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03
Mar 2008
4:53 PM EDT
   

trust me

I guess everything is changing, and I dunno what I think about any of this. I feel betrayed by friends, and a lot of things are frustrated me. I guess becoming close with new people, cause the old ones to start drifting.. I can't really write much on here, I feel like I can't even trust a personal website, where you're suppose to write everything. I feel like not many people can be trusted anymore, and let alone something like this. It is so annoying how shitty and low people will go, just for someone else. I guess this isn't even entirely about me, well actually very little of it is. I see one of my new really close friends, constantly being betrayed by a lot of people, and I relized how shitty people are now of days. How they will do anything, just to make them feel superior, when really it makes you shittier then the person before you. So many people are like this now, so many people suck at being a good friends, and good friends seem really impossible to find. I am so glad, that I now keep my guard up a lot more then I use to. I don't know what I would do, if every day passed and I had to worry about someone betraying me. It doesn't seem to matter how close you are anymore, because everyone seems to just love to do it, and its happened more then it should have to me in the past.

YOU FUCKING SUCK!!!!!!
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01
Feb 2008
3:33 PM EST
   

I couldn't care less about Global Warming! I procrastinate like there is no tomorrow! I laugh at other people! I am not very smart, but I love school! I gossip too much! I have a big family, and they come first! I believe one person can change your whole life! I'm not good in big crowds, they intimidate me! I don't like my hair! I wish I was taller! I pluck my eye brows to much! I love to laugh! I am a very strong person! I have self respect! I can stand up to peer pressure! I wear glasses! I love to party! I am addicted to reading! I have a secret obsession of writing! I hate drama! I get embarrassed to easily! I rarely get blemishes, but I hate my skin! I only wear eye makeup! I worry about my weight! I need a job.. badly! I have wide feet! I don't usually fight for important things! I am very opinionated!I believe strongly in Karma! I absolutely love kids! I love the phone! I flirt to much for my own good! I don't believe in chances, I believe in the person! I hold grudges! I love to problem solve! I want to travel the world! I always forgive, but never forget! I'm not afraid to die! I love being a big sister, and a little sister! I take way to much for granted! I don't think I'd like me, if I met me! I'm a daughter, a sister, a best friend!
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25
Dec 2007
3:04 PM EST
   

Christmas.

Christmas is now a holiday all about presents, and spending a lot of money. Its about the materialistic things, and everyone thinks they deserve so much. I hate christmas because of that. I hate that people have these expectations of getting all these presents, and being so selfish. I've decided that as of next year, I want every single person to give me money, so that I can choose a charity of my choice and give a lot of money to it. I hate recieving gifts when I know that there are people out there who can't even live a normal life because they dont have enough money. I feel so greedy, and selfish. I'm so privledged, and to me getting presents big and small don't matter to me at all, I get no excitement or thill out of it. I don't like the holiday of christmas, I don't like it at all.! To me christmas is about spending time with your family, and having fun. Bringing everyone together and just having a good happy time together. Its all about doing things together, and enjoying the people who mean most to you. Christmas is suppose to be happy, and nothing is better then being around your grandparents, parents, siblings, close friends, and just the people who youlove you the most.

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16
Dec 2007
7:49 PM EST
   

hey fucking bitch

well thanks for stabbing me in the back, maybe you can find someone who you wont say shit about them, and pretend like its fine. Be honest becuase clearly you didn't want to be friends, seriously what have i ever done to you do deserve any of this, like what the fuck do I do to you!!! Nothing, sorry im not always there but 98% of the time I am. Learn to be semi independant, you can't just depend on people for everything, and you also can't just say shit about people and think its okay. You think you are so fucking perfect, but everyone has fucking problems, stop being so god damn stupid and realize YOU are always miserable.. guess why? Get your nose out of your ass and stand up for yourself when you need to, if you thought i was walking all over you then your pretty fucking stupid to not say something, your just a fucking bitch, and you think you are sooo great well fuck you, like stop talking about all these 'hot' guys who always walk you home, half them are fucking ugly.. and stop acting like a whore and saying you want to get with every fucking guy or be friends withfucking benifits.. You let ben stokes fucking screw you over, and he only dated you because he wanted fucking action.. look how fast he moved on!! God you are such a fucking clueless bitch, and if you read this, I hope you know I have EVERY right to say all of this about you. Never treat me as poorly has you have in our friendship, you don't deserve the chances you are givin, with most friends all you do is talk shit about all of them. Grow up, and act your own fucking age.

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06
Dec 2007
5:40 PM EST
   

Life is good, life is really good. I've decided my friends and my foes. I've decided life is to short to dwell on the bad things and even if this feeling doesn't stay for much longer it wont matter because i dont think i've been this happy for this long is so long. I'm getting healthier, my family is great, my friends are most of the reason i wake up in the morning, and just nothing can seem to bring me down. I've learned that the people who do bring you down, are the ones who don't truely care. I've really truely learned to not sweat the small stuff, and to talk shit about people wont get you far. I really really want to stop talking bad about anyone behind their backs, and i really want to start doing better in school. I'm really happy with myself, everything about what i've been doing lately is satisfying. Everyone does the wrong at times, but there is no need to over react about it. Lifes a lot of bull shit and happiness all mixed together, its a fact that only the strong will survive. I want to the be strong, I want to live, I want a real life, one that I can look back on and not regret and right now, the 15 years I've been living, I wouldn't change a single thing. I have the most amazing best friends, and I have the most amazing family. They are everything I need and could ever ask for. They are my life, my entire life and without them I wouldn't have life, without them I wouldn't want to. LIFE I NEVER WANT YOU TO CHANGE, stay amazing forever! Oh and Christmas is coming soon, and oh god:| I'm stressing about money, I need a job. I NEED one.....:(

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04
Dec 2007
3:52 PM EST
   

Life is just'why'! Everything that is questioned ends up being why this, why that and the only answer that can be givin is because, because everything in life happens for a reason,and usually a reason can't be given. Life is to short to be told why, when life should be lived and learned.
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28
Nov 2007
5:58 PM EST
   

mind.

Everything is rapidly changing, the little things and the big ones. People are coming and going, while some stay right there. Family has their ups and downs, and usually the downs are what get you most. Life doesn't change for you, but you have to change life for yourself.

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12
Nov 2007
5:14 PM EST
   

Jessica Boucher.
I could write a book about you, and tell you everything and more about our friendship. Your one person I really could never live without because we've tried many times. No matter how many fights, apologys, defriending we go through we'll always end back up to that special place. I dont even understand our friendship, I dont understand our special place, or special friendship, or special humor because unlike a lot of people we have all these special things that only we will get, only we'll enjoy. You may not understand me completely and I may not understand you either but with our friendship its not about understanding its more about caring, and how we have our hearts on our sleeves for each other.� We've gotten in many fights and still there is a lot to come, because we are close friends and we'll have tons of disagreements.� We both have troubles of keeping the things that we need to talk about with each other in and thats why we have the bad times we do.�
I love hanging out, and I miss how we use to have so much fun.� I miss spending weekends together just me and you and doing the most random things, but yet they were always so much fun because it was us who were doing them together.� I miss how we use to plan every weekend with each other and when we'd go to each other first for everything.� I miss everything about how we use to be, because as much as I love our friendship now, it just seems to serious, to different.� So lets go back to how things use to be, if thats possible because it was so surreal, so fun, so random, so amazing, so perfect.�
You are my best friend, you are a person I tell my secrets to, and who I vent to when I'm feeling down.� I'm glad I have you because you really do help, but girl nothing is better then having our talks early in the morning, and sitting on my couch.� Promise we'll hang out again soon, being completely sober and completely alone and have amazing amounts of fun because I MISS YOU more then anyone else in the world right now.� I love you, you are my best friend, and no matter what goes on we'll always be best friends.
I can remember the first couple times we met, they were so much fun.� When we went to the mall and sat in the circle.� I'm not sure I remember the first time you slept over though, but I'm so glad we finally met, because you are extra special and I would have been missing out if we didn't meet.
NOT DONE!
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12
Nov 2007
3:58 PM EST
   

You, you, and you.

You #1.
You dont give me butterflies, you dont make me nervous, and you definitly don't like being nice to me, but when you are you make me giggle and smile and just really happy. Lately you actually talk to me, and as much as your nice to me, I'm nice to you too. I hate how I don't know what your thinking, or anything to do with you but I'm sure you'd want to know whats going on in my head to. We talk a lot now, in class and on msn. I'm not quite sure how to explain this, because I dont even know if I actually like you, but right now I'll say that I have a crush on you because you make me happy. I now would call you one of my friends, and I never though I'd say you were a guy I could potentially really like.

You #2.
You are my closest guy friend for sure, and I dont know how this happened but it did. You probably don't know how much you acutally mean to me, but you mean a lot because you are always there for me, and you probably tell me just as much or more then I share with you. Its really weird to have someone like that, but I'm glad because I want to feel like you can trust me too, because I actually care about you, a lot. You know when something is bugging me, and even if I wont tell you, your there trying to help with what information I have told you, your amazing you really are. I can't help but be annoyed by people saying that I like you and that you like me becuase just as much as you probably think I like you, I think you like me. I know I'm wrong and I really never want things between us to ever change, I dont care that we flirt that times because to me that means nothing, your a guy, I'm a girl. That'll happen no matter what, and right now I dont care what people think. Your an amazing guy and I really wish our friendship was more open, just I dont want people to get mad or to start saying more unnessicary comments. I'm not embarrassed of you, I'm just annoyed by everyone else.

You #3.
Shut up, your all full of shit and I'm sick of feeling sorry for you. Grow up your old enough to end all this bull shit you cause and try to get attention for, stop being fake to people and grow some balls. Be a man because right now your acting like a little boy, a little boy who can't take care of anything himself. Get some confidence because you know your attractive, your gorgeous, and your nice and funny and your just everything. I can't tell you that enough, really your the complete package. You can get almost any girl, you can make friends with whoever you want. Your a good guy, and I really dont think I can deal with you anymore, no wonder you loose friends quickly. You give up when one thing goes wrong, you give up and you blame everything on everyone else. Its not just their faults but your own too, you need to learn to take responsibility before you blame others. I really like you as a friend, and I really just want the best for you, please just I want you to finally learn a meaningful lesson, because right now you suck at life. I'm glad we're friends again though, so thank you for that.

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12
Nov 2007
3:40 PM EST
   

The Truth

The truth is what haunts me, its what scares me and what hurts me. The truth is eventually what makes you happy, but breaks you up before that feeling. The truth is what you didn't want to know, but were meant to know and what your suppose to know. The truth is like all the things that you never wanted to happen, but eventually do. The truth is what keeps you from everything you want, but knowing the truth is what is keeping you back. The truth isn't anything I ever want to hear. The truth to me should never be shared no matter what unless your strong enough to handle it, because to me the truth is never possitive, ever!
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02
Oct 2007
1:36 PM EST
   

Finding something you never ever thought you could have, and only dreampt the most surreal dreams about comes true. Its unimaginable, its so drastic and a big deal but when you find it and once again loose it, and just can't seem to let go that when you start to loose hope. Everything everyone ever wants, is what you can not have no matter how much you want it or how much you try. You can sacrific but to know it wasn't suppose to happen doesn't that make you wonder that you weren't suppose to go through this. Things come and go, and the things that really matter go too. No matter how much you want it, or how hard you hold on, everything just comes and goes. It makes you think what life is really about, is it about happiness or once that comes is that just going to get taken away too? The only thing that seems to like to stick around is misary accompanied by pain and hurt. They make a great trio, no matter how much you just want them to go, they stick together and are the most difficult things to push back out when they arrive. Pain, Hurt, and Misary are three of lifes worst qualities, and yet your stuck with them for your whole life, no matter how much you hate them some things just never change and never will. Lifes a bitch, try not to help pass on the trio to anyone else, no matter how bad it is, no one deserves it no matter what.

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02
Oct 2007
1:16 PM EST
   

Sometimes when your so far down all you want is for someone to stick with you at your side to help you up, just so that you know your not alone and you wont have to be untill your ready. Sometimes its nice to know how much people care and how much they really appriciate you. Sometimes you just wish things were different, and that things would just change this once for you, because its something you want so badly. Sometimes life just sucks, and most the people in it are just a whole lot of ignorant people who are just taking up the empty room left inside of you, just so this one time you can feel like no ones missing.
Sometimes you try so hard to convince yourself of one thing so that much it seems unbelievable, andjust sometimes it hurts to know you can't even tell yourself the truth and you think of lies to cover it all up. Sometimes what you think is best is the worst thing possible and anything but the truth is just a lie no matter how big or small it may be. The truth may hurt, but a lie is just as bad or so much worse. Sometimes its just nice to hear a lie to cover everything else up, and make you smile for once no matter what the outcome at that point in time at least its happiness. Sometimes you just do what it takes, and this time isn't sometimes.

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23
Sep 2007
5:58 PM EST
   

Why do we do this, why do we even talk anymore. I dont see a point nor i probably ever will. Don't just assume that you know me anymore, because you dont you know nothing about me. I'm not a bad influence, and I'm not going to pressure anyone into doing anything they dont want to do, because I hate when people do that to me. Don't just assume I'm this bad person, and its my life. It really doesn't matter if I do it or not, I dont think I'm cool, and not everyone is like me and I'm not like everyone. Your right it was weird actually talking today, but when we were together in person it was so awkward you were the reason I cried. Just seeing you, its been almost four months then one night with your girlfriend we hang out again. I'm sorry I avoided you, I'm sorry I even said sorry, I'm sorry I hugged you, I'm sorry I asked you to make sure things weren't awkward but after that it just got worse. I'm sorry I actually cared enough for it to make my night shit, I'm sorry I want things to be fine between us again, and I dont mean being friends, I just mean that everything is fine because I still haven't let everything go when I know I should. I'm sorry that I gave/give up, I'm sorry for the past and everything in the future, I'm sorry we're still talking. You know I say sorry a lot, but also know every sorry I make I actually mean, and even if its not nessicary I still feel the need to say it. So I'm sorry once again for everything.
A lots changed for both of us, your a better person now you just not the same and to tell you the truth I'm really proud of who you are now, and I still dont think people understand you, I sure as hell don't. I never have but it doesn't mean I dont understand you either. I would be so happy and proud of everything you've done this far in your life, a couple mistakes you've made have been bad but for you the good always makes up for it. Your a good guy, sometimes I just wish you'd cut her some slack and hold her from the heart ache. I'm sure she does it too, but for her shes done nothing wrong to deserve anything bad, but you still need a little more.
I miss being close, I miss being able to talk about the awkward things without it being awkward, I miss just being about to call you. You were someone special but your not really anymore, but to anyone who asks your one of the greatest people i've ever met even though no one knows why after everything that has happened. Some people judge you before they get to know you, and most of the time thats to bad but you probably wouldn't let them in anyways. When you do let people in though, they are really really privledged people, because your a really great friend more of the time to your friends. Anyone is lucky to have you as a friend, and the friends you do have are actually also some of the most amazing people I have ever met. You pick really good ones, no wonder you never really get hurt by those people.
I hope your actually happy with your life, because I'm overly jealous I always have been since we became friends, and I've always envyed you more then any other one of my friends. You just are so strong and powerful and you know how to use your power, even though you do take people for granted sometimes it doesn't matter because everyone does at times. I think sometimes your to emotional, kinda like a girl lmfao but other then that you've got yourself together. You hold yourself high, and at least you know who you are because most people dont, i really dont know who I am or even really who I want to be.
It's been a while since I've really said anything about you, I just still can't handle it, and it sucks a lot because my best friend is dating you. I finally want to be fine, just friends not best friends or close friends but just friends. No strings attached, you really dont know how much I would appriciate that. I just miss being friends, I dont want to be like before, not one thing like before. We're still the same minus everything. This is to you, old best friend, and new friend. I hope this time we never fight even though you think its funny to fight with me. Time can only tell, and your one hell of a person to give up on 100%.
I hope this time your not such a fuck face.
:) heres to being friends.
good luck.
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22
Sep 2007
7:37 PM EST
   

You irritate me, you've changed and you've become someone else? Where was that person I first met, just suddenly that person is gone. We hang out, and my view of you changed, and we hang out again and it changes more. Its not a possitive change its completely the opposite. What are you doing seriously, trying cigerettes, doing weed all the time and not giving two shits. Telling guys you want to have sex with them, and going from guy to guy all the time, like who do you think you are. Stick with a guy or just shut up about liking any single one of them because obviously you dont like them if you can just throw them away when one little thing goes wrong. Don't fall for my close friend either because i really dont want to help pick up any of your boy problem peices because usually you get yourself into stupid situations that are to pointless to deal with. Him I'll help him because he doesn't come to me about every problem with a girl, but you come EVERY time some very�little thing comes up, your running for help and I dont even know what to tell you, you just set yourself up for all of this and going from guy to guy every day and falling hard for them kinda seems childish. I'm sorry I just can't stand you right now, everything about you just makes me so furious and ya part of it is because he likes you, and not me anymore but most of it is being your fake when your around anyone else but just me and you. Stop putting on a show, its not just annoying for me to watch but its annoying for everyone. Just smarten up seriously, being stupid will get you no where, and your way better then that. Your just not the same best friend that I had before, you just want everything I dont. I dont want drinking and drugs, and you say you quit but look at last time you said you quit but really you kept doing it. You said their was no point, sometimes you just suck at keeping your word actually I would say�you suck at it all the time. Your loosing my respect for you rather quickly, and I'm not going to change you into what i want you to be, because clearly this is what you want and I'm not going to control your life. Good luck, I'm sticking around but im not sure how much more I can handle. Your not�being replaced, and i'm not�sure if�you can see that. I'm sorry for making it�feel like you are but even though�I have someone who is closer to me now�doesn't mean�I dont�want you to still be that person but sometimes�you just can't be and your just not who i want to tell everything to anymore. I love you, your a good best friend but you just dont seem right anymore, I'm really sorry.
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20
Sep 2007
5:30 PM EST
   


LAUREN AVERY
You know when you just find a friend, that your so scared to become so close with because you dont want to stop being that close ever! Even though it eventually comes when you grow farther and then closer again and that all the time. I just found a friend like that, even though we've gone through so much, so many fights, so many laughs, tears, befriending, backstabbing, frontstabbing, homewreaking, it's all been done. Yet through it all we're still friends, and now we're best friends. You know my secrets no one else does and even though it may seem we ruched this friendship I dont think we did because we've been friends for a while now, and now I think we'll stay close for a really long time. I really hope, at least. You make me laugh, your always there, you live semi close, you are just AMAZING, you help me with everything even when you can't, your just a really really really great friend so thank you.
I call you when I need anything, you just are always there wanting me to cheer up. You never give up even when you think you're not helping but trust me you always do. I just love how you treat me, with such respect and I'm just so thankful for you because really I don't know who I could talk to about some of these things I'm dealing with, without feeling guilty for telling that person. I know I can trust you, and just know you can trust me with anything. I don't tell anyone anything you ever tellme, because im not about to make the mistake of loosing you for telling one stupid pointless secret. Your better then that anyways, you would deserve much more, but as of right now I trust you, and I don't tell your secrets. I don't like your boyfriend, which can be a mojor plus so you dont have to worry about me ever, I would never do that to you. Promise!
So this is to you, Best Friend you better not EVER EVER EVER leave my side.
I love our sleep overs even if we stay in and just talk or go out and creep or just anything I love hanging out because I'm so comfortable around you.
* * * * * * * * * * * *
You are my best friend and I'm proud of it.
I love you, thank you so much for everything.
Perfect[L]

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19
Sep 2007
5:12 PM EST
   

1. Familiy is always the toughest to deal with, the people who are most on your mind even when they arn't! They are most important and yet are taken for granted so greatly. To fight with a family member is like putting a whole through your heart and each fight only makes that whole bigger and even when it starts to get small again someone finds a way to rip it back to being big. They are the people you can't stand living with but couldn't live without. No matter what, they are your family and your family will stick by you through everything, even when it feels they want you to die just as much as everyone else does.
2, Friends are the people you go to with you problems, and go to for you laughter.� People who have true friends know the feeling of being truely accepted without having to change, being able to act themselves, and being able to share your secrets.� With friends its quality over quantity, and the people who have a lot of friends but no close ones are the people who are missing out.� Friends are the security and the joy in life no matter what problems they may cause, they are the people who can be family in you heart.
NOT DONE
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18
Sep 2007
5:52 PM EST
   

Realize it or not but you brought me down so much. You've made me so uncomfortable to live, and as I'm worth nothing to anyone on this earth. You called me a pig, I'm glad you compair your daughter to a fucking animal. If I had to compair you to an animal I'd compair you to an ass because that is what you are, and really I have a right to be able to cal you that! Why did you have children if all you we're going to do is treat them with such a low level of respect thinking that you of all people are better then them, when really your not at all. The days go on, and I'm loosing more respect for you, and same with my own mother. Get your finger out of your ass and call me, your suppose to be the bigger person, your the one who did something wrong this time and don't make your fucking wife call because shes not my mother, and Im not even going to call her my step mother anymore. She has no right to have any say about anything in my life, and if I'm able to stay away from her for the rest of my life I'm sure as hell fine with that. I didn't say one thing to hurt you, or offend you and yet you pulled out all these shitty low words to call me, seriously whos the immature person in this situation really think about it. A 15 year old girl who didn't say shit to a father who is screaming in her ear about how shitty she is or the father who is 44 and has the guts to tell me I'm an immature pig, and that its hard to love his own fucking daughter and that you dont want to see me again? You tell me I'm running away from my problems, well look at yourself you just ran away from me. Look at yourself for once, stop thinking your so perfect. Your such a stubborn fucking jack ass, seriously stop being so god damn frustrating and take the blame for things for once, because as much as you think this is ALL my fucking fault its not, and you better tell your wife that too because something in her mind thinks I'm the worst person in the world too. You disgust me, you really make me sick. You full of shit, everything you've told not only me but Jordan too is a whole lot of bull fucking shit. " Our doors are always open" then you yell at me if i just want to stop by to pick up some of my stuff. You yell at me for not calling you, yet you have a phone too? FUCK YOU both. If I could choose, I'd only see Trinity and Karagan because really those two are the only ones who I know love me and will stick by me because ill stick by them.
Just stop telling me how to run my own life, you dont give me any freedom, you make me feel scared to ask you if I can even go out, you put to much preassure on me and what do I do to you? Stop telling me how I'm dissapointing you, and how terrible I am in your eyes because really you're not the ones who raised me and I think I'm being a great person. I may not be how you want me to be but I dont care how you want me to be, I dont care if Im not the smartest person I just dont care I only care about my happiness. You make me miserable, and now i hope your fucking happy too.
Carry this on much longer and I wont even call you myfamily.
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17
Sep 2007
5:19 PM EST
   

Why are you do this to me, because really I dont have a problem with it at all. You already have someone you care so much about yet your telling all these girls you want to be with them, and you want to have them but you already have someone. If you dont want her anymore fine but stop pulling everyone you like around with you, because everyone knows you'll never leave her. I'm just scared I'll fall for you too, and make the same mistake I made a couple months ago. Your my close friend, your so attractive, your smart, your nice, your an amazing guy but your treating me any way you can. You had no right to tell me that you want something with me and that im the only girl you could never get even if your tried your hardest because thats all bull shit. Just tell yourself what you want but its really not what your heart wants, all your words come crashing down and hurting me. I can't fall for you and I wont because I'm always the girl that the guys with girlfriends fall for, and this isn't fair to me. If you really liked me, you would break up with her, its not that difficult. Just don't think I'll go along with it, because god knows I will even though everything I said above i should stick to but its hard when I could eventually have you. But for now, I dont have you and I can't so Im not going to get all wrapped up in your words telling me that you would stop smoking weed, or that you'd keep this all a secret or that you really believe that im different from all the other girl because as much as I want to believe you with everything. I'm having a really hard time with it, I love you but only as a friend. You we're stupid to tell me it in the first place, and I'm keeping my mouth shut about it all, and I really want you to do the same even if nothing ever happens.
Its just to hard. Im sorry.
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16
Sep 2007
11:04 AM EST
   

Wow, just when you think every thing is gone. Everything from your past, that was part of the worst and best times are back, and yet the worst of things stayed away. I really just dont want a reappearance of the greater past, because all it will be is a nightmare. I'm so glad I can be friends with someone i treated so poorly in the past but I guess forgiveness is something you are acceptant to everything. I love you, and being around you and hanging out and everything. You are such a good friend, and someone so easy to talk to. I trust you with everything, and I really hope you feel the same with me, because lately I can't trust anyone it seems but you I can trust with everything and Im sooo glad of that.
Im sorry for everything in the past and all the harm I've done to you and your life. Im so glad we/ you put everything in the past and that we now know we can really get through anything. Remember the promise we made a long time ago that we would never fight over a guy ever again,I think thats one promise I will actually be able to keep, because I don't think I've kept many in my life time!
I hope we can be friends for a really long time, your one person who I enjoy going to. Your a really good person, I love you Lauren Avery!
Your one of a kind.

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Sep 2007
4:09 PM EST
   

What happened, where did our friendship go. I never think about you anymore, I never actually want to talk to you but yet I do at times just to check in once in a while. I just still dont want to completely throw our friendship away because what we had going was something good, and for the longest time I thought it was just physical but really once you were gone I realized I would have rather kept you around with just a friendship. I've realized that the best of things usually dont stick around, and I tried and at times you did too but it just was to forced, and thats why we fought and thats why we gave up. Enough was enough, and as much as it sucked I'm glad we're not friends anymore, and even though your someone I trust more then anyone I still know I can't ever really go to you for anything again. For some reason though, you come to mind when I think of a strong friendship, even through everything I hold such a high respect for you when i shouldn't. Im so glad you have a girlfriend who took you back, and that you love so much. You deserve great people in your life and that is exactly what you have, even though some of those people I dont respect I know they are all great because at one time I was best friends with them too. It just sucks that I lost all of them along with you, but im glad thats how it happened and i still have one of them who i know means a lot to me!
I love you, a part of me always will.
Your not such a Prince Charming in my eyes, but your still perfect.
Congratulations!

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