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sick cant describe the way i feel right now my other half has just rang and told me they are cutting his hours at work .wonderfull we can just say manage to pay the bills now so god help us now thanks to the allmighty cock up with banks and the govenment looks like we will have no christmas this year .i know there are thousands of pepole in the same boat but i dont know what the hell to do now cant see way out of this at the mo so i'm going to leave it there to phone round and sort this shit out .

Its been a tiring week, not only physically, but also im emotionally exhausted. Adding up with im finally drained, what im gonna do.. can someday help me to get my self again.

well at long last i have got the referal that i need for the doctor to fix me so i feel a lot better now that i know i can see some one who knows what they are talking about and who has the equipment to see what is wrong like an ultrsound finaly my gp has said i need to see some one .this week i have had three accidents in two days first i fell over a bollard at the supermarket car park then i walked into a wall then i nearly ripped my finger off on the bed frame as i walked past and broke it ,the reason for all these is my eye sight getting worse and not seeing where i'm going i know it will keep getting worse but at this rate i will kill my self soon .ah well never mind worse things happen .i'm just happy i will see a doctor very soon to get my other problems fixed .

October 09, 2008

Does anyone have something in there life that they do quite often that you just wish you could get over.� Something that is embarrassing and you just wish you could figure out stop doing.� Well I am going to share with that I have a serious problem with my coffee pot. I swear, at least once a week, I DO NOT put the pot back on and before you know it I have coffee everywhere.� Today was an exceptionally bad day, I did it twice.�If anyone has suggestions for this dysfunction…..please share.

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� ��10月6日我赶早班飞机，下了飞机就迫不及待地打的冲到北医新公卫楼前，在那里我看到一张张熟悉的脸，一切仿佛回到了久远的1978年。

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��� 30年前的今天, 我们来到首都‘good good study, day day up’, 30 年后的今天我们聚首北京问一声老同学 “How have you been, my dear”？不管是北医还是北大，这个校园都是再熟悉不过的了。我们爱北医是因为我们把人生最美丽的岁月留在了这校园的马路上和花草间。如今纽约大餐比不上当年食堂小炒的味滋味。巴黎的舞厅的霓虹也不如跃进厅的摇滚灯光浪漫。

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下午，原本安静的九华山度假村里突然来了一帮迈着青年步伐的中年男女。酒店的小姐们一定觉得这帮‘老青年’个个神经兮兮的，一见面不是连搂带抱就是咧个大嘴傻笑。不是在咖啡厅喝茶侃山，就是在卡拉OK 厅里扯嗓子唱老掉牙的情歌。居然还有雅兴跳起了上个世纪的‘三步’。一时间这本来清静的地方被这帮天上掉下来的家伙们折腾得很热也很闹。整整三十载，虽然我们的皱纹多，我们的体重增，但是，我们的魂未改，我们的心没变。杨平杨博胜夫妇俩站在歌厅中间，让我们见证爱情，他们彼此对视的眼神还像当年一样，恩爱地让我们所有人都嫉妒。我问王平，”漂亮媳妇为啥没带来”? 没想到老实的王平还是那么实在，认真地用纯正的沈阳话对我说，“老杨也没说让带家属啊”？。咱班估计只有我有幸见过他那堪称东北美女的漂亮媳妇。

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晚餐席间，代理班长老杨现场点完名，还公布了多年走失者名单，在部里身居高职的班长助理石朋建和武桂珍，年轻的郭富堂老师，大哥老谢和老张都讲了话，我是在场的老幺也落着机会感言一番，“这几年饱经‘定向力困难’的困扰，因为越来越多老大不小的人叫我阿姨, 今天突然听到有人亲切地叫我小许，我感觉前所未有的爽，谢谢大家让我找到感觉。” �敬酒，问候过后，生日歌响起，服务生推出了一个大大的生日蛋糕，丽宏热泪盈眶地吹灭了蜡烛，告诉我们，这是她人生最幸福的一个生日。她的真实感受把晚宴情绪推向了高潮。卢红蒋衡还是那么漂亮年轻，能歌善舞，是我们班 party 上永远的公主. 当年能写会画的才子崔正唱K唱出了专业水准，我说他一定为了今天专门练过一阵子，他死活不承认，我们不得不给他一个‘全能王’的称号。大哥还是大哥，老谢万里迢迢，捧自家树上结的梨为逗小弟小妹们一笑。山西人真是小气的很，远道回来的亚平和邵瑞泰被山西帮裹得紧紧地。

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� ��下午蒲公馆，主人乐呵地忙碌着，拿葡萄递苹果，点烟泡茶，估计蒲老板很多年都用不着这么殷勤了。 丽宏对李总的口才佩服得六体投地，拿着小本子把名人名言一一记录了下来，也因为聪明的高珉不在身边陪伴，可怜的丽宏被忽悠的几乎搞不懂自己是原告还是被告，气氛太好，这位销售大哥大讲到激昂得当儿自然也弄不明白自己是天上的星星还是地上的蛤蟆。小平倒在沙发上，在张抗的美国梦故事中，舒服得活像一只进入超级享受的半睡眠状态的猫。说实在的，我们都不想长大，我们只是增添了不少白发。我们都不愿说再见，我们还会在梦里回到从前。

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� ��尽管两天里只睡了两个小时觉，今天回到家里。心情还是很兴奋。晚上，我拿出一个大梨递给我刚放学回家的儿子，指着相机里的留影，告诉他是老谢伯伯的礼物，敦敦啃了一口香水梨，抬头冲我来了一句，你为啥说他老，我不觉得他老，我一会就打电话，向他告你的状。还真别说，老谢这梨真酸甜得厉害，吃完后，小孩都出了立场问题。

Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure. -- Jewish Saying

I find this quotation to be very true, because when you do find a faithful friend, one who will do anything for you, you will find a treasure. I have a friend like that, who has done more than what a normal friend would do. I thank God for him everyday, and I love him for it. So I have found a faithful friend, and in turn found a treasure, one that i cherish everyday of my life. So, if you have a friend, but don't know whether or not they are a treasure, talk with them, to find out if they are just your friend, or are more than just a friend, that they are someone who will want to do anything for you.

Blessed Be,

Nate