scarlett's Journal

hahaha, ok, so, I went to the starbucks opening at the mall today and a local singing group wrote a song especially for the occasion, something like, "frappuccinos, cappuccinos and deserts, something something, we're gonna treat you right!" so if you hear it on a commercial in future, it all started at the mall at marathon in the bahamas!

I love my dad but with my mother feeling so sick all of the time, he tends to drag me to all of these work functions so I basically sat on the sidelines drinking samples (white mochas are da bomb) while he congratulated everyone "on behalf of the mall". which is fine...but i wish my mother was able to get out more. i know that her back bothers her but she has, by choice, dropped out of the public eye entirely. people don't even know that she is alive/still married to my father. we are more than willing to make allowances for her discomfort. i will personally drive her home if it hurts too much. heck, she walks 10 miles every morning but won't spend 10 minutes at a social function. i know im being hard on her, but what is a diary for if not for all the dark little thoughts that pop up in your head every day?

i saw hairspray afterward, which was great...surprisingly...and now i feel all motivated to make changes. i also feel better about my situation. someday someone will love me for who i am ^^. it may not be soon but it will happen and i will be happy. everything takes time.