"The mother of excess is not joy but joylessness." - Friedrich Nietzsche
....what a fantastic quote and I have created a goal for myself, and that is:
NO MORE DESIGNER BAGS or SHOES UNTIL JUNE 2012!!
I just purchased all of the items, which I'll list below-- in case I need a reminder and I really need to save $ for the two financial goals I have-- March 2012 one, and June 2012 one.
Anyways, back to the items I just ordered last week:
-Gucci tall knee length boots
-Gucci ivory small bag/clutch
-Gucci Heritage shoulder bag
-Dior patent leather shoulder bag
Enough is enough!!! It's like food for me, since I have such a freakin' ADDICTIVE personality, when I want something, THAT INSTANT, it's all I think about, I would surf and surf the net and find
the best deals~then go have 3-4 vodka drinks and after i'm buzzin' I'd go and CHECK OUT my shopping cart, and that's how I ended up with no savings!
First thing is to recognize my flaw and slowly work towards changing.
Starting tomorrow.... Some changes--- I'm going to be weighing myself everyday and post it here: my goal is to be 110 lbs, which SHOULD be a
very easy weight for me, i've been 105-110 for so long and now because of laziness, constant pigging out, binge eating, more laziness, I think i'm 118 lbs. I'll find out what weight I am at
Sometimes I don't know what is wrong with me, I have this expensive gym membership for like 2 yrs ($81 a month) and I go once or twice a month. THAT'S IT! how pathetic is that? When I did go before
regularly, I loved it. The increasing energy I felt, the good sleep i get, and just felt more happier in general.
Now i'm back to this slump and I compensate this sucky feeling by buying more shit i don't need and eating uncontrollably which creates this vicious cycle.
I HAVE TO BREAK IT.
I also hate how for each of the social event I go to, I can no longer wear my tight bandage dresses, or super form fitting ones, I wear looser kinda of dresses and i just feel sooo fat. That's
always on my mind. I don't know how many times I think about losing weight and be skinny/lean a day (maybe every 20 min?) and i don't do anything about it. I would buy all kinds of cleanse products
(BPC, The Clean Program, so many diff types of diet pills, Sensa, etc.) and all I need is to lose 15 lbs -- well, 15 lbs would make me a solid size 0. 10 lbs...size 0/2 and i couldn't do it.
TOMORROW I will start-- ! Upon waking up:
2) Grocery store
3) Cooking for my 2 friends for lunch
I also remember how I use to keep a journal (handwritten) one and I'd write pages and pages of my goals and thoughts, and feelings back in HS. I stopped doing that for about a decade and I have
nothing to look back to. So I'm going to try to keep a regular journal and just write down anything and everything that's on my mind.
Feeling a bit achy after yesterday's crash.� That and the fact that we're headed out of town for a few days I have decided to take off exercise til Tuesday to allow time to recuperate.
Regular workout.� Day pretty much same as usual until I crashed my bicycle on the ride home and went head first over a picket fence.� A bit scraped but nothing serious.
Still haven't managed to get my 30 day picture but since my weight seems frozen regardless of diet and exercise I'm not certain how much discernable change would be visible in a picture.
Hoping to get out on a lunch ride today as it is cool and clear today.� Perfect weather for it.
Day of rest
Missed exercise yesterday and today due to busy things.� Went off diet on weekend.
Got derailed today.� Scott was up early and occupying the living room so I'll be trying to get my workout in after work.� Wife not feeling well so had to pack my own lunch.�
Bike to work day was today so I rode to the spot they had a booth setup and got a couple of maps, a breakfast bar and a free t-shirt.
despite faltering slightly on the south beach again last night I continue to plow ahead.� Frustration seems of late to be my constant companion.� Never have I been more convinced that the key to
long term success is not giving up regardless of setbacks or plateaus.�
Working through with the shoulder issue by modifying how I do the exercises that bring the pain as well as the amount of resistance.
Day 2 of south beach and hoping to stay honest with it this go round as I faltered at week end last week.� Have to try and get pics done as I'm curious if there are any visible changes.
Regular diet and exercise.