Klenk
13
May 2008
8:34 AM EDT
It's been awhile since I logged into my journal here. I've been depressed and going through probably the most horrible break up I've ever encountered. I care so much about Adrian but I feel like nothing I say is correct and so many times nothing I say really is. I say sooooo many stupid things without thinking that really hurt her. That's not me, not the person she met and fell for. I guess I've been depressed. I'm severely depressed at this point and drinking more than I should. I guess I'm trying to drink my thoughts of her and the bad things I've done to here away. I guess I've alway felt second best even though I know that she didn't mean to but the fact is that I know that her previous beau she had pic of him on her backround. Then they are done and the only pics I still see are other friends of hers. In my mind I guess I'm like " Where's my pics?" Why should I settle for that? My phone doesn't ring constantly w/other girls because I have respect for her. She's everything to me. Even if they are my friends and nothing else, I know that she doesn't want to deal with that. and frankly shouldn't have to. I know that it makes me uncomfortable. Especially after the way that we began and the trust issues we've developed. People in general (especially people of the oppisite sex that I reallllly don't trust) calling/texting at strange hours of the night really bothers me. Especially since once upon a time I was that person calling and texting. Our relationship didn't start off perfect by any means. I know that things should've been dealt with differently but that shouldn't change the feelings that I have for her that I have for no other. I left her a messege about 4 days ago that she never returned it. I thinit's over between us and I've never been so sad...ever. I guess that I should get the hint. I recently left for Las Vegas with a friend and Adrian was very upset about me going
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