Luby

��������� Waking up early in the morning has never felt so good. When everyone is still asleep I am the head of the house. I get some food and coffee ready. There is no one to bother me. I clean my body and get ready slowly. I am not in a rush anywhere. I feel so warm taking my time. I am concentrating. I think about people I care about. My friends, family, and coworkers. They are all here in my heart. I felt so lonely yesterday, but now I feel close to everyone.

��������� Waiting for my iron to heat up. Listening to music. Searching the web. Imagining happy moments. There is so much out there. I wish I could be myself around people. I talk out loud to myself in the car. I sing out loud to the radio. I travel and discover many exciting and interesting objects. If all of us could be a little more careful and understand each other, there would not be miseries. Anything is possible. Our minds make our life real.

������� � It has not been too long, but my life had extremely changed. Ever since I dropped seeing my doctor I have been a different person. I was so careful for my health. I guess I was worried because I was so ill. But I wasn’t going to let anything stop me. I had already believed I would become disabled for the rest of my life. But something changed. I took control and began to concentrate. My mind was so strong to all this pressure. I did everything I could against what the doctors told me to do. I was more comfortable with my body than ever before. Going on roller coasters, �swimming, running. I didn’t take it slow. I was out for adventure. I began to enjoy myself. Drink coffee when I want to with out worrying to have a stroke. I began to smoke and didn’t take my health so cautiously. The best part of this is that I am fine. I don’t feel the pain I used to. I don’t take any pills anymore to help me breath.

��������� Everything happened for a good reason. Being so weak help me discover my mistakes. I realize many flaws about me. I don’t have to that anymore. When I laid in bed and could not move, I wanted to be like everyone else. I wanted to live again. I didn’t want to have anyone take care of me till I die. I am a person that wants to take care for myself. There was no one I could trust and count on if I had to have a surgery be dependent on someone for months. That is the reason I didn’t talk about myself.

��������� I want to be brighter. I had been so dull lately. I had already lost my job for being hypnotized. I was not thinking about myself and others. My mind was lost. There is so much I can do.�I saw the sun rise.