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lizzypooh 40, Female, California, USA - 25 entries

Nov 2006
6:24 AM PST

My mother talked to me about marriage today. I am 21 yrs old right now and have been dating my boyfriend for 7 and a half years. He's 22 right now. The thing is, our relationship is growing and it is strong, and our next step in our relationship is marriage. But I think I'm wayyyy too young to get married. I want to take care of myself and my individual goals first before giving my life to someone. That doesn't mean that I'll give up my life and goals and career once I'm married; it's just simply mean that once I'm married, it's not ME ME ME anymore, it's US. My decision is not my decisions anymore, it's OUR decisions. It's good in a way, because I care about my boyfriend's feelings and opinions and so on, but by being married, my own selfish decisions may effect my spouse. So it's like getting a decision approved and asking permission in a way. *sigh* My thoughts on this... I do want to get married in time, because I think of all the amazing and joyful things in marriage. But getting married at such a young age (nowadays) my cause lots and lots of struggles and hardship. There will always struggles in every relationship and it takes maturity and hopefully the couple can grow from it. But I feel that this is one struggle that can be avoided or lessen if we simply waited (I'm looking at 28 years old). We're not financially secure (college students), STILL in school, very young, and I feel that most guys are not ready to take care of a wife until they're in their late twenties (when they already had their fun and ready to settle down). I worried about the trust in marriage. Becayse of media, I never realize how much husbands and wifes cheat on each other. News, gossip, radio, you name it! I worried. I trust my bf right now, but there will be time were he MAY lust and may fall into temptation- it's human nature to want something you dont have. It's hurtful to say this, but sometimes I just think that being single will prevent heartaches, but loneliness is another heartache too. =) His parents are strict and kinda anal in a way. The father figure is pretty stubborn, since he IS a religious leader (reverend)- he's more of "it's my way or the highway." My parents worry about marrying into a religious family... not that we're bad people, it's just that my bf's family dont often act goofy or play around... they're not really socialable or party people. boohoo. that's a bummer. Everything to them has to be proper at all times, my boyfriend is not that typical pastor's kids (goody two shoes), he's a fun and goofy guy, but the future in-laws arent's. *sigh* *sigh* My goal is, i want to finish school first, then earn some $$ to pay off my student loans, then help out my parents since they're still paying the morgage (my father works to feed a family of 5 including me), then enjoy my freedom (travel, shopping, etc), save $$ for a wedding and home (houses are at least $500K ughh)... but importantly, see what God wants. More con are: by the time I'm 28 - i'll be less wanted because I'll be an old maid(the younger the girl, the sexier and more attractive she is physically-which means, the more she is wanted by men), I not be as horny as I would be compare to younghood ( I havent had sex yet so I dont know if I would enjoy it if I'm older)... Well, this is a long entry. But any advice and inputs? Thanks. I just feel like I have no support in this. I wont fall into pressure, but I dont know if my thoughts and goals are wise or wise enough.

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moonbay72 33, Female, Oregon, USA - 20 entries

Nov 2006
8:49 PM EDT

you think you know me,but you have yet to know my pain.

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bl69 33, Female, Texas, USA - 32 entries

Nov 2006
7:27 AM CDT

hey what does it do..me nothing..we lost our scrimmage yesterday but its alright..tonight though is the cooper game!! cooper is our cross town rival and we've been kickin their asses..for those who dont know this football is a HUGE deal here..we have 14 straight wins in district..for the past 2 years we've gotten district champs and always get beat out of the playoffs by number 1 south lake carroll..rich asses!! tonight better be our 15th!! last year we whooped cooper 40-0..thats what im talking about baby!! lets do it again tonight!!

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milagros 36, Female, California, USA - 13 entries

Nov 2006
5:18 PM EDT

the experiences that have given me a sence of growth is when my brother was in jail and that he could get out cause he had to be thre for 2 years.and i haded to work to take care of my other brothers and my mom. me and my mom worked almost fifteen hours and we suffered a lot.and make me think better and not doing bad things that could effect me

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blackroseangel 33, Female, Louisiana, USA - 27 entries

Nov 2006
2:53 AM CDT

i thik deon doesnt lik eme anymore and it kinda hurts. i dont know why but i have this feeling that we arent the same anymorea nd there is probably another girl but i dont care anymore i haveot finish up skool first and then i will worry about some boy but now i have to do some work cya

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lhe87 56, Female, Michigan, USA - 2 entries

Nov 2006
1:02 PM CST

Today was aweful, woke up late got in the car and was on my way to my new job of 5 days and my alarm started going off as I was getting on the freeway but my keychain clicker would not work! I had to rush home to get my husbands. THEN I was on my way (30 miles) and got a flat tire. I had to call work tell them I would be late wait an hour for Roadside. Got to work and my husband called and said that I lost my other jobs check and cursed my from "Sunday to Monday" and also left me 3 nasty messages about it and what an idiot I am. So I called him on break and he said Oh by the way, I found the check I had it the whole time! I got an every unsincere apology! This relationship is getting harder and harder to deal with. What about me? -

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TheRedGryphon 36, Female, Arizona, USA - 6 entries

Nov 2006
2:22 PM EDT

Now for my second entry which I swear it will be a little more interesting...well if you aren't interested in all that pointless drama. I have decided that I am going to my first rave this weekend called Candieland and its pretty big because the majority of my friends know about it. I am not being into that whole scene but I think that it would be fun to try something new. unfortunatly my wardrobe isnt very colorful because im a very earthy person so i think that if I stick out it will be because I will be the only normally dressed person there. I have to work till 11 tonight at the most boring job ever. it makes me want to shoot myself in the face but it pays alright. Although I have mervins, it is good for me to learn what kind of things I like doing. I love food production because of the customer interaction. I love talking, joking and making people laugh. If you try to do that in retail they look at you like youre nutz. Im ok with being crazy but Im not ok with being crazy when people aren't liking it. I just mold to the mood around me and I don't like it when I cant talk to people and make them smile. other then that my day has been pretty good. I think that I might have found a way to move on from my ex bf. Which is weird for me to say honestly, I still have to catch myself everytime I call him my boyfriend. I try to stop, he hates it and I think that he just gets more angry with me. I should start a dating line for me. Number one rule: Must know how to talk instead of yelling because yelling causes no solution.it just gets me to shut down and fester my anger till I break down. thats important. number 2 would be: money cannot mean everything. number three would be: I would like to be somewhere on the top 5 of the priorities of my boyfriend after dating for three years. there you go pretty much I think i am not a difficult person to deal with. HEY IF YOU WANT TO BE MY FRIEND GO AHEAD AND POST A COMMENT!!!THANKS love,TheRedGryphon

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Queenie 38, Female, Ohio, USA - 29 entries

Nov 2006
2:13 AM EDT

You life has been a hard trial for me . I lived on the poor side my whole life. I have had job since I was 13. I have supported my family with no experience . I have been beaten , I have been raped, I have been to jail, I have been driven to the ground , but you know what ... I came back on top . I am now 19 years old. I am a ged graduate and I am going to school and work a full time job. Life has tought me never to give it . No matter how rough the road maybe ahead of you. I learned that if you stive and work hard you will come out where you want to be . I am nothing special. Just an ordinary white girl that wants a life that her parents couldn't provide . Because I took the time to relize my mistakes ... I have come to the relisation to never give up. If i made it through drugs and made it through the streets , to live to day with the man that i love and respects me andto be sober off of crystal meth for 4 years and to be a college student at owen community college. Then you know what I am not willing to change my past but to move forward and to be thankfull that god let me live long enough to relize I am strong enough to make it on my own . I'm not saying and make the mistakes that I have made, I am telling you if you really want something and it means that much to you. Then go get it. Don't let anything stand in your way . If makes you happy then good for you. Your makin me proud . Wheather I know you or not . Anyone can steal what they want , but it takes a true person to stand up and work for it .

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ladybugmama06 40, Female, Arizona, USA - 4 entries

Nov 2006
11:42 AM EDT

yesterday my mother buy Carl's first ladybug banky. it really cute and he really love it. whenever we go somewhere, he want it with us cause he can't live without it and can't go anywhere without it too. he love sleeping with it too.

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scarsofpassion 36, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 4 entries

Nov 2006
10:44 AM EDT

Well today went really good for some reason. I supposed to go with Joe to Delware. I can't wait! Were gonna leave tonight. I love to travel. I fluncked my health test today but got 100 on my voaculary test in english. Other than that nothing has happened. Everyone is talking about the semi. Me and Amanda are like the only ones not going. I think its a waste of money because why should i pay to go to a semi and than the prom... when they're practually the same kind of dance.I'm going to have (hopefully) a good weekend! YAY l8r.

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