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29
Jan 2008
3:17 PM MST
   

HIS EMAIL (Tues.)

I have been thinking about us all day and feeling really bad about how i am making you feel, plus not treating you the way you deserve! I was just thinking about "why" i am doing this. Something i thought of was; i have this somewhat picture or idea in my head how i see things in my life and being the OCD or detailed person i am, it freeks me out if things get just a "little" out of whack. And i UNINTENTIONALLY hurt ones i love and love me along the way. I start thinking of ways or things i can do to get life back into my comfort zone? Am i making any sense or am i just confusing you more and upsetting you? Baby i am really sorry if i am, i am trying to find myself and what the hell happened all of a sudden? I am sooo proud of you for admitting your faults and taking charge of them! I on the other hand am still trying to find the best way to deal with mine, not that i haven't tried!! Now i feel like i'm not worthy of you! You have done nothing wrong and truly are good to me! So why you may ask am i unsure???I do not have all the answers and i ask myself what do i want? You deserve goodness,honesty and love. I promise you if this works out you will have all of that!!I ask of you to hang in there with me a little longer and i will find myself and where i am headed. In the meantime keep me informed as to how things are going and if you need anything...i am still here for you!! I love you no matter what!!! You have been the first to really touch my heart in a long time....that is awesome!!
All my love,
Cory

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  • Gender / Age: Female, 49
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