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        lmcgill  61, Female, Canada - 17 entries
    24
    Aug 2007
    5:08 AM EDT
       

    Ted will be home from Cyprus in about three weeks. Chris leaves in two. Luckily, I get Natalie back this weekend, and not a second too soon. I want her back now. I have been under tremendous stress during this time and I have not been given any support, only negative input from HIS family. I've done more for his little shit than anyone ever should have. I KNOW he did the crime, that I paid for. Now getting the money back from Ted will be another struggle. I have more medication in me than I ever thought possible. Leaving is NOT an option. That would put me over the edge. Once I get stable, I hope to taper off. I need some changes. Something POSITIVE for ME.
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        kristine  34, Female, Vermont, USA - 6 entries
    24
    Aug 2007
    5:08 AM EDT
       

    turns out HE likes my friend and it hurts! i need to be alone and think things over!

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        berries7cinnamon  38, Female, Singapore - 20 entries
    24
    Aug 2007
    4:50 AM EDT
       

    aunt's burial was yesterday.

    i cried a lot yesterday at the funeral because it seems... final. I cried when I was walking behind the car with her coffin. When they covered the top portion of the coffin and knowing that i couldn't see her face anymore, i cried even harder. Tears like rain drops just keep pouring down.

    i love her a lot.

    when they finally lowered her coffin down to the pit hole, part of my heart went with her. i am separated from her.

    i will always remember her habits, her mannerism and images of her will always stay with me. Her voice will fade in my memory in time to come, there's nothing i can do to stop it. Right now, i will remember how she called my name, the food she made for me with love, always saving the best for us. Her sandy voice she used to call my name, how she tried to sing a song and i laughed at her voice, how she said hello over the phone, how she told me she cried over the phone when i called her to tell her that a group of male workers trying to open my house door when i was all alone at home when i was only 10 years old, how she tried to hide me from my mom when mom was mad at me and wanted to spank me real bad when i was around 4 years old, how she kept my secrets from my mom so that mom wouldn't spank me. all that, i'll try my best to remember it for as long as i can.

    her love for me seemed so... huge that's beyond measure.

    i will miss her.
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        smb  50, Female, Wyoming, USA - 129 entries
    24
    Aug 2007
    12:50 PM MST
       

    I am actually feeling better but still heart racing and skipping a beat every once in awhile. CN came over for the weekend. I enjoyed having him here but I was pretty grouchy and snappy at him! :( I feel bad because I love him but I seem to treat him about like I did "you know who"
    headaches all weekend!
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        shadowlove  35, Female, New York, USA - 60 entries
    23
    Aug 2007
    11:08 PM EDT
       

    why is it that in the middle of the night, when everyone is asleep, I always have to get up and go to the bathroom EVERY HOUR?
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        VyVy  32, Female, California, USA - First entry!
    24
    Aug 2007
    8:12 AM PDT
       

    My "finest moment" was when i was with my friends, that's it, until a couple months ago!!! When i first came to U.S, i didn't have any friends and did not understand the language, it was when i met T. She helped me with a lot of things and i thought we were good friends. When i brought her home to introduce to my mom, mom told me that she thinks T. wasn't a good friend and i should keep a distance from her, but i didn't believe my mom. I thought she was just being overprotective like most of the parents do. Then, we went on to the next school year, we met a whole lots of new friends and made it our small army. At first, everyone talked to me, asked me for advices, said they couldn't do without me, etc..... Then, T. took over. She was now the center of everything. She shanged from a serious person to the kind always acted dumb enough for people to think that she's cool!! I was okay with that. I mean, i never really care about being the center of anything. All i ever care was that i don't want to be left-out. Then, after T. changed, i made friend with another girl, H. At first, i thought she was a good friend, but she'd proved me wrong, but i was stupid enough to believes that she'll change for me because i was a good friend to her and eventually she'll notice that. But no, she betrayed me lots and lots of time. Then, as our freshman year was about to end, everything broke out. T. led her little group of friends into bullying me and H. was the one who passed her all the information about me at the time when i thought she'd stick by me. After i'd found out the truth, i felt like a biggest fool of the world. Betrayed by my own best-friends, left with miserable and grieves. Throughout everything, i've learned not to trust anyone anymore. I'd poured out my own heart to them, but what did i get in return? BETRAYALS!!! Now, my "finest moment" has become my "saddest experience"
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        heykaro89  36, Female, Taiwan - 6 entries
    24
    Aug 2007
    10:28 AM EDT
       

    the summer vacation is almost over
    gotta pack up all the memories, wildness and lazyness wutever and hit the road.
    it's still a long journey forward, only keep moving will i get to know this life better, complaints are helpless to make the situation easier. there's a proverb whih said: plans are never faster than changes. i've made lotta plans for this summer but only some of it were lived up. i wish i could manage my time better next time.

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        shadowlove  35, Female, New York, USA - 60 entries
    23
    Aug 2007
    9:15 PM EDT
       

    uh... what did I do today??...
    not much, since I can't seem to remember...
    oh yeah, I schedualed interviews at Ithaca and Oneonta for the second week in September. It's kind of exciting to be seriously going to visit colleges.
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        Chello  47, Male, Virginia, USA - 3 entries
    23
    Aug 2007
    6:38 PM EDT
       

    We all have our weakness (some we hide better than others) and we all have our strengths (some we flaunt better than others).� My goal in life is to exploit all my strengths to the best of my abilities to make a positive difference during my visit.

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        couturevixen  39, Female, Wisconsin, USA - 10 entries
    23
    Aug 2007
    5:53 PM EDT
       

    Today was a good day. I decided that the art institute isn't the best thing for me right now. Maybe next semester or even next year. Besides that I have this nervous feeling in the pit of my tummy not sure what that's about but I hope it passes soon. Oh yeah I just found it may be to late for me to sign up for classes this fall. When my parents find that out I won't here the end of it. I guess it's my fault I always wait until the last minute to do stuff. Work was okay besides the fact that we are short handed and instead of my dad doing every thing he can to help he waits for me to do it but then he stays around me all in my way getting on my last nerves. Thankfully tomorrow is Friday and the weekend is right around the corner. I'm not really looking forward to Saturday but I got to be a woman face this and go get my stuff. I talked to my brothers ex today on myspace. She is really reaching out for us to have a relationship which is cool she's a sweet girl. Other than that life's is cool.

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