 2010
12:47 PM EDT
   

why follow what people say is right...

who knows if they're even right...
everything here
is what's in my head...
I would say this
and people won't agree
but I sometimes think that...

people only believe
to better themselves.
Not because it is real
not because they believe
but because they fear

i don't see the purpose of going to church
when right after, you gossip about others
i don't see why you have to announce to everyone
that mr. and mrs. someone donated the highest amount

whether He's there or not
can't you talk to him alone?
in your own room,
or while your walking,
and not HAVE to go to some building built by humans
who call it holy whatever...

all i'm saying is that..
happiness is something we make,
whether there's a God or not...
we are the one's living our lives..

We should still do good
without thinking of the reward...
Whether there's a heaven or not...
We can be better if we want to.

i might have sounded preachy...
but it's true...
i'm not saying that you should pray at night
all i'm saying is don't be a hypocrite...

If you don't believe in God--noone should force you to
if you don't want to go to church---noone should tell you to
and if don't have a religion---who says that you have to have one?
but if you do? as long as you truly believe in it, then i guess you aren't a hypocrite...

i don't know if there's a god or not...but while i live my life, all i know is that there's karma...that you still should try to be a good person no matter what...
do you good did for the day...that's all

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09
Apr 2010
6:06 PM EDT
   

things to think about

things you don't pay attention to...
things you believe aren't important...
things you let pass by...
things that you don't even think about...
things you feel, but put aside...
things of your past, that you say are ok when they aren't...

those things are what will make your head ache and ache...
until you reach your limit...
where you finally burst into tears,
cause you're tired of keeping everything to yourself.

a lot of people do this...
why i don't know..
maybe cause we are considerate about others...
maybe because some of us just like to have the drama in life,
or maybe self-pity...
or even to gain the attention from other people...
who knows...i just know
that most of us go through it..
and i have to say that it is not a healthy life...

but whether i'm right or wrong it doesn't matter...
what matters is what you choose to do...
share it with someone you trust?
or continue the lonely selfdestructing life by keeping it all to yourself?

you can be the only one who can answer this...
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31
Mar 2010
6:27 PM EDT
   

never knew

i never knew,
how much a human being could feel,
what feelings he or she could experience,
whether good or bad,
the emotion was worth while feeling.

If God really ever thought of us,
maybe he could have spared us,
spared us from the hurt and suffering
that love can bring.

yes, Love isn't always good,
it can hurt, scare, and destroy someone...
but, I guess he was wise to�add trust in us,
because that's all love needs,
to make sure that it will be a happy, safe, and worry free feeling...

that's a feeling no one should fear to experience...
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31
Jan 2010
6:29 PM EDT
   

not always

When you were a kid, everything used to seem so simple, easy, even exciting to go through.

As you grow older and get educated you begin to realize how hard life will be for you, and it is almost scary, like you don't have enough time, enough strength, or even enough brain to go through what life requires you to go through...hehe

I wish i could see the world how i used to see it, so i could see life in a better, positive way, like everything will be fine, and that it is easy, that your purpose is to make your life better.

But if you think that way, than you'll never satisfy yourself. You will keep looking, searching for ways to make your life better, even when you reached what you thought it was your dream as a child.

Life today is so much more complicated. I� wish it was simpler.

I feel like in the future no matter how successful you are, it doesn't stop you from working. In the end you'll be so tired that you'll look back and wonder how much real happiness have you gone through compared to how much you tried to make money.

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18
Dec 2009
6:27 PM EDT
   

stupidity

I REMEMBER THINGS

i remember� the words...

i remember how it felt, how it hurt...

i remember the pain afterwards.....

i remember crying...

i remember hating myself...

i remember regreting...

i remember seeking for help, but couldn't say a thing...

ir remember almost everything....

but i want to forget EVERYTHING.

i want it to be nothing...

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13
Dec 2009
6:27 PM EDT
   

vita

haysh!!!!!

he just has the worst timings!!! ever!

i mean why now that i have my final exams!

plus, i don't need to know that he's voluntarily�going back to the philippines ryt WHEN my brother and i aren't there..

i don't want to know anything about him anymore...

really! what is he going to there?? what's his reason that he has to go there?? huh?? now that my brother and i aren't there. what's more important than his kids???? he never went there when we were there, why is he going now????? what? to gt drunk and wasted with his friends??? maybe! that's all he does anyways.

i'm tired of him and his reasons.

he never even said sorry without being under the influence of alcohol...

life...

it's ok, i have my new dad here, and his 100 times better than that father of mine.... I KNOW, i shouldn't compare, but still.....

NOW I KNOW.... IT WAS JUST BECAUSE IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY. GOOD FOR HIM.

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09
Dec 2009
6:27 PM EDT
   

search

i don't know why, but i feel like...

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26
Nov 2009
6:28 PM EDT
   

struggle

i hate this!!!

i studied, i review, i don't even watch tv as much...

it sucks.... im doing what i can to be better, but all i get is me still struggling with this economics, and this math, but most of all is that econ! ish!

i was so sure with my answers.... i feel STUPID, like im the only one who doesn't get it. i know i'm not the only one, but still im one of those slow people who can't get it right!

i hate this!

i hate this!!!!!! :(

it's too sad.

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22
Nov 2009
6:28 PM EDT
   

weak

Normally I wouldn't consider myself as a weak person, but...tonight I realized how much more work I had ahead of me... and I feel so overwhelmed by all of this. I know that I shouldn't complain and just be happy to be one of the lucky people who would wish to be in my place, but sometimes it just tires me. I feel like I haven't really done a lot, but I feel so tired, as if I've done everything I could possibly do. I'm talking nonsense right now.... I just want to talk or in this case write whatever I want to write, even if it doesn't make sense, and why am I explaining myself to a computer now???

hayayay...whatever.... I wish everything would be over and done. not really, it might be too fast... haysh!!! i don't know, i think to much, but it is not what i want or need to think about.

i should be thinking of math and econ, not what is going to happen to my life, or how do i really feel about my current life, or whatever else that i don't really need to be thinking about.....hay!

oy oy....God gave me this brain, but you know what� God? i can't control my own brain! it doesn't follow what I want it to think about. anyways.......... i will try, once more, to let my brain concentrate on this econ book. bye bye!

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21
Nov 2009
6:30 PM EDT
   

when will it be or how we should be...

Today I watched a movie called 2012. It was about the end of the world. I know that we will never know when the end really is, but even if we could learn when it would be, we would never be entirely sure on what, how, and when it will happen. When the world is going to end isn’t really what I would like to write and it isn’t also what really caught me in the movie. It was more of the selflessness of most of the characters in the movie that moved me. It made me think about how different people could be like when it will actually happen. People of today still have some humanity and love inside of them, but as time passes I’m afraid that it is fading away, and my fear is that by the time the end of the world will comes the love and care of one another would be gone. The selflessness was what I believe kept them going, striving for survival. There were a lot of kind people in the movie, but there were also those who wanted the chance for survival all to themselves, and that kind of person is what I’m afraid people will become. I know that I shouldn’t worry about this, because I probably and hopefully be dead before that time comes, but it just bothers me that people might end up killing each other instead of helping each other.
Life isn’t always what we planned it to be or hoped it to be, which is why we should do our best to make our lives worth while living. It is easy to say, but I try step by step in making my life better than it what it is, by being kind to people and listening to those who need someone to talk to, or even merely someone to be with. Life isn’t fair, and all we can do is make it ours to enjoy.
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21
Nov 2009
6:28 PM EDT
   

forgettable

It is hard to expect that the people you cared for will remember you after a few years, but that’s how you wish it would be.
That is just a dream. People don’t remember you, people will forget as soon as communication is gone.
No matter what you did for them before, they will forget.
What hurts the most is when they forget about you, but you can’t forget about them.
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17
Nov 2009
6:28 PM EDT
   

pressure

Life is pressure...

we can't do anything about it.

friends...peer pressure.

school...pressure for your future.

parents...pressure to stay what they want you to be.

instructors...an addition tto your list of pressures.

and above all....

myself...i pressure myself and think of everyone else...and it just sums up to...

giving up......

but

i still can't...because pressure is what keeps me going, but it also stresses me out...

what am ito do?

what is better?

let pressure stay and risk getting crazy...

or let pressure be the centre of my non-ending life?

i am tired. i, also,�need to rest.

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11
Nov 2009
6:28 PM EDT
   

the past

my past wasn't the past i wish i had.

I am not proud at all, onot of all the disgusting stuff I did.

I was stupid, wasn't thinking....

and just like normal people, when you don't think about what you're going to do, you'll end up doing something extremely stupid.

now, my past is chasing me, as if I can't pretend that that stupid girl wasn't me.

why can't i do that?

I've changed.

i'm rational and more mature.

I don't believe that my past should affect my present and my future, but still....it does. :(

as i think about it, i feel like i'm falling apart, into pieces so small that noone can put together.

i feel weak, because what is said is true, what people heard is true, even if iwsh it wasn't.

nomatter how hard�i wish it to be just their imagination, i know, that in the end, the truth is what it is, and i can't escape from it.

i am trapped in my past, a time that wished i would get rid of.

A life that i wish i never had.

and it is killing me slowly as I go through those horrifying memories.

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10
Nov 2009
6:29 PM EDT
   

There is nothing wrong with being honest

Everything i try, fails..

everything i do, seems useless...

what can i do to make my life work....?

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