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You would think everyday of someones life has some kind of order. Some kind of organization, and usually mine does. But lately I have realized that living a life of routines and constant organization isnt always good. I need to break free and leave the old me behind. Im tired of being compared to as perfect girl who doesn't do anything adventureous and who is just so predictable and ordinary. Ordinary is not the word I want to be labeled as. So many things in my life have come to me by suprise and I see others that carry randomness and uniqueness within them. But now its time for me to go at the world in a whole new perspective, its my turn to suprise others and myself. Show that I can be more than what i portray. Sooner or later, I will be noticed and seen as that girl that everyone wants to know how she got where she is now. I want to be, I can be, and I will be unique(:

It's not that I keep forgetting to post in my journal(s), which isn't the case. It's more the fact that I haven't really had much time to do much of what I've wanted to do because I'm well to be honest too tired to do anything; post entries, chat on IM's, Biology homework, etc...

I need a holiday, but unfortunately I won't be getting one anytime soon.

Hey all you Journalheads out there!

It is now 2:10 am in Burien Washington and i'm totally bored.... so after the whole episode with my mom, everything turned out a lot better than i hoped. she woke all excited and wanted to go the mall... thats about the greatest reaction to tears i have ever seen lol... although, i still feel guilty for it

Well thats the good news. the bad news is i feel like crap. theres those times where girls feel ugly, fat, and their self confidence just goes down the toilet. I dont know if its that time of the month (excuse me boys) and i dont know if every girl feels like that every now and then but thats the way i feel.

Now i've been spending the week with my nieces Jenina and Jazzy. they're my cousins kids who were taken from him and his wife for certain reasons that i dont like to talk about much. but lets just say theyve never had a stable home. I just love having them over though. theyre amazed at almost everything our family does. It almost makes me feel a little too fortunate. i wish we could adopt them. but im not sure thats ever coming true.

I've also been thinking about my ex a lot more than i should or like to. i just want to smack him out of my head if it were possible. but if i wasnt mistaken, hes thinking about me too. i actually hope it tortures him! well... never mind. i should never wish for pain on someone. well anyway.... it is now 2:20 and i think i should head to bed.... good night everyone... and God Bless

Quote of the day "The mother of excess is not joy but joylessness." - Friedrich Nietzsche Universe entry of the day The funny thing, Ed, is that in spite of the euphoria one feels upon entering paradise, cloaked in miracles, surrounded by angels, love, and unimaginable beauty, it gradually becomes all they know, commonplace, ordinary, and then, shockingly... invisible. Yep, I'm talking about life on earth. Yippee Kai-Ye, -The Universe- Journal entry of the day Love, love, love, da-da-da, love, love, love, etc., etc. Famous and great song. The longer I ponder it the more I relize and believe that the root of God and all things good is love. God is love is a Christian concept and the only religion on the planet to make this proclamation. Dr. Wayne Dyer quoted someone who said, "The only difference between good and God is "o" or nothing. There is no difference. We are all capable of God like qualities if we share love.

I am very grateful for a sound mind and the ability to discern harmful people and situations.

yeah. Sorry im tried I will write 2morrow. bye