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        chuchi08  28, Female, Texas, USA - 4 entries
    05
    Jan 2011
    1:57 PM EDT
       

    hey hey its your gurl chalia. to day was a good day i like it so far. everyone likes my outfit and say that i look pretty.
    Tags: Good day
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        Abhijeet  52, Male, India - 44 entries
    03
    Jan 2011
    9:44 PM IST
       

    Second tooth is out, eehoww

    My second tooth is peeping out now and i can give a perfect smile these days. We got back yesterday from Dehradun and its time we started packing for Nagpur.
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        Janira  34, Female, Louisiana, USA - 19 entries
    04
    Jan 2011
    5:35 PM
       

    I just realized how depressed I am. How much hell you family can do you than a stranger. I feel as though I'm just barely living. Most of my life I've was a child trying to fit in and please everyone, which looking back now I see has only brought me hell. I realize I didn't know how to live then, and I had no family to really help or understand. They just saw me as acting up and messed up my record. I rarely got out of the house every blue moon, but people don't realize a young kid staying in the house and not really learning to communicate with others can break them in so many ways. I'm a great example. Here I am at nineteen and I still don't really get to get out the house much but then I'm still living with my family. I actually didn't live the house for thanksgiving break which was a whole week. I want to be a christian but my family could care less they perfer the caltholic way and could careless about mine. I don't hate my family but I can't wait till I can leave. I don't really have anyone I can really trust and I'm to scared to even reveal my scars of my life. I feel as though I can afford a friend. You have to have a phone, decent surroundings, and not be ashamed of you self, have food at your house or be able to go out. I feel as though my life's been up for a long time and i'm still trying to dig myself out of things I've done and my family. I don't have a church of my own I .... feel like crap, so much lately. And that I couldn't trust telling a person everything about be because they'd look at me differently. And most of the time when I tell a person something and forget to update them with details I end up looking like a liar. and when you do something wrong some people most adults hold that against you and talk down on you or don't even look at you....
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        skylight2011  40, Female, Kentucky, USA - 2 entries
    04
    Jan 2011
    1:26 PM
       

    Drugs

    Why do people do drugs? Is it a high they just can't live without? Is it fun not knowing what you're doing and acting like you can barely hold your head up? Is it fun taking your life in your hands? What happens when it's more than you can handle? I work in a motel. There have been two fatal overdoses in the last few months. Both of them young men. Both of them in their twenties. One was 24, just a year younger than me, and the last was 28. Both men still had their lives left to live. Neither of them were married, neither of them got to say goodbye to their loved ones. Drugs are bad, people. If you mess with them, you will lose your life. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but someday. Death is relentless anyway, but to play with your life like that, to do something as trivial as drugs-it's a waste. Don't throw your life away.
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        tami2005  39, Female, Alabama, USA - 12 entries
    03
    Jan 2011
    6:49 PM CDT
       

    Today was a good day. I kinda got mad at a couple of things but then again being here that is just a part of life and all I can do is bite my tongue. Hopefully one day we will be out of here and I will not have to worry about all that is going on here...The stress that I have from living here makes it so hard to keep my head on straight and not want to go back to the past but every day I get up and tell myself that it is not worth it and I have my family to talk to when I need them...I know that my mom is always here anytime that I need to talk to her and I am grateful for that. I just have to keep telling myself one day at a time and then one day I will wake up and this battle will be over....It will help to get in a different place but that will come in time....Thanks to my mom for being here for me when I need to talk to....you are more help than you know....I thank you for all you do and I love you.

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        Janira  34, Female, Louisiana, USA - 19 entries
    03
    Jan 2011
    4:56 PM MST
       

    I went to an Interview for a paid Internship Job.

    I had an Interview today, It's for an internship that works with kids after school, helps them with homework, and gives them fun things to do rather than get in trouble. I was shocked and excited that I got. Out of all the seniors at my school 20 were selected and from that ten for interviews and I was one of them. It was my second interview in my whole life. I was really nervous but they were kind and funny christians. However I felt like I couldn't get my words out right. lol. They had called me for an interview that day. When then called the first time I wasn't home and my grams answered the phone but then forgot if she told them to call back or what which really had me frantic.However thank god they call again and after I got the call I went for the interview talk about sudden. After wards I felt like I couldn't breath. Part of me whats to get the job but another part doesn't. It's a paid internship and I do need the great reference and the money and it would be fun to work with kids I think. If it's God will I say let it be but if not I'm okay. They said I can still volunteer if I want to which is great.
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        lovelymonster  29, Female, Virginia, USA - 5 entries
    03
    Jan 2011
    1:20 PM CDT
       

    With a finger on the trigger,
    I'm slipping through your hold that barely lingers,
    Your words are like the bullets that are ending every part of me,
    Please don't go, not ever because I can't set you free.

    Watching you walk away is like a thousand razor blades through my lungs and heart,
    I'm choking on my words as my life crashes down around me and crumbles all apart,
    Without you, I feel so empty and utterly small,
    You are the reason why I'm even here at all.

    Without you, I feel so dead inside that my thoughts are so fucked up and I feel so alone,
    Being in your life is the only good thing that I have ever known,
    I take a deep breath and close my eyes for the last time,
    I don't want to live a day without you being mine.

    With a finger on the trigger,
    I'm slipping through your hold that barely lingers,
    Your words are like the bullets that are ending every part of me,
    Please don't go, not ever because I can't set you free.

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        tami2005  39, Female, Alabama, USA - 12 entries
    02
    Jan 2011
    7:55 PM CDT
       

    A good day


    Today was a good day today. I helped daddy in the kitchen with cooking what was suppose to be our Christmas dinner but this will be our Christmas dinner since he was not here for Christ mas due to certain issus that we were dealing with. It has helped to keep my mind off of other things that I do not need to think about. There was a couple of times that I did think about what fun it could be but then again it is not worth living that lifestyle anymore. I am glad that I have this journal so that I can let my feelings been known if it is only on paper. This is helping me fight my battle that is raging inside of me but like I have said before I can only take this one day at a time....one day at a time....I can and I will win this battle......It is getting better day by day...I love my family and the support that they give me....There is nothing like having your family by your side when you need them the most.
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        satinlady  64, Female, Florida, USA - 46 entries
    02
    Jan 2011
    2:04 PM CDT
       

    When Jesus comes ,what will� we be doing?
    �Will we� be in a� dingy bar ,or in some bed� lusting our lives away.
    �When Jesus come,Wil we be ready� to go to live in that eternal home or HELL for ever.
    When Jesus come will we be� out somplace doing drugs and get high,and never know when he comes.
    When Jesus come I want to be ready and join his army ,so we� all need to get our lives right� while we can.
    Where will you be when Jesus comes?


    � � � � �� Written by� Satinlady �������������������������������������������������������
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        tami2005  39, Female, Alabama, USA - 12 entries
    01
    Jan 2011
    6:26 PM CDT
       

    Another day


    Today was a streesful day today. I just have to focus on that things will not always be this way and that there is always a brighter day. I have not done anything bad today so for that I am proud of myself. I did get mad at someone today for something that they said...it bothered me for a while but like I said I just have to remind myself every day that things will get better. I just have to bite my tongue and focus on the postive and know in my heart that the things that my family is going through will get better and one day we will have our own place and we all will be one happy family....My� focus right now in my life is staying clean although it is a daily fight that I must fight on my own and I will one day overcome this pain and struggle that is inside of me...the next focus in my life is finding a job so that I can help out my family and myself and be able to stand on my own two feet again with out someone being there to help me...I want to know that I can do it all on my own before I have someone special in my life that I have to take care of too....If I can manage these two things then I know my life will once again be what it is suppose to be. I know that I can do it with the help of my loving mom...my loving daddy and all of my loving sisters and that is all I need in life to keep my life on the straight path....I will do this....one day at a time....I just have to keep biting my tongue right now considering this is the only place that my family and I have and I will do that even though it is hard to do at times. I look at my little nephew that is four years old and I wish that I could be that young again because at that age you have nothing to worry about...Adults take care of you but then one day you wake up and you are an adult and that is when you reliaze that life is real and that life is hard....all you can do is hold your head high and look towards the future because as long as you can resist all temptation then you have a future and I just have to keep telling mysef that I do have a future and that I am loved by my family and that is all that I need in my life right now...Good night my dear journal and I will write again tomorrow.

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