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jleigh09 38, Female, United Kingdom - 35 entries

Sep 2006
10:45 PM WEDT

went into town in the end today couldnt be bothered to sit in with nan went and did a bit of shopping with my sister. Tyler is crying at the mo he is shattered but wont give in my mum has him at th mo she often takes him for a couple of hours in the evening to give me a break bless her.Stevens at work all day today started at 8am finishes at 11 tonight hoping he will phone me later on his way home. probably will normally does bless him.i hate it being away from him at night my bed feels lonely. i got no one to hu up to when i feel cold or just want a hug. i hate wking up in the mornings on my own well tyler with me in his cot next to my bed bu i mean all of us as a family. i thought steven was going off me but i know he isnt it just took me a while to realise that we have changed. we have had to change our relationship to work round tyler and i think that was hard for me as before all it was, was us! the last week or so i have been doing alot of thinking bout me steven our future and i dont know what it holds but i know that right now he makes me so happy and i have never felkt so inlove with anyone in my whole life. All the guys i have been with dont compare to steven they never made me feel like this i feel lost without steven. when we argue my heart aches and when we are apart i miss him so much i love knowing he is near by there u know it reminds me i'm not alone. i will never forget that new years eve when we got togeather it was all so sudden and exciting we kissed for the first time at midnight i will never forget it or how i felt. i will never forget the day after that we spent the whole day in bed just holding each other anbd hugging up and talking getting to know each other it was great. i'm a soft cow i'm typing this with a big grin on my face like a cheshure cat. i feel on cloud 9 at the mo i dunno why i just realised how lucky i am to have a great guy and gorgous son and a healthy relationship. i am finaly being tearted well and feel happy after everything that has happened that last couple of years i found someone who full feels my life.

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jleigh09 38, Female, United Kingdom - 35 entries

Sep 2006
10:44 AM WEDT

The last couple of days have ben great i stayed pver stevens for a couple of nighs god it felt good to be in those arms. Tyler fel asleep and when steven got home from work bout 10:30pm we huddled up on the sofa and jus took time for each other we fooled around and made a right mess with the chocolate body paint but it was fun and had had a nice bath. it just felt so good to be where i wanted to be instead of being at home where i hate being it gets me down. today i am home nan is doing my head in aleday she normally goes out on wednesdays but today is staying in GREAT! NOT! she is so selfish and ungrateful she is moaning coz she has topay the window cleaner £7.00 i mean come on its not alot and she doenst pay anything mum and dad pay everything even i have to pay rent she just gets to me coz she is so selfish and interfearing and ungratful. i know i sound a bitch but if any of u out there lived with her u would realise what i bitter old women she is. she has never had much of a life so runs down everyone elses. i cant stand her and i hate living here i wish i was wish steven and had my own space and privacyi ahte being at home i ahte it. it really gets me down.

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1 comment(s) - 08:01 AM - 09/27/2006

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Peterparker 50, Male, USA - 24 entries

Sep 2006
3:46 PM EDT

True. That is why I try to praise people.

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whatisperfection 31, Female, Canada - First entry!

Sep 2006
1:21 PM EDT

hey .. im bridget im gonna come on every day and tell you about my life my first thing is im overweight and hate it I eat right hate fast food play every sport jog and am in shape but I dont know i guess the world hates me it makes me soooo frusterated! ill tty tomorrow about some more stuff xoxo WHAT IS PERFECTION?? xoxo

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shae 32, Female, Texas, USA - 22 entries

Sep 2006
10:27 AM EDT

"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great." - Mark Twain what the !*%@ does that mean?? any way so to day has been petty good school is going well. although i wish i went to public school.....oh well though i would break my moms heart if i told her that and i can't do that. she is so against public schools... oh well... i am soooo exited about my trip to Romania in december it is going to be so much fun....we only need like 1,200 dollars more and we will have it all so we are going to make it! i wonder why groing up has to be so hard?? why couldn't it be easy? well we have church tonight although it is really a meeting to discuss and plan for next wednesday we are starting a youth thing with music and then food and teaching and all along we will be practising for a play wich we will do for he hole church. it will be great i get to be on the band i think... i am every sunday so i should... the only thing that sucks is that after we eat and do music they are seperating the girls from the guys for like 30 minutes of teaching.... which i don't like....i want to hang out with the guys.....oh well it only like 30 minutes or something.... well i have to go finish school. unsined p.s i still think p.m is sooooooo cute!!

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Talacia 34, Female, Australia - 51 entries

Sep 2006
1:25 AM EST

of course. that is the nature of all men. they think they are greater then greatness itself. but that is what is extpected of man, so i dont see the problem with them living up to their expectations, and other expectations from others. this gives them the attention they want and need. it boosts their esteem. but that will bring me to another point. why is it ok for men to lower our self esteem, but they need theirs like women need make-up. but again, it is perfectly normal, and if they need it so bad, that is what women need to work around, like men work around our time of the month...

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please6kill6me6 34, Male, Texas, USA - 2 entries

Sep 2006
10:13 AM EDT

Well. Things are better. Sorry I haven't written in ages. I've been busy. Life isn't that bad anymore. Because my dad emailed me and we started talking and I realized I need to look at the good things. And the good things are my friends. Today was James Hetfeild day. From Metallica? yea. Me and my friends either wore all black or wore a shirt with James Hetfield on it. yep. All my friends are metallica freaks. so am i. so i can't complain. hehe. tomorrow is aiden day, and December 8 is dimebag day. (daryl abbot- guitarist of pantera) Well. Social Services didn't fuck up my life. and. I uh.....there's this guy that i met yesterday. John. I see potential there. hehe. And Wes keeps looking at me during first. It annoys me. I want nothing to do with him because he reminds me of Tony. By the way. Tony emailed my ex. Len. They are fighting over me. Yay. I hope Tony doesnt think he can charm his way into my life by saying he actuallly cares. cuz he doesnt. Fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me. haha. Cody...I'm worried about him, he was crying two days ago...I don't know how to help him though because I don't know how to get him to talk to me. I might... write a note or something. I'm trying to get a job. And when i do. I'm buying a laptop. cuz i need one. more than anything i need one. I dont own a computer. but im one of those kids who love computers. so yea. I'm writing an essay on gay rights. so yay me! im FOR it. hehe. idk...things are better. but the minute i stop working or writing or reading, the minute i fall asleep, tony escapes into my thoughts. is that love? i dont even know if he loves me. thats the worst part. is not being able to talk to him, to ask him. "hey how do you feel about me?" i used to. but...he goes to college now. and...i can't call him because my parents hate him. and i have to act like he's a bitch. well i have to go... later peeps!!! -my trenchcoat mafia family rocks.

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lmm27295 44, Female, Texas, USA - 15 entries

Sep 2006
9:47 AM EDT

I talked to C on my lunch break and it put me in a worse mood. She was telling me how her and R had their pics made and he paid for them(which is about the first thing he has done during her pregnancy and she is at 8 months). Sometimes I want to smack her for being so stupid. I know she really wanted the pics but it does not make R a father. I could scream at her for putting herself in this situation as well as a life that is helpless. Sometimes I feel like we are in the same boat when it comes to relationship. 1 min. everything is great then the next it blows up in your face. I understand that all couples have problems but ours get taken tho the extreme. Its not about resolving the problem, its about "what is the nasty thing I can say to Lisa." A petty argument every once in a while is one thing but its another when B tries any way he can to degrade me. Ex. "I can't even stand the sound of your voice." And he loves to threaten me w/ moving out. "Well you know what B, if living with your mother in a single wide 2 bedroom trailer, out in the middle of nowhere, on a dirt road that is full of pot holes is better than living at our house well then get out!" This crap w/ him is starting to effect me at work I have noticed. He even uses something as simple as me going to WM w/ my parents against me saying how I am spoiled and they might kiss my a** but he won't when all I did was go to WM w/ my parents and bought a few items. WTF!!! Anyway...The next day after an episode w/ him I am ill, tired, look like hell, want everyone to leave me alone and I cannot seem to focus on my work. And all I want to do after work is to crawl in the bed and sleep.

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SavanaSSantos 33, Female, Texas, USA - 30 entries

Sep 2006
9:16 AM EDT

ok. so we have that uge test today. ijust finished it. It was actually really easy. When i was about to turn itin i saw that oneof my best friends from this class was basically gunna fail cause we had to do two worksheets. so I put my paper up to my face and told her we have to have 3 wrk sheets not two. THE TEACHER HIT ME!!! OMG. MY EAR BURNS FROM IT. HOW KIND IS THAT? THEN SHE WENT OFF ABOUT CHEATING. SURE I WAS CHEATING I CAN'T DENY THAT. BUT OMG AT LEAST MY FRIEND DIDN'T FREAKIN FAIL!! YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MAD THAT MAKES ME. I'M JJUST NOT GOING TO TALK TO MY TEACHER ANYMORE. I NEED TO HAVE HER KNOW THAT SHE SHOULDN'T EVEN PUT HER HAND NEXT TO ME. GRRR. AND MAGGIE IF YOUR READING THIS...DID YOU EVEN SEE IT? GRR...

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SavanaSSantos 33, Female, Texas, USA - 30 entries

Sep 2006
8:59 AM EDT

I had a volleyball game yesterday :D Just the freshman team so we got a bus to ourselves. :D In case you don't know that much about volleyball, the games are best two out of three. We had to play three games. It was out first away game so we really badly sucked the first game. We sucked the sencond game too but we managed to win that one. and the third game we rocked :D i was so excited. :D they were so disappointed. those girls were jump serving and everything. they were really good. I got really stressed during the game. I got yelled at my sam. But if you know me from last year, if i mess up during like a serve or something. i do not like to be touched or spoken to. soya i was a little mean to her in the game. she actually did really bad yesterday. But its really cool cuz i don't sub in at all :D yaya!! coach keeps me in the whole game :D i must be pretty good...mhm? Well, yesterday we played Elbert high then today we play wasson then on thursday i think we play cornado then on saturday we play manitou. its gunna be fun :D but the season is almost over. which is really sad. although i might have a curfew so after the season i can still stay and watch the football boys. (which my boyfriend plays in :D)

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