cursers44's Journal

Feb 2007
11:25 AM HNP

heligh God can you show me your there?

heligh God can you show me you care?

don't ever let me thinki'm good enough.

don't ever tell me enough is enough.

no make me fight and make me rough

my heart might not look that strong

but i know it is by the way it's come long

yes a long way away we trvel hand in hand

i know you listen and i admit i'm scared

sometimes i wonder if you even care

sometimes i scream just so you'll hear my prayers

i'm foolish i know i'm a sinner inside

because of my faults i fight as i cry

but i'm not giving up so i know you are here

and every day i feel so lost and weird

but i admit no good exhists

not without you were bad now renewed

i'm lost so lost screaming out to you

yes i love you yes i love you

yes i do i do i love you i LOVE YOU

and i don't know why my eyes are turning red

why my arms are tired and dead

why i lay motionless in bed

i guess i need some direction where to point my love my love

oh and i cry when i don't know what to do with you

is there space in me no no space for you but

i know one day you'll bring me in your arms and my sin will end

i'll be clean again

dear God if your here and i know damn well you are

please hug me please erase from me my scars!

and i know one day i'll be old and gray

i will die and say

Lord please come take me away and i'll be new in you

and i want you to know

i'm so sick inside

but i am still alive

so i'll breath for you i'll breath in you

until the fateful day arives where i die

no thoughts just a dream

soon erased and washed clean in this light

that illuminates my heart that is dark now is bright

and i know you can make me clean

i'm not sure who i am but i know you are mine no i'm yours take me all have me all breath me all have me all

take me doll you are mine my God your daughter prays to you so one day she'['ll be more for you i'm sorry, i'm sorry i love you i love you

i need you to breath you

please kiss me please miss me

please hold me

hold me close

i love you

all in the name of your son

Jesus Christ

gave up his life

was raised from the dead

gave us salvation

amen*~

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Username: cursers44

Gender / Age: Female, 34

Location: USA - Florida

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About Me: *LIKES* sunflowers mixed with roses* white dresses with red accesories* tattoos* eating chinese food* daydreaming* staring into space* family- even though they're a pain in the ass!* my dad* my mom- when she's not controling* my best freind noelle!* my freind sheila & jessica* my school* ice skating- even though it's hard* thongs* feeling beautiful* looking beautiful* painting* drawing* parties!* the beach* falling asleep at the beach and waking up with a sunburn* swimming naked!* my bunk bed i share with my sister- i'm on the bottom!* handstands* good hair dayz!* bunny rabbits!* kittens* waterfalls* the ocean* sunsets* movie theaters* eating late* pulling all nighters with someone* sleeping in!* sleeping a lot* feeling full* milk* smirnoff* my brother!* my grandma!* my blanki. i've had it forever* my cross neclace* God* Jesus* Angels* being forgiven* ice cream* ramen noodles* vacation* music* my twin sister* brandon* Dislikes: *DISLIKES* working* preps* myspace* back stabbers* being bored outta my mind!* private schools* uniforms* teachers who are controling* control freaks* feeling like i'm forced to do something i don't want to* boys who like you but don't admit it* people who don't like me but they've never met me* when my freinds are sad* when i cut myself* when i lie which is everyday* whores* people who will suck any dick because they like to* the devil* being hungrey* laughing instead of crying- it makes me feel insane* people who laugh at their enemies when they die or when someone they love dies* i dislike having dislikes* i dislike this planet* feeling like your going to throw up because your afraid* being afraid* looking someone in the face when you love them but they don't love you* i dislike sin* but i'm sinful... Favorite Music:

Interests: boxing drumming god jesus holyspirit religion painting working out

Favorite Music: *FAVORITE MUSIC* hot hot heat* my chemical romance* assorted jelly beans* mod* cecroe* bright eyes* lost prophets* evanecense* the white stripes* the honary title* the subways* weezer* franz fernindand* aqua lung* the killers* the used* five iron fenzy* dance hall crashers* taking back sunday* hello vegas* afi* bob marley* ben harper* sublime* cake* aiden* slightly stoopid* hawthorn heights* fall out boy* the guilty parties* rage against the machine* *chiodos* *every time i die* *trophy scars* vene amori* audio slave* *30 seconde to mars* underoath* as i lay dying*

Favorite Movies: i love king kong! *SIN CITYS A FUCKING RIOT! MWAH HAHAHA* *BOON DOG SAINTS* *PULP FICTION* *CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY* *THE LAST SAMURI* *GLADIATOR* *SOUTH PARK THE MOVIE* *PITCH BLACK* *THE CHRONICALS OF RIDDICK* *V FOR VENDETTA* *BUTTERFLY EFFECT* *CLICK* *KILL BILL*

Favorite Television: t.v. sucks!just shoot me is ok

Favorite Books: earagon, eldest, tuck everlasting, alias books i never finished reading but they're really good, bible bible bible, and anything i find fascinating and creative