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    Empty  49, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
17
Nov 2015
7:58 PM MST
   

Trying to keep busy... pushing the empty feelings back. No phone calls.... no texts.... just alone... I rode my bicycle to the gym. I did not talk to anyone there, but i enjoyed knowing that people were around. It has been a while since I have taken care of myself. .. I want to feel better... I fixed some food... and ate it, by myself. I still feel guilty about eating alone... my brain tells me that nobody will love me because I am fat. I should be ashamed of myself for eating so much. If i had more self control, maybe people would want to be around me. I try to tell myself that I need to eat, that being healthy will help me feel better. It seems to be a constant battle. When I look in the mirror... I don't like that woman. I am starting to see my mother's features in myself. That terrifies me. She is a very mean and hateful person. I am afraid I am going to be like her. Back to night shifts this week. Maybe some sleep deprivation will help me clear my mind.
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    Empty  49, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
18
Nov 2015
11:01 AM MST
   

I think i am getting better... and BAM! Something else happens. Being alone is hard for me... I don't want to do it. I just want a friend. ... anybody.... �but, now I am broken again. I can't stop crying... I don't want to live or die.. I just want to feel different �..I was looking forward to my psychiatrist appointment this morning... I got there... and waited... and waited. The receptionist called me up and said he was going to have to reschedule. .. I just cried... � she says "sorry "....
Sorry? That's it. � � I am sorry too. .. ��
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    Empty  49, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
21
Nov 2015
11:30 AM MST
   

Again. He spends time with me... makes me feel special... always wanting sex. With promises of attention later. I know it's a lie. But, again I believe him. I want his attention so badly. I want him to care about me. I give in, as I always do. I want to be good enough. He meets me for breakfast. To break up with me again... it's like an additional torture. To keep telling me how it is not ever going to work.... making me feel bad about caring for him. ...making me feel stupid.. inadequate. .. he says he knows he is a negative part of my life. He is. He hurts me so much. And I keep letting him. I don't know why. I go home alone...I am angry.. Mostly at myself. He says I push people away. I am afraid. I can't handle being hurt anymore. I just want someone to hold me. I just want someone to love me...
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    Empty  49, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
01
Dec 2015
1:22 AM MST
   

Another day.... I am really starting to feel better about myself. Being "mentally" sick is so hard. You can't explain it... you can't show it... you can only feel it. And the only people that can understand are other people in pain. I tell my daughters that I love them, and if I would have known that mental illness was genetic. .. and understood... I would not have had children... that I am sorry they also suffer. I spent a lot of time with "him" today. He is truly a jerk. I think I am finally getting healthy enough to let go. I just wish I had someone to cuddle with. I know it will come... but, I really want it now.
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    rosaliamello  33, Female, Nebraska, USA - First entry!
16
Nov 2015
1:18 AM EST
   

Framework of Convention Collective Metallurgie

The leading level of negotiations is the sector or branch. Besides the major branch agreements there are also numerous collective agreements with individual firms. Collective agreements can be declared generally by binding the associated governments. In case the agreement is regional the convention collective metallurgie cadre is done with the local government.

The significance of convention collective metallurgie cadre agreements has increased considerably in recent years. This is a major reason for the higher proportion of workers who are covered by collective agreements.

The convention collective metallurgie cadre mainly can be announced and frame worked by the concerning government. It is generally the request of the negotiating partners and then applied automatically by all the companies in the sector or that particular region. Mostly the convention collective metallurgie cadre is not widespread in the industrial sector. There is no minimum wage nationally. However the convention collective metallurgie cadre enables the authority to introduce the binding of branch wide minimum wages. Where the wages dumping was unmistakably occurring without the generally binding under convention collective metallurgie cadre.

While in Switzerland in the year 2011 the Swiss Federation of trade union obtained around 112000 signatures for people's initiative to introduce a national minimum wage and bind it under the convention collective metallurgie cadre.

As far as their contents are concerned convention collective metallurgie cadre it includes points such as:-

Wages.
Working conditions.
Fund regulations.
Training social funds.
Work timings.
Financial participations.
Participations right.
Conflicts resolution and so on.

There is a wide range of options for increasing real wages, which can also be combined in the convention collective metallurgie cadre. This includes in general the percentage or the amount related for all employees in accordance with wage scales which is distributed individually in the enterprise.Read full pdf here.

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    Leila  57, Female, Oregon, USA - 2 entries
16
Nov 2015
8:40 PM PST
   

Why I Chose Journal.com

I started keeping a journal in high school as a class requirement and liked it so much I have continued it almost daily since then. I have come to veiw writting as a friend...a place to go when there is nowhere else to go...a place where I can make my case when in the real world I am only blown off.� Sometimes I have reread�entries and have been surprized and impressed.��I've had an astrologer tell me I'm�passionate and intellegent, but I live inside my head.� That is definately the truth and it's painfull.� I was told I had no fire signs on my chart and therefore it was my lifes work to develope that...to�not just think and feel but to act on my ideas and passions and materialize them, to share them with the rest of the world.� I feel like I've been trying�to do that my whole life and�haven't figured out how.� I've�thought I do pretty good at writting and wished I could get published.� I've heard of blogs and considered starting a blog...but I wasn't sure what kind of blog.� That is the reason I chose this journaling sight...I can post a public journal and see where it goes.�
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    mariachandler  50, Female, Florida, USA - First entry!
19
Dec 2015
7:11 AM MST
   

Get The Wonderful Experience Of Acupuncture Fairfax VA

Despite the fact that acupuncture originated before thousands of years the practice available today is wonderful and growing. Acupuncture Fairfax VA is centered on the ancient systems of medication and promises encouraging consequences on the patients in the present day. There is substantial surge in the practice of acupuncture as it has the potentials to treat the ailments without any side effects. As a holistic approach to healing it is designed to benefit various ailments that disturb the patients further providing mental clarity and peace. the origin of acupuncture is on the concept of ability of the body to heal itself with the natural flow of energy flowing all the way through in various parts and the illnesses therefore initiate from obstruction of this energy. It is evident that once the natural flow of energy is obstructed or disturbed the body is further vulnerable to ailments.

With the help of acupuncture the body is facilitated to cope with insufficient flows of energy. This alternative form of treatment works to heal the body by directly eliminating the specific blockages. The procedure comprises of rectifying the significant ailments via particular pressure points as needles are placed at definite points in the body. It is approved that certain types of illnesses or symptoms are cured by applying pressure to certain points. it is a painless procedure as the needles used in process of acupuncture are very thin.

What are some common conditions that acupuncture can treat?


Allergy clinic Fairfax VA recognizes acupuncture as a very safe method of encouraging the body to promote its own natural healing and improve overall function. This functioning and healing is in reality connected to several different disorders and their symptoms. Most often acupuncture treats issues such as weight loss, fibromyalgia, headaches, back pain, menstrual cramps, asthma, carpal tunnel syndrome, post-operative pain, acne, allergies, anxiety, high blood pressure, arthritis, morning sickness, impotence, stroke rehabilitation and many more.

Greater advantages of acupuncture are due to it being holistic in nature. It is believed that body can heal itself from arthritis and disorders related to immune system. At the time of selecting acupuncture as treatment option it is indispensable to choose the suitable alternative. At the arthritis clinic Fairfax VA you can explore the various options most successfully used by experts.

Why choose Chinese Medicine Fairfax VA? Millions of patients throughout the world are safely using the old method of Chinese medicine. It is a realistic alternative to conventional medicine as Chinese herbs are often used in conjunction with Western medicine to improve treatment outcomes. in addition to curing any ailment Chinese medicine eliminates the chances of unnecessary after-effects and provides greater safety than conservative type of medications. with the help of Chinese medicine it is possible to cure condition including eczema, asthma, musculoskeletal injuries and pain control-- there is not much done by modern day medicine for this condition and causes. It is a safe, effective and natural way to restore health without negative side effects. To know more, see at https://plus.google.com/100923324972089266153/about?hl=en
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    jenv  45, Female, Canada - 3 entries
14
Jan 2016
2:00 PM CST
   

The Beginning

So here I am, at the beginning, well the start of this, not really going back to birth on, but from here on out! �Ive decided to start a "diary" blog, journal whatever, as a stress relief measure and way to vent without driving anyone crazy. �What better way then to vent to myself and to anyone who is very bored wanting to look at my entries , lol.

I have started this as recently I have had a cancer scare (waiting on the biopsy results) and have realized that I am not really comfortable talking about my personal life with many people, and the ones that I do confide in are not going to want to hear me worrying about the same things over and over again!

I am still hoping with all of my heart that the results come back as negative, but some things have made me think that everything is not ok.

For anyone who is really bored and stumbles across this, I apologize in advance, my grammer and capitalization and punctuation leave alot to be desired. �It's not that I can't do it, I just get lazy or in a hurry typing and cant be bothered with the small things, Life is just to short to worry about putting�periods and commas!
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    jenv  45, Female, Canada - 3 entries
16
Jan 2016
3:07 PM CST
   

About me

The best way I can describe me is ordinary, normal, just, me. �I am 35 have 3 girls (ages 19,16, and 13) Ive lived in Moose Jaw, Sk. my entire life . I have a boyfriend, well; common law husband that I have been with for 15 years, I waitress in a cafe , 6 and a half years there. �I have a few very close friends (one is my sister lol) and a lot of people I know but just talk to in passing. �My hobbies are facebook , pogo, and reading. � I have a great sense of humor and will laugh or make jokes in pretty much any situation... anyone who is serious all the time usually does not get along well with me . �My hubby is the same way which is why we probably get along prretty good.Im content with my life, I dont have dreams of being famous or moving to some big city and never did, although I wouldnt mind winning the lotto and being a little rich , haha! �I am confident in my abilities but not in myself, which I know sounds funny, best way to put it is a low self esteem but certain things I know I do well (writing isnt one of them ha!) �So just a quick note about me!
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    jenv  45, Female, Canada - 3 entries
17
Jan 2016
3:31 PM CST
   

scared!

So tomorrow is the big day, results for biopsy appt at 10, so scared but dont want to wait anymore either. �I am still holding onto hope that its not bad news. ��either way i guess maybe Ill be able to sleep better knowing one way or the other. �Not much else to say today, Million thoughts running through my head , what ifs etc but I dont want to walk down that road unless I have too. �Pray for me if youre into that, I could use the luck!
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