Can't believe all the things that my boyfriend and cousin are talking about. It needs to stop. They are talking about my parents supposed sex life. It is so gross and nasty. Anyways that is not why I am writing, I�am writing because I�feel like I�am being pressured to do something and I don't want to do it. Plus people in my family keep telling me to loosen up and I�can't. If I�loosen up then that means I�have to let people in and they can hurt me or use things against me to hurt me. I don't like feeling vulnerable. I�hate this feeling. Plus my boyfriend and my cousin especially like to make fun of me for being so rigid and so to myself. That is just how I�am though. Can I really change? Should I�change?
I�am nervous. I will be meeting my boyfriends mom and sister tuesday. Well I guess it was bound to happen sometime. I�just didn't think it would happen so soon.� I�am sure I�will be alright though. Hopefully she will be nice I�hope they like me.
I came to my boyfriends house and I really wanted to cuddle but he is playing video games like he always does. I�love to cuddle. I�wish he would show me more love I�guess. We don't hold hands in public, he doesn't kiss me that much, doesn't put his arm around me when we go to the movies. I wish that he would do these things. It is like he gets so involved in his life like work,video games,movies that he forgets that I want to be a part of it too. It sucks sometimes. Our sixth month anniversary is coming up soon. i�have no idea what to expect. Any advice? Should I�tell him anything? Should we talk about it? I have no idea.
What should I�do? My parents are arguing almost every day over finances or that they don't like where they live. I�am going crazy because lately it has been an everyday occurence. Anyways I�leave and go to either my boyfriends house or my friend Laurens house and my mom calls me like every�5 minutes to find out what I am doing and when I�am coming home. I love my parents but why do they have to argue like everyday. I�tell them that it is driving me crazy and stressing me out but they continue to argue anyways. Is there anything else that I can tell them so they can stop? What can I do when my mom is blowing up my phone saying I�can't deal with this anymore and when are you coming home? I�get so annoyed just thinking about it. UGh!
I don't know what to do about my boyfriend. He calls me Mexican and makes jokes about how I�speak. Sometimes when I�am around him�I stutter and I�don't stutter around anybody else just him. What can I do when he calls me Mexican? I�am Puertorican and he knows it bothers me. He says it does it to show that he loves me and that he cares for me. But I�don't know. Any advice?
My boyfriend says I�need to grow up but I don't know how. It is kind of hard for me since I am in college and I am only 22. He has a two year old daughter named Lily.� He wants me to be step mommy in the future and like change her diapers every once in a while. It is like I�am a wife but still in college and we are not married. I�don't even live with him but I�help clean up his house sometimes and we go grocery shopping together. Am I�growing up too fast? Will I�still be able to go out and have fun like a normal 22 year old? I�don't want to lose him though. I love him so much but can I�handle Lily?! Any advice.
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