Theres been alot on my mind as of late, and yet its still hard to type down. get it type? lol that was stupid but I couldnt help my self.. I've become so tired from stressing over school, and guys.�They dont seen to get the msg when I tell the to f-off. Why? cause their tools who think Im easy when really, Im not. They dont realize that I have self respect and am not about to get rid of it either. Guys piss me off so much. Sry if thats offensive to any of you guys. Im starting to belive that they do in fact�think more with their *junk* then their head.�once again sry�lol. And yes I am aware of the fact that not all guys are like this, but a good amount are, and frankly its getting old.�On the upside I think i did a fairley well on my�exams. though I know I most likely wont pass my�Art 2 class do to the fact that my art teacher hates me for some reason which I still have yet to figure out. And know I�have not said anything offensiive or rude to him, just so thats clear. My 16th came and left with well nothing new. I still dont have�a car�cause ,y parents thought "hey lets have her�take driver ed during the�winter!" Really? THERE IS�NO DRIVERS ED DURING THE WINTER!!! sheesh. I of course had explained this to�them and yet they�failed to accept�that for once i was right and�they were wrong. i know that sounds concede and all, but sadly�true.�Well its time to go for know, ttyl
I cant take it any longer. Their driving me up the f-ing wall!! Mostly Josey. Cause she is a lil miss no it all who thinks she can do whatever she wants. all because she's aspoiled brat!� w/�e I cant take it anymore!!!! UGH.Please someone stop me before I do something that I will deeply regret.
Josey tries to threaten me by saying "Im going to tell my mom that I dont like you and that you...." Oh well Im at the point were I really could'nt give a shit as to what she says. Cause honestly I�dont care if I get fired that just means I dont have to listen to her. hahaha. Well I�ave to go play with her lil brother Kenny. He's funny shit man.... well up until the point when he starts screaming and crying. lol tootles everyone.wtyl
Well lately things have been quite boring. Nothing new I know... trust me. haha Anyways Im like totally syched for a horse show and well to tell you the truth I hope I kick this one girls ass cause frankly... she's been getting on my nerves. My dad was all like
"Hey I could take her horse out, I could do right not"
He ment shoot. But Im pretty sure that would so NOT go over well.
Well Im bored now...even more bored than when I had logged on. so wtyl
My summer has been rather peacful as of late. Not to much has been going on. But I wonder... is this all it will be?
Peacfull; it a word that hold so much meaning to it.. but not everyone has come to terms with it. Yet they all have on different levels.
So I asked myself this question; What am I to do with my life??
So much has happened since I�last wrote.
But those are only a couple of them. I just wish for once someone would belive me when I say Im innocent. Ok so maybe I dont have the best "record" but hey whats a girl to do when thinks get tuff? Stand there and let people take you out? NO�WAY�IN�HELL!!!
Ahem, excuse my language. So now it seems like my life is slowly crumbling apart. Why? well I just feel lost, confused, numb, and unsure as to what is to come... Who knows; maybe change would be for the best....
Omg, I was at the store friday and my mom and I were looking at blonde hair dyes. Ok first of all Im a dirty blonde, kk? Anyways we get this blonding crap and dyed my hair once we got home...
Lets just say it was REALLY bright like sun bright.�So bright it was blinding, well thats an exagerration but you get the point. Luckily this hair place was have a deal. Get 10 foils for $30.00 So I went in and got my hair done...
And guess what?!?!?! My hair stil looks blonde but not SO blonde. I�had had low-lights put in so it would be a tiny bit darker, but blonde enough for summer. So that was interesting... lol
pssst! A peice of advice:
Dont let your mom dye your hair if she doesnt know how to!! lol
Well I�have to go now so tootles!!! lol
Hey guys.
Ok so I am currently doing a report on Teenagers running away. I need your help! So if possible can you help me find some good websites that could help me to answer these questions:
What are some availiable resources for younge girls who may need a place to stay when they choose to leave their home?
Is the option of running away as popular and realistic as some may�conclude?
Please help me answer these questions because so far I have found nothing on the subject.
Thank-you
Annie
I�feel like Im doped up on novacaine, speed? crystal maybe? Not that I would know. All I�know is that I feel numb. Numb right down to the core. Its as if my world is spinning out of control... Dont you ever wonder what it would feel like to be "happy" (high?) just to be able to float away for a little while�and forget about everthing?�
One of these days Im going to completely lose it. My friends already say Im crazy, but they have'nt seen crazy not yet... Im so tired of fighting the baattle inside my head. Its gone on far to long. I�want to forget, but then I�forget to forget. I've dropped hints before that I�need help. Except theres one tiny problem that you forgot to factor in, you ready for it?? No one can help, at least thats how I�feel, because this is battle I'll have to fight on my own whether or not I�like it.
I want to be bad, just for a sec, I�swear. I�want to know what it would feel like. Is it as fun as its made out to be?? Yes? no? I�want to go to parties, oh wait! cant!! Why? well theres two problems: 1. I�never seem to get invited, anywhere!!! 2. My rents are total control freaks. Hey dont you think it would be fun to T-P someones house? This one person I�know..... Anyways, lol. Well Im through babbling for now. Tootles!
p.s. do you by chance know where I can get cheap toilet paper??
p.s.s. I kidding, really I�am! well maybe...
I�dont know what to do anymore, its like my world is slowing crashing down on me bringing me back to reality. I cant stand it anymore... Its driving me up the wall like a rapped ape! �I�mean thats all they talk about.
"They did this"
"They did that"
OMFG! its so anoying cant they just shut up?!?!?! I�mean... hello? cant I get some room to cool off and breath a little? No, most likely not... because that would be to much to ask, right?.......
Anyways. I�saw him today. He just this one guy that I know. I miss him. I�wish I could go back in time and tell him the truth... but that'll never happen. Thats my goal, before I die, I want to tell him the truth, I want to tell everyone Im sry for all the times I've pissed them off, I�want to go and live my life. Not the one my parents have neatly layed out for me. My friends probably think I�have it easy, well you know what? I�DONT!! But unfortunatley for you I�dont feel like going into detail.
What know one realizes about me is that Im good at hiding things. I can hide the truth, I�can bottle up my emotions and lock them away with out anyone knowing. I hide. Why? Because, through out my life the one lesson I have learned and learned well, is to never show weakness, and when things get tough pull out that mask and keep going like everything's all right. Even when its not.
My world's been set on fire. A fire that burns so hot, its like walking through the Sahara desert with black snowsuite for days without water. I feel like crawling back into that familiar shell, Im safe there.
I�feel numb, I cant feel anything. Everything is �tuned out most of the time, Im competley obliviouse to the world around me. I wish he was here with me. He always made things better, but now he's gone, and theres nothing I can do about it. Its like being all alone, but this is much worse.....
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hey everyone whats up? ok yeah um this is my first time on something like this...so yeah.
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