Okay, so I love this song called "Defying Gravity" from the broadway musical, Wicked. Whether it be the broadway version or the version Idina Menzel(Elphie) turned into a single for her CD, whenever I listen to it, during the�highest point�portion of the song, I get goose bumps. This song is so inspirational.
This song talks about, just what the title states, defying gravity. True, unless you are a bird, or some one who hasn't been detected by the Government to be able to levitate yet, then this is ALL just metaphorical.
However, the metaphorical sense is probably about the best sense, because it lifts up�your mood and just how you are!
To defy gravity, this means to not let things get you down! Defy whatever is getting you down, whether it be: life, parents, boyfriends, girlfriends, or even friends, work, school, the economic downturn this country has seen.
I have taken on this attitude in the last year, and it has helped TREMENDOUSLY! Life truly is what you make it, so when life gets you down, defy it! If you're flying solo, at least you're flying free!
Don't play by the rules of someone elses game...trust your instincts, close your eyes, and leap..Try defying gravity.
Don't accept limits just cause someone says they're so...There are some things you cannot change, but you won't know until you try...All of this and more is in the song. True, some words are in the broadway version that aren't in Menzel's version...
I have turned this song, "Defying Gravity," into a personal philosophy of defy gravity...I don't let things get me down. True, this mindset may make me seem cocky, but in truth this has made me more sure of myself, more confident, and a stronger person.
We all have the ability to defy gravity...sometimes it takes someone, to either push you over the edge to where you can't take it anymore, or someone to tell you that someone is opressing you so much that you need to defy them!
"Tell them how I am defying gravity, I'm flying high defying gravity..." Tell that to those who wish to keep you, your sould, your mind, your spirit grounded.
Defy Gravity, Defy life, Defy them all!
Hahahaha I�did and it was fantastic!!! nothing happened I swear! it was�just a lot of making out, talking, laughing and cudling....really great night.....
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i can't figure out why it is that he's now in charge and taken over everything ......� which he says is going to all work out....� yet i still feel the world crashing down around my ears....� i feel like the world is laughing at me cus im a huge freaking joke of a human being.� the baby came home for good today.� i wonder if i'm up to it..... though when the mood hits him he takes care of everything himself.� it's just that the mood comes and goes....� i've done nothing but sleep or cry all day.....� i guess now that its actually a normal time to sleep i'll take something to help and go to bed....
today was ok. am notw in the sixth form and am slowing being crushed under the amount of homewokr that is given. i never actually thought that it would be such a step up from gcse years, but it so is. i still feel a bit, kinda blurgh, cos i havent really made anymore propoer close friends. i dont�know...
i have actually statred to count down the days untik half term, 2 weeks�to go! although there is one highlight beforehand- house music, which�i have managed to avoid for the last two, but it is actually really fun, we're doing the circle of life, from the�lion king, and it has really got us hyped up about next year, co sthen it will be my turn to order people around- mwah ha ha.�
went to lily's indulgence�tosay after school with emma and sahira, which was�good�as we havent been out after school fo rages, although we�talked a lot about school�which atilll annoyed me.�
have started�to plan my birthday party. cos�sahira is only 2 days after me we are going�to�have a joint party this year- yippie at her house so it should be a�lauh- fingers crossed x x x�
�today has been such a brillent day. and tommrow will be even better. we are going to the food festival in manchester agin. W are also going to �my in-laws �house which is in clifton england i call it riley mansion. It is so gorgeous there.They have a big garden. And there is a path that i walk down and visit the horses. They also have sheep. And the church we go to is also a favorite of mine. It is called st.john fischers. I think �it will be an exciting day. We plan on coming back on sunday. �I'am hoping that the weather will be really good.We take the bus. This time i am packing alot lighter then before as it is easier to carry that way.
�Last week we had a brillent party. there is alot of people in our family and about 20 of them were there.There was alot of terrific foods and it was so nice to visit.My sister in law also has a mini trampoline that she lets me use. �I have been on a weight loss program. I started doing belly dance for fun and excersize and lost from 165 american pounds to 126 in three months. That is from 12 stone in brittish weight to 9 stone in three months. and i am manageing to keep the weight off but latly i've been eating alot more so ill see if i can keep it off. �wish me luck!! i hope you have a brillent day take care
this is the first one and will probably be the shortest due to the fact that i have started this close to the end of the day.� the husband will be home soon and of course i will have to get off the computer and try to have some kind of civil interaction with him and the kids.�
a little background on me....� i'm a 30 something mom of three girls.� i do have a full time, decent paying job but am home bound right now on short term disability due to having had surgery almost two weeks ago.� i've been stuck in this house.� and recently all our financial troubles came to light to the husband.� things i had been trying to take care of on my own and not having to worry him about.� things that quickly got out of my control and now may cost us our house.� so now he knows my dirty little secret and even though he tries to act like nothings wrong, i know at this point he despises me.� ok.� maybe that's not entirely true.� i think he should despise me.� i'm disgusted by myself.� so pretty much the electric�company will be disconnecting our service at any given moment, the landlord will be starting the eviction process probably this weekend.� and our vehicle will be repossessed sometime between now and next week.� i'm not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me.� i realize that i brought this on myself.� i just needed to put down somethings that i obviously can't say to him.� because even though he tries to act like he doesn't hate me i know that at the very least he resents me and i've come to the point where i don't feel comfortable talking to him about anything.� my thoughts and feelings at this point aren't worth a grain of sand.� i put us in this position.� i have been on the phone all day trying to work some things out.� i think i have accomplished a couple of things.� i just feel like such a failure.�
so now i'm almost two weeks out from my surgery.� i had my post op yesterday.� the doctor asked me if i wanted to go back to work.� i almost said yes just for the simple fact that i am so sick of being stuck in this house.� i'm not even alone, a family member of my husband's lives with us.� one i have never gotten along with well.� and who likes to take over the house like it's his and i'm just a squatter.� yes, this is our house and HE lives with US.� he pays rent now and then.� but this is MY�house.� not his.� his favorite thing to do is to wait till i go in the living room to watch tv, then come and sit in the living room and talk on his cell phone.� now mind you, our living room tv is a 57 inch tv we were given for christmas and it's the only tv that thas this digital converter on it.� he has a digital converter in his room but he broke his remote so he comes in the living room because of that and the fact that we have that huge obnoxious tv.� i feel like he does the things he does just to irritate me.� my husband says its just because he has no respect for women because he's allowed both his wives and both his daughters to treat his like he's a piece of trash.� and he also believes that everyone owes him.� he alone lost everything he owned and we were gracious enough to take him in after his daughter threw him out for the same things he's doing to me now.� but because he is not my family member, i have no say in the matter.� i have always said i don't want him living here.� but it's never been up to me.� and now unfortunatly we have gotten into the financial situation we are in and we need his money... no matter how or when we get it.�
i think that at this vary moment, my main problem is that i'm sick of being stuck in the house,�hungry, and lonely.� i don't really have a whole lot of pain still from my surgery.� there are times it does hurt, if i over do it or what not.� i already take anti-deppressants but i'm starting to wonder if i'm slipping into a depression that my meds won't help.� i've heard that its easy for people who are home bound after a major surgery to fall into a depression.� i was told that it happened to one of my family members though i never saw any signs from them.� i only know what i was told by their spouse.� i just feel like i've screwed everything up AGAIN as usual.� i feel like a failure.� like i've let down my family and my friends.� my friends that have tried to help me get out of my destructive behavior only to get right back to where i was.� right now i feel like taking a few vicodin and a xanax or two and just zoning out the rest of the day.� i've been on the phone with creditors screaming at me, telling me what a useless piece of crap i am.� only to call my husband upset by them and have him tell me that he agrees with them.� this has been a pretty jacked up day.� i have no clue what we will have for dinner.� but i think i'm just going to go to bed.� i know he will take care of them.� i just don't have the energy to deal with anything more today.......
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