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ok.....� so it hit me that there was something else i need to get out today.....so i had this "friend"....� and i thought that she was a normal, wonderful girlfriend.� She has breast cancer.� we went through a couple of scares since i have known her but she has been very blessed and has been healed of all the inoperable issues that she was told she had.� My kids were friends with her kids before we were friends.� our daughters were best friends and my daughter would spend days at their house. even after her son and my daughter became bf/gf, i trusted her enough to still allow my daughter to spend the night there.� her family and my girls all went to the same church.� that is how they met.� due to circumstances unknown to me, she decides that its in her families best interest to change churches.� she lets me know that they are changing and that in her opinion i shouldn't let my kids go to that church any more either.� that she would be happy to pick them up and drop them off if they wanted to go to her new church.� i told her that i didn't have any problem with them going to church with her if that's what they wanted.� so one night she decides that she's going to take them to church with her.� only they have already been dropped off and their church.� because of our previous conversation, she comes to the conclusion that it will be ok for her to go to their church and pick them up.� which she does and in the process causes a huge scene.� but she didn't take all my kids and she didn't just take the one that is friends with her daughter.�� she takes the one that's friends with her daughter and my youngest.� who is still in a car seat.....� in a car that is not made to carry that many people and that does not have a car seat.....

ok� they are yelling at me to finish dinner.....�

to be continued.......

so to continue...� she was able to take my oldest and yougest from the church to her new church...� my oldest had no idea what was going on and only went with her because she was told that her dad told them to pick her up.� being this was the day before i was supposed to have surgery, she was afraid that something was wrong with me.� and she chose to take her baby sister with her because of the fact that she had her with her at church and thought she was doing the right thing keeping the little one with her.� but somehow in all this i have been played out to be the crazy bad guy.� she has deleted me from all her social networking sites and cut off our friendship.� so now this is a person that at one time i considered my friend but now would only refer to her as an acquaintance.

as far as friends go, after my surgery i had a surprise delivery of groceries and odds and ends from a mystery friend.� I had another couple of friends bring me ice cream and movies.� I had a visit from a friend today with a dp and necessities that we need.� These are friends.� the ones who at the very least post on�my facebook every couple of days checking on me.� I have learned from this that i have the best friends ever.� and that really i don't need anymore friends.� the ones i have a more than wonderful and love and care about me more than i probably deserve.� So i will live my life with the beautiful, wonderful, loving friends god has blessed me with and everyone else from now on will be acquaintances.�

"Sometimes I try to do things and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted to.I get real frustrated and I try hard to do it and I take my time and it doesn't work out the way I wanted to.It's like I concentrate real hard and it doesn't work out.Everything I do and everything I try never turns out".

there once was a girl

she moved a total of 5 times

she has a mom and a dad

she lives with her mom

she wants to live with her dad

there is too much arguing

she wants and needs to get out

one night she choose a fatal decison

everyone misses that girl

i did get married and now live in england. We are very happy together and this is and was the choice of the holy spirit .As i could never in a milliion years ever found love like this. As a human. We have been together 1 year and 3 months. currently� I'm now going through immigration agin. This time for a spouses visa to give me permission to work here and live here for 2 years as a wife and the identy card. It has been in the hands of imigration for 2 months with all the required paperwork and we are still waiting to hear from them but i believe i will recie it soon. As i have not been allowed to even do volunteer work or any work yet my gorgeous husband is paying for everything and the burden that is being placed on him is not easy at all.But today as we have in the past we wait in faith. Hoping soon it will come and then the job of finding work will begin. and in the future after we get permission for me to wrok i also plan on doing volunteer work as well. im not sure yet what type of job to look for . or weather or not i should look for part time or full tiem. We travel alot to �a different city to visit realitives. We enjoy �our family and friends and we enjoy the travel as well. also i have taken up belly dance ,yoga ,for excersize and have lost about 38 lbs or �from 12 stone to 9 stone in english weight from 165 lbs to 126 in american weight. I �have learned new reciepes and enjoy cooking as well. we have so much in common . we watch the same tv. shows we both are big fans of csi,gardners world, and coast. my favorite is hairy bikers(they are chefs and it is a cooking program). �faith. and love are the best blessings that i have been given and we are very happy. i dont know what is going on with you �and yours. i pray for everyone who reads this that they also be blessed with happiness,love and faith the way i have been. �have a brillent �wonderful day

�Lately I've been really down and depressed. I haven't been able to find good things to take interesting pictures of. I've been kind of discouraged in the whole "photography" part of my life. There's other people on dA who have much better art and pictures than me. Why can't I be as good?

Please,

just stand by my side,

hold me, and take me into the night.

Please don't make me cry.

The others have hurt me,

broken burdens,

short and hurtful,

no mistaking,

this life is always reshaping.

So please,

don't make me cry.

I want to trust you,

as you do me,

but some times it's just not that easy.

hold me and take me into the night.

I don't want to cry.

Because with you,

I've got the biggest smile on my face,

me hands in the right place.

So please,

Don't make me cry.

KL