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WOW, what a day! CN got his passport TODAY on the same day they (Mexico missions team)are leaving!

J had his K screening. It was a new, harder test and so I am not concerned but he scored a 14.5 out of 20. I guess there were only a few that were higher than that. The speech teacher was pleased with her part of the screening and said he is VERY smart! He has great listening comp!

I took both boys to Counceling at 3pm and then my mom picked them up. I took CN out the church and got to "send off" the team at 5pm! I paid 1500.00 for the remainder of CN's and several other people'sbill so when they left the trip was "paid for" That was more than I expected on paying but I was glad to do it!

so my family is set on him leavin like they can not wait... ny nana was sayin that i should start lookin for a replacement now....a replacement like hes an empolyee or something.. no one knows that i plan on stayin with him when he moves and a year later as soon as he turns 18 he's comin back out here and we're gonna live together... but i havent told anyone that... not even my best friend priscilla.... its sad but i dont want to feel like im hiding things from the others ppl i love... cuz i love mike and ever time my mom says its a family event he cant come... i think soon he will be family and you couldnt stop him from coming.... he wantsto marry me i know we're only 17 (he's actually still 16til july 18th) but i feel like he is the one for me it sounds corny and stupid cuz if i heard it id laugh but its how i feel. only thing that could possibly hinder us from gettin to that point is my attitude... its terrible im basically a bitch. i havent really done it to him yet but when i do it could break us apart forever... or him liking another girl breakin my heart again... he gives me this feeling deep in my heart one i can not get rid of.. i dont want to. and right now i have a bad feelin that hes giving up on me... on us.. and hes gonna find someone closer someone at hes school on the track team with him... some skinny little hoe... ugh... my hand cramps whenmy hearts about to be crushed unknowingly... somedays iwonder if we're meant to be or if our earth bodies are reading into the heavens a little to much.. but heres the thing.. in the summer june 14 2006 he left all of a suddenjust gone i prayed for2 months and almost 3 weeks that hed come back.. then as soon as i gave up hope he messages me and says he comin back to daygo.... and ppl wonder yi truly believe we are meant to be...so the question of the daywere and are my prayers in fain?