Everything seems like illusion.
Fiction holds more reality for me than life. Television shows and fims engage me and feel real - I can respond to them; they make me laugh and cry, they enable me to feel. Even playing a computer game holds more connection and reality for me than life.
The time I get to spend with G is too fleeting. The rest of the time it's like I don't exist.
Being on my own so much really isn't good for me.