Today was a good day finally.� I started my new job at shurfine and it was decent.�I�did a lot today and now I�have off tomorrow.� After work I had went and saw my boyfriend and his kids but mainly him because his kids were cleaning their room and weren't allowed out until it was done knwoing they were coming out and bothering both of us and getting yelled at the whole entire time I was there and is still probably getting yelled at right now.�Surprisingly their mother finally got a job but it is only seasonal until the holidays are done and over with. But she is so stupid she called him up and asked him to buy her lunch.� He said hell no.� I got some today and it felt great.� I�think that I�am going to get ready here and go to bed.�
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Habataitara
Modoranai to itte
Mezashita no wa
Aoi aoi ano sora
You say that if you could fly
You would never come back
You aimed for
That blue, blue sky
Ah. >.< I cnt do this twice.. like seriously why does he make me so happy. No I cnt like him i seriously cant. I mean he's my ex's friend and its slutish of me to go around making his friends fall in love with� me.. ahh i wish he wuld just stop telling me he loves me but then idnt want him to stop. He makes me so happy & I need someone to make me feel loved & special.. I just feel so lonley and i need someone to love me.. and i think thats why i keep talking to sam.. Hes such an amazing guy & like ahh i just dnt know.. last time we tlked on the phone for like 4 or 5 hours. N theres just something about him.. <3 but waiit noo..! I'm not gonna like him..! I promise i wont..?? Ok?�
but theres a part of me that wants to give him a chance n then another part thats like whata hell..! u cnt date ur ex's friend.. its wrong..!! but ehh.. im not gonna fall for someone like my ex again.. :/ its just too much pain.. ughh.. why cant i just find someone who is serious about a relationship and actually means promises and actually cares and loves me� and doesnt hurt me and ugh..
But besides all this guy things everythings never been better.. Im So happy and i love it :] ahh i g2g.. ttyl<3