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My son has a daughter with an ex girlfriend who lives in Ohio. She has been real good about letting me have my granddaughter for weekends on occasion. My son pays his child support, but much to my dismay it's about all he does. I highly doubt he writes to her, calls, sends cards, ect. Since then he has married and has another daughter, and a son due this weekend. He is trying to lower his support since it was based on a single , no kids, higher paid job time in his life. I believe this is causing the ex to exclude us. She won't return any contact I try to make. I know she just moved into a new house, but have no idea where. I do not want to be put into the middle. I worked hard to get along with her, even though I don't really like her. It caused a lot of grief with my daughter -in-law, but I will due what I need to do to see my granddaughter. My son pays his support and yet makes no move for visitation.

I know not all do, but how can people walk away from their child esp when they start "new" families. He buys for his daughter, and her son all the time, and never the elder daughter. I told him I hope the ex does find a nice guy to be in her live and a daddy to my granddaughter. I am so frustrated with him.

Once again I feel like running away. We have a raffle going on in Michigan right now. My family and I went in on acouple for a shared split, but I have one none of them know about. A part of me hopes for a secret win and to run away just leaving a note behind. I think a quiet cabin in the middle of nowhere with no tv, no phone, just peace and quiet and lots of books to read. It costs nothing to dream.....

ok so i have a question. it's not retorical so some feed back would be nice please. ok so i have a boyfriend right? and we have been through alot together. i mean he stuck by me when i took all my sleeping pills and just he never left my side. and i love him so much but lately i just dont know i mean im only 18 and he, my mom, his mom and so many other people are talking about he and i getting married. im not ready to get married im to young i have to much that i havent done that i still have to do. im still going to school and i have like 8 more years of it. and he is going to start college and he doesnt even know what he wants to do yet and just idk i feel like we are both on two totally different paths. i feel like im way further ahead in the race you know? and i hate this but i am totally doubting our relationship, whether i should be with him or not. i am not a cheater and i have never been a cheater until last weekend. i got drunk he and i werent getting along i was doubting hte relationship then more than ever and i hooked up with another guy. whats weird is that i dont feel bad about it. i know thats horrible but idk what to do. and my ex just moved back and my feelings for him never went away and his never went away either and he and i were as close to perfect as you can get really. i mean it was so calm, no jealousy, fights only here and there and awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww idk what to do. do i break up wiht my boyfriend of almost a year, off and on, or do i stay with him and doubt the relationship. and no i wouldnt break up with him for my ex. any imput is good imput please.

<3 brooke

Heyy everyone one..ok..Ive been crying like all day and it sux.. Ok the reason I was crying was because me and Roger got in a big huge fite and i cant take it I cried and cried.. And it was over the stupidest thing ever.. I accidently sent him a text that was for someone else.. Yea and all it said was how i was purposely makin roger mad because he said that talkin last nite was a waste of time and I was like wat am I a waste of ur time..And i was just kiddin but then I realized that the text was aciidentaly sent to roger and he got mad for no reason..well I guess he did have a reason but I think that he is overreacting and I was soo sad and kept calling and calling and calling and he just kept declyning my calls.. Isnt that mean I sure think soo but honestly I think that I am fallin in love with him otherwise I wouldnt have gotten soo upset over hardly nothing if you all know wat im saying.. But yea soo I am hoping that wen I get home and I call him that he will answer and I will be able to talk to him and we will be ok..Because I cant handle getting my heart broken again because honestly he is the only boii that I ever liked as much as i like and i cant take it but o well im gunna go bye..bye...

xoxo,

Judi