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Hey all u blogers here is a tip, if ur uncle dies, ur dad starts to drink, and ur mom doesn't act like she used to, then that means someting is up.

Ok so i am sad, but how do u think my cozin and the rest of my family are feeling. They've all cried at least 1 time, i've tried to cry I just can't do it. I am extreamly sad about it but i just don't know how i can be crying in front of every1 eventhough i want to so i can finnaly feel as sad as my sister.

Well this is goin kida smooth, not really, but i've had my ups and downs this week.my mom is takeing me and my cozin to the park of MOA and i asked this guy if he wanted to go wit me. He's really cute and really funny, so i think tht my cozin would want him to go. But my only consern is that he'll act all bad around my mom and i'll never get to invite him anywere anymore. witch is really sad. WAIT, i forgot to tell u his name. His name is eric. Its funny, i had a bf in preeschool named eric, but i know tht its not the eric that i like.

But theres this other guy too. HIs name is Andrew L. He's also really funny and cute. I basicly sit by him in my school hrs from 1st to 3rd, then he goes to other classes. after 3rd hr it goes right back to eric (bc he sits by me in 4th hr math). well this is getting to be really long so log on to see my other stories on gurl in big world.

So i am a first time user. I just signed up today, and i think this little online journal will be fun.

So here i am, now that i have a journal i am speechless, how stupid is that, before joining this site i would have had plenty to say.

Hmm, I suppose i could talk about how this past week was. Well this past week wasn't the best. Me and my boyfriend split up on Monday, Tuesday we talked about possibly getting back together and well it didn't happen.But Wednesday things got a bit better. I had to cheer for him at his basketball game though, that was kinda tough. But i love cheering, so i went out there forgetting all the bad stuff, and cheered my little ass off. Thursday i was sick. And well Friday was great, i started to finally get over the split up for good and started talking to some other guys. And then Saturday was just plain old boring. Stayed home, and relaxed.

So that was my week. If i have anything more to say, i will be back on later.

Love, Emily Renea

Dearr Journal, 1268

Ayoo:] I have so much to tell you well i like this kid Griffin and he's like unbelieveably hot and i mean like he's the hottest thing i've ever saw. My friends tell me he looks at me when i enter the lunchroom but, that's just a look nothing else. Well, in one of my classes which is called Great Books. We were assigned a powerpoint project. The bad thing was the teacher picked the partners. My friends Taylor was with Drew[not so bad] and my other friend Nikki was with Jason which was really bad. But, I was paired with Griffin and that killed me. I was soo scared i couldnt believe it. And we would have to work the whole week together and his friends are in that class and they look at me like im some....loser:[ But im not im so cool to be around with. The only disadvantage i have about myself is my shyness. My shyness sucks im so shy. But once you get to know me i'll make ur heart jump like it was on cocaine. LMFAO:] At the end of the week we were supposed to finisht he powerpoint and present it to the class. Well, this retarded kid[no offense] Herodis started singing and dancing. He got the teacher so pissed off it wasnt even funny. So, we all had to write essays about respect which was REALLY GAY. Then, Friday we didnt present our projects cause we wre writing essays omggg my luckk:].Well, later on friday i saw a movie called Cloverfield. People told me it was stupid but when i saw it it was madd scary it was ohh mann..! I screamed so loud and i hid myself in my friends jacket. LOL thats how scared i was. I can see any scary movie unless it has zombies or ghosts im cool. My favorite scary movie is Disturbia:] xoxo. Totally love that movie like whoahh. I saw that movie with my friends and than Taylor was so scared that she had to go to the bathroom and wait another 15 minutes until the movie finished. I personally love scary movies. My friend Jessica is terrified of them but hey i dont blame her i would want people to respect my fear ya know im sayin'? Lol well todays Saturday and in a few minutes im gonna go to my friends house to hangg:] Yeahh:. Well ill write in yu tomorrow

xoxo Briana:]

im writting on another journal now...theres no more use of you....

I'll see you later

never writing on you again

Yesterday I went to Matt's grandma'a house. I got there about 3:15, which is pretty early for me. I got a ride form a woman named Nicole who asked me if I need a ride. She was very nice, I won't forget it.

When I got there, I let myself in (which, at first I hestiated because I wan't sure if it was right, but remembered Matt telling me not to worry.

When I walked in, I took off the sweater I was wearing and jacket and my walking pants. I wan't sure on what to do because I didn't know if Matt was slready naked and under the covers. I walked to his room and saw him on the bed (with clothes on) sleeping on the covers. The TV was on and I didn't really know how he could sleep with it on. I debated with myself if I should kiss him awake, crawl up by him, or just let him wake up on his own. I decied to let him wake up, so I sat on the floor and I noticed I could text him and see if he would wake up. I went back to the door where my coat was and got my phone. I texted him that I was here and watched him as his phone went off. He let our a moan and moved a little bit, but he fell right back to aleep.

Well, I lied down on the floor right next to the bed and watched Star Trek Voyager. It wasn't that bad. Then the house phone rang and I kind of jumped. I was hoping Matt would answer but he slept through it LOL. Right after the house phone, his cell phone rang and I felt the bed move as he answered it. Someone must have asked if I got there yet and he said no I didn't. I gently touched his leg from the floor and said I was here. He got a little surprised as he changed his answer.

Well, if you can decipher this message, you must leave a comment and tell me what the following says:

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I started classes at Ivy Tech in Kokomo this previous Monday. I think I'm going to do okay in the classes that I picked out. They're seem like they're pretty easy (for me at least). I have a few updates in my life this new year.

When I got up with my fiance Saturday morning at 4:30 to get him off to work and after he left I heard my mother talking in the bedroom with someone. About 20 minutes later she comes out to the living room and asks me what time I have to work today and I replied at 1:30 to 10. She told me that my brother would have to take me to work then because she has to go to the hospital. And I'm like What?! My grandfather had gotten up at 4 Saturday morning to go to the bathroom. He stood up out of bed and had a major headache, so he layed back down. Then, he poked my Grandma Louise in the side and asked her to go get him some Tylenol for his headache. She brought back Bayer Asprin instead. He then went to the bathroom with the aid of holding onto things on the way. He started coming back to the bedroom and he got halfway there and couldn't go any farther. So, he layed down on the couch in the living room. That's where he stayed until the Ambulance came. They took tests at Marion General Hospital, and it showed that he had a brain bleed. So, they lifelined him to Methodist Hospital (Clariton Health) in Indianapolis. I ended up calling off work and going to the hospital with my mom and the rest of my family. He is staying at the Critical Care Unit at Methodist Hospital until further notice. He is doing a lot better since his surgery at 2:00 yesterday afternoon. Hopefully he will be returning home here shortly.

Other news is...I am now engaged to a man (Zachary Scott Ollis) that I love, so desperately and can't wait to spend the rest of my life with. He is so great to me. He may not be a total complete Christian, but he is working on it. The great thing about that is is that he will help me with my walk with the Lord, but in the same great way I will also be helping him.