tiahe's Journal

Who are real friends apart from the fakes. Something that people maybe never know, or could eventually find out. Secrets and lies are what keeps everything apart, sometimes you never know what to believe or who to believe. No one can keep a promise, or really seem to keep a friend loyal, or to even hold a secret from everyone and not tell a soul.

A true real friend is someone who can let the little things slide, and the big ones into small. Who will be there, not all the time but hopefully most of it. Someone who doesn't talk behind each others backs, and cares and loves their best friends. I just want one whos going to stay loyal to me.

Jessica Boucher, you seem to be up there on my best friends. Ever since everything happened I now see you differently, I wish we didn't go and some things didn't happen and that I didn't feel this way. I'm sorry I broke our promise, but I guess I was just doing it so you would stop doing it yourself, because right now its not me who you should be worried about in that category. I'm worried about you, and whats going on with you. I feel like we're going to grow apart, because right now its hard to have a converstaion with you because im still thinking about everything. I'm sorry, I wish I wasn't feeling this way, and I hate it, because I know your never like that. I'm just sorry for everything, and I wish you wouldn't get hurt by Ben, but I think you're going to. He likes you, but he loves Kristen. But as for us, I do love you, and I hate to see you this way.

Ben Stokes, so we hang out keep it secret. I lie to Jordan you have my back, you keep my secrets and you talk to me about my problems. You're like my older brother but so much better. I'm scared to trust you only because your so close to Jordan, and I'm not sure what you two talk about. Sometimes I think you tell him things I dont want you to, and thats why I'm so paranoid about trusting you, but other then that you're an amazing guy. I dont want you to be sad, and thats why I took you out. I hate how we text over 50 times a day and we have to pretty much hide it. I'm so glad your like a brother because then things will never be weird. I'm so thankful that we started to talk, your a good friend and right now thats all i need. You unlike a lot of others actually seem to care, and thats still really weird for our friendship. It's wierd to even call you a friend, or to hang out. I'm glad when we do hang out alone though that its not awkward and its not really messed up or anything. Thanks for being there for me Benny. You're better then you give yourself credit for, thanks for looking out for me too, and wanting the best for me. You mean a lot.

Victoria Johnson and Anne Merrifield, you both can go in one. You're pretty much joined by the hip, you do everything together and spend every minute you can with each other. I wish I had a best friend like that, but at the same time I'm really glad I dont! You two are my closest friends. I wish I wasn't sick right now, the first time I ever got drunk was with you guys, first time ever trying weed was with you guys too. I do a lot of my firsts with you guys. I'm just not all like you two, you two are partyers not so much for me, I love doing it though its so much fun I just dont know if i can handle it all the time. Now I'm sick from it. I hope I'm better soon so I can hang out with you guys again! I'm so happy I can talk to you both about anything, but I dont like how you get mad but it doesnt' really matter. I love you guys anyways. I dont know what I would do without you guys.

BEST FRIENDS FOREVER I can almost garentee that.