smb's Journal

Oct 2006
12:45 PM MST

Yesterday (Sunday) was a pretty good day, CN came over, went to church, my mom came and watched the boys for about 5 hours while CN and I went to lunch, shopping, worked out and dinner! It was fun! nice to "get away" then we went to Pastor B's for our book study! It was great having CN beside me again until we got to the 10 commandments part and rule #7 sucks, Thou shall not commit adultry, and the book said, 'you can't have sex with someone unless you are married to them! Well, that pretty much puts a damper on my sex life since I said I will NEVER get married again! when we got home, CN did a great job of getting me to "forget about rule #7 until after- then I felt guilty! (I am sorry God, I need to have more will power! HELP!!!) Today was an okay day but just VERY tired, only got about 4 hours of sleep last night! AGH! I don't sleep well with CN, don't know why, I had a Frameworks Class this afternoon and then got some errands ran, I am very close to getting all I need to get things sent off to the mortgage companies to get things in my name! I should have done that MUCH sooner! what was I thinking!? I am my mother's daughter, will put it off and put it off! Aunt Flow came it visit today, my low back is KILLING ME! I need to call the DR. and get something for this, it is BAD! Im wishing I had some of DB's painpills right now. yeah, right, he use to offer them to me and I wouldn't take them! like I would now! talked to his mom, I feel so bad for her. She is really missing her baby boy too! We all do! Her cancer is slowly starting to get worse,,, I need to prepare myself but DON'T want to! ONE bad thing after another! I have to stop asking, when will it end!? I also need to count my blessings that I am so lucky to have what I have,,, and THANK YOU LORD for taking care of me financially! What a wonderful thing that I didn't even have to fight it! BUT- I am scared to tell too many people for fear I won't "really get it" I am too wierd about that kind of stuff, I am excited to go to FT Collins, can't wait to see the Frenchies! MISS EM!

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Gender / Age: Female, 49

Location: USA - Wyoming