cursers44's Journal

Feb 2007
8:06 AM HNP

pain

is the one thing we always forget

love

is the one thing we never forget

change

is refreshing when your life's a routin

peace

money destroys

hate

is the worst feeling a person could give birth to

emotions

are a flood, you never know what you can feel until you feel it

youth

opens up every possibility

disaster

is how we remember to come together

destruction

means nothing when your life isn't about your possessions

Jesus

is a lighted path to a new life

hope

never dies no matter how quitox it is

grace

only comes from God

belive

in the ones who don't think you can do it

strive

for the things that you think you'll never do

replace

the empty space inside and fill it with love

die

when you think you've had your fill

see

God's mercy when you come before the cross

forgive

like your the one who sinned

keep

the secrets of the people that you don't like

run

like your destination might disappear

reasons

for living come with a purpose for giving

purpose

comes from the people you love

happy

is the person who takes to heart their blessings

sad

is the person who never lets go of doubt

preciouse

is the person who hides their treasure in their heart

tell

the world before it's too late

give

away the things holding you back

sing

as if it's your last words

smile

when your alone in prayer

pray

because God listens

help

others when their hope is gone

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1 comment(s) - 08:07 AM - 03/19/2007

Feb 2007
11:25 AM HNP

heligh God can you show me your there?

heligh God can you show me you care?

don't ever let me thinki'm good enough.

don't ever tell me enough is enough.

no make me fight and make me rough

my heart might not look that strong

but i know it is by the way it's come long

yes a long way away we trvel hand in hand

i know you listen and i admit i'm scared

sometimes i wonder if you even care

sometimes i scream just so you'll hear my prayers

i'm foolish i know i'm a sinner inside

because of my faults i fight as i cry

but i'm not giving up so i know you are here

and every day i feel so lost and weird

but i admit no good exhists

not without you were bad now renewed

i'm lost so lost screaming out to you

yes i love you yes i love you

yes i do i do i love you i LOVE YOU

and i don't know why my eyes are turning red

why my arms are tired and dead

why i lay motionless in bed

i guess i need some direction where to point my love my love

oh and i cry when i don't know what to do with you

is there space in me no no space for you but

i know one day you'll bring me in your arms and my sin will end

i'll be clean again

dear God if your here and i know damn well you are

please hug me please erase from me my scars!

and i know one day i'll be old and gray

i will die and say

Lord please come take me away and i'll be new in you

and i want you to know

i'm so sick inside

but i am still alive

so i'll breath for you i'll breath in you

until the fateful day arives where i die

no thoughts just a dream

soon erased and washed clean in this light

that illuminates my heart that is dark now is bright

and i know you can make me clean

i'm not sure who i am but i know you are mine no i'm yours take me all have me all breath me all have me all

take me doll you are mine my God your daughter prays to you so one day she'['ll be more for you i'm sorry, i'm sorry i love you i love you

i need you to breath you

please kiss me please miss me

please hold me

hold me close

i love you

all in the name of your son

Jesus Christ

gave up his life

was raised from the dead

gave us salvation

amen*~

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1 comment(s) - 09:10 AM - 08/09/2012

Nov 2006
11:08 AM HNP

why bullitins and other shit mean nothing in religion, it makes things too easy to say- Current mood: sleepy when i can say this out loud to anyone i'll die happy but it may be blasphemy because the words just poured out like water i may have just wrotten a bunch of shit and i'm contridicting myself, but w/e this is better then nothing i truely love God and a stupid bullitin couldn't prove that so whoever thinks that ppl who put up the minimal effort truley love god, i'll see you in hell, not happening, if a bullitin proves your love for God, your loveless! look at this crap... if that's a test then i guess we'll all be in heaven within 24 hours, what kinda bs is that, Jesus was tortured and stabbed and killed for you and you think a fucking bullitin will do you justice, we think living is a gift but on this earth we might as well die if you ask me, i'm not perfect but i think that a stupid bullitin is spitting in Gods face especially if your doing it because you feel obligated or you want a fucking miracle. no one cares about half the shit on myspace and noones going to remember that there was a bullitin about God on myspace, what about the other shit you ppl post does it have any significance to God? like that 7 different ways to have sex thing or how about that what drug r u or the other lame shit you post God bullitins are like one in a million, so instead of being a lazy ass and feeling guilty and posting this crap because you think it will influence someone, grow up and stop being so afraid of yourself and everyone else it's not about what they think it's about what God thinks so here's the challenge, i challenge you and myself, to admit your a coward and admit that you can't stand in front of your freinds and talk openly about God without feeling embarassed once you've admitted your a coward mabey you'll realize that your only hurting yourself. I'M A COWARD! I'M NOT A GOOD CHRISTIAN I'M A LAZY COMFORTABLE PERSON TRAPT IN A COOCOON, i can't even come out with any words they're trapt in my throat, but i don't care mabey one day i'll grow up and understand the big picture but for now all i have to offer is a bullitin, and the truth that until you see that reputations are nothing when you make your peers your judge- i'm sure no one read this far but at least i tryed to help you understand that a stupid bullitin means shit if you don't really try to mold it into your life and try to become a better person and try to get off this earth instead of stay on it if i can learn how to spread God to people, then i'll be happy in death, if i find a way to give what i have to others, then i'll be happy. this life is nothing. down below is a crappy bullitin, prove you love God you can't prove things like that. this isn't a test i think God could care less in Jesus name i say amen Body: Body: It said Top 10 people I would kiss but would you have opened it if it said "GOD" in it ? respost this in 5 mins. If You Truely Love GOD. and a miracle Will Happen Tonight at 12.00 P.S. ( Dont ignore ) u never know when God is testing you

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Nov 2006
11:01 AM HNP

the most interesting thing ever... Current mood: drained i have no life bored outa my mind if you have no life you can be my freind and we'll hold hands and do freindship stuff like... make freindship bracelets and play the abc game and play molopoly till 4 in the morning, by then i'll have all the property then we can sing the song that never ends we can play pattie cake we can sing in the shower we can do prank phone calls pick our scabs harass ppl on the internet play sharads beat eachother up draw pretty pictures listen to as i lay dying while we mosh the hell outta eachother exchange stories over the fireplace and tommorrow i'm making waffles hahaha then we can play our imaginary guitar and sing songs about how much life is gay because apparently we have no life it consists of the normal everyday shit so enjoy yourb/f g/f group of freinds cliques w/e the hell it is and i will resume to waiting for God to come and get me off this pointless stupid world if you want to stay on this earth and you want God to come later because apperantly you haven't had enough "fun" yet, then your an idiot because if you find any of this gay overratted fucked up life fun, then you have more problems then i do which is a sad thing on your part if i had my way God would come right now and fix this shit hole we've created hopefully the ozone layer will collapse and burn us all godnight my fellow retards i will now resume to doing nothing...

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Username: cursers44

Gender / Age: Female, 36

Location: USA - Florida

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About Me: *LIKES* sunflowers mixed with roses* white dresses with red accesories* tattoos* eating chinese food* daydreaming* staring into space* family- even though they're a pain in the ass!* my dad* my mom- when she's not controling* my best freind noelle!* my freind sheila & jessica* my school* ice skating- even though it's hard* thongs* feeling beautiful* looking beautiful* painting* drawing* parties!* the beach* falling asleep at the beach and waking up with a sunburn* swimming naked!* my bunk bed i share with my sister- i'm on the bottom!* handstands* good hair dayz!* bunny rabbits!* kittens* waterfalls* the ocean* sunsets* movie theaters* eating late* pulling all nighters with someone* sleeping in!* sleeping a lot* feeling full* milk* smirnoff* my brother!* my grandma!* my blanki. i've had it forever* my cross neclace* God* Jesus* Angels* being forgiven* ice cream* ramen noodles* vacation* music* my twin sister* brandon* Dislikes: *DISLIKES* working* preps* myspace* back stabbers* being bored outta my mind!* private schools* uniforms* teachers who are controling* control freaks* feeling like i'm forced to do something i don't want to* boys who like you but don't admit it* people who don't like me but they've never met me* when my freinds are sad* when i cut myself* when i lie which is everyday* whores* people who will suck any dick because they like to* the devil* being hungrey* laughing instead of crying- it makes me feel insane* people who laugh at their enemies when they die or when someone they love dies* i dislike having dislikes* i dislike this planet* feeling like your going to throw up because your afraid* being afraid* looking someone in the face when you love them but they don't love you* i dislike sin* but i'm sinful... Favorite Music:

Interests: boxing drumming god jesus holyspirit religion painting working out

Favorite Music: *FAVORITE MUSIC* hot hot heat* my chemical romance* assorted jelly beans* mod* cecroe* bright eyes* lost prophets* evanecense* the white stripes* the honary title* the subways* weezer* franz fernindand* aqua lung* the killers* the used* five iron fenzy* dance hall crashers* taking back sunday* hello vegas* afi* bob marley* ben harper* sublime* cake* aiden* slightly stoopid* hawthorn heights* fall out boy* the guilty parties* rage against the machine* *chiodos* *every time i die* *trophy scars* vene amori* audio slave* *30 seconde to mars* underoath* as i lay dying*

Favorite Movies: i love king kong! *SIN CITYS A FUCKING RIOT! MWAH HAHAHA* *BOON DOG SAINTS* *PULP FICTION* *CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY* *THE LAST SAMURI* *GLADIATOR* *SOUTH PARK THE MOVIE* *PITCH BLACK* *THE CHRONICALS OF RIDDICK* *V FOR VENDETTA* *BUTTERFLY EFFECT* *CLICK* *KILL BILL*

Favorite Television: t.v. sucks!just shoot me is ok

Favorite Books: earagon, eldest, tuck everlasting, alias books i never finished reading but they're really good, bible bible bible, and anything i find fascinating and creative