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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! I AM 32 YRS OLD NOW...where has time gone?

David called me to wish me a Happy BDay...he even told me to go out to dinner and have a good time...we really did not have the money--but he said not to think about that...I went to Sonic...HAHA! and then took Charlie to Dairy Queen to get some ice cream...being 32 is not so bad...

Dear Journal,

Whats with all the quotes on the top??? I am so bored. Today I had to write this Letter in the coloniel times. It was kinda fun. Well there is nothig to write. Well there is somethig to write but I wrote in my private joural....

-Irene

Dear Journal,

I don't know what to do. I was born and lived in Oregon till I was about 10 years old. Then my mother decided that we were going to move to Montana. I have moved a lot since I have been in Montana though. I have lived in Denton, coffee Creek, and Great Falls Multiple times, Then I live in Centerville, Stocket, and Lewistown, each one time. For the past. Last year I moved to Lewistown right before I started high school as a freshman. It was going great I thought that I had a lot of friends. But I was getting depressed and needed some help that I just didn't get in time. My mom and I were fighting all time. One night, I had a break down in OverDosed on Tylenal. I was so sick, but I really wanted to do. After that she moved me back to Denton, where I was worse even before living in Lewistown because it is that small town so everything about everyone know's. Everyone here gets along great together, except me. I am not athletic at all. But here everyone thinks that you are a bad and horrible person if your not. I am not bad or horrible. I just dont like basketball or softball. I hated having a gym class because of it. Also in the town if you are a little over weight at all, your FAT. I am not fat though, I know it. I am adverage, but its hard to believe after everyone tells it to you. I cutt on myself because I want out of my life so bad. I think it would be better if I left this town/school. My family had a plan to move back to portland at the end of this year after my sister graduates high school. But in order to be out of here in a few weeks my mother has to go to portland to find us a house the weekend of my sisters graduation. So my mother wants my sister to watch my little brothers for the week since I will still be in school and cant watch them till school is out. But Alyssa my sister was a graduation camping trip that week, and I just cant miss anymore school. So anyways, My mother says that we cant move because alyssa is being selfish. I can not stay in this school of another year. I would rather die that stay here or go to school here. I refuse to. Well I am 16 so I could drop out...which is what I will end up doing if I stay here. Its just these people here make it miserable for me here. I cant take it anymore. Plus, my little sister and I need tharapy (She is ADHD and I just have a Servere Depression Disorder) which we cant get here because its so far away to get it.Anyways I have to go but I will get back you. Sorry If I come off to strong, love Court