�Problems are usually temporary,
and death is permanent.
There is always a brighter side to things,
even when everything seems wrong.
You gotta just look really hard for something
that keeps you going, and stick with it.
Wow, it has been a loooong time since I wrote. I have just been too busy to get on the computer, much less come on here. A lot has happened since the day I got my nose pierced. I broke my ankle 2
weeks ago, but it's almost better now thank goodness. And I also lost my friends. I guess it's just teenage drama but I'll let you know what happened anyway simply for the fact that I need to vent
and I can't trust anyone else. I know you won't tell. lol So anyways, my friends have helped me
with my stuff the past 2 weeks. Ya know getting around school and everything since I was on crutches and whatnot. So one of my best friends got a new phone. The next day it fell out of her pocket
book and broke while she was helping me. Now, apparently, it's my fault. She has practically the whole school hating me and every one is calling me a b**** and saying I'm rude and blah blah blah. I
have never gotten so many hate texts in my life! Well, I had an emotional meltdown at school today and I did the unthinkable-I cried. In front of everyone. And not once, but twice. I hate crying in
front of people; it makes me feel so weak and vulnerable. Well, now I'm friendless and every one hates me. I didn't even do anything! I mean, I know people who are guilty always say that but I am
honestly telling the truth! I. did. nothing. wrong. But, of course everyone blames me, the crippled. I always get blamed for everything! So, like, literally the whole school hates me. Every time I
hobble by they whisper about me like I can't even hear them. But oh well. This too shall pass, and karma's a beast. They will soon regret ever giving me up. And if they don't then I didn't really
need them to begin with. Right? I don't need them and their drama and their talking about people. I may be a "b****" but at least I'm a nice one. And I really do believe that I'm a good friend.
Others might not think that but who cares? I'll eventually find some one who is a true friend; some one who is worth my time and my tears. I regret crying, I really do. I think they were tears of
anger. I think I know why the loners at school are...well...loners. It is probably best to be a loner. At least you don't have to put up with anyone's bullcrap. But I am a Libra, a social
butterfly. I just have to socialize or I will go insane! I just don't know what to do. I guess I will try to be a loner since no one wants to talk to me. Since I have become a leper.
*sigh* Why do things have to crash and burn right when life is starting to get good? But maybe life wasn't getting good then, maybe it's getting good now. Maybe I was supposed to break my ankle so
that I would open my eyes and realize (I rhymed heehee) that my "friends" were wearing a big fat mask the whole time. True, it does hurt. A whole year of friendship went right down the toilet, but
maybe it's for the best. Like a quote by Publilious Syrus, "A friendship that can end never really began." Maybe our friendship never even began. So, I don't know what's going to happen. I'm gonna
just go to school and hold my head held high and act like being hated don't bother me. Now that that little rant is over with I am gonna go read some before bed. Wish me luck and merry Christmas
�We listen to their cries of pain,
As we take the enemy's name in vein.
For they too think alike,
And release their rage with a terrible might.
So why a war, this war we fight,
Does peace not shed its golden light?
Instead we give eachother hell,
And along the way, others as well.
This war must end, some way, some how,
It must end not later, but now.
For in the end no one wins,
In the end it's only sins.
Is their no end in my sight?
Damn,wtf people need to get over their shit and mind their own fucking buisness.This group of kids was pissing me off so I slapped the girl (sasha),and then she slapped me back,and her friends are
mad and getting everybody else (strangers included)�invlolved because they can't face the music and fucking solve their own issues.DAMN.One of the girls (Andrea) told me she was going to get her
older brother to come over to my house and beat me up,shoot me,idk because I called her a whore,lmaoooo.Well what do you think I'm gonna do?She wears friggin cameltoe hip-hugger jeans,jordans or
heels,halters or�glittery ghetto text shirts that say a bunch of shit all over it.And sasha is just a little cock eyed bitch who doesn't know how to respect people.And her brother acts like he's
high all the time.It may seem like I overreacted to the situation,but I've had too fucking much going on in my life and I was having a shitty day,and this little hoe just comes up to me on the bus
showing me a picture of Whitney Houston or somthing and yelling out "HEY EVERYBODY LOOK IT'S CASSANDRA!!!".And she kept on going after I said to stop,so HELL YES I'm gonna slap her.Well,tomarow is
going to be hell,but whatever,Sasha is ugly,masculine, and cockeyed and Andrea is HIDEOUS,she's got no personality,she is also cockeyed,and she smells like fish.