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19
Aug 2007
10:24 AM EST
   

the worst thing in the world is the feeling of loss. and lately, for the past week i've been feeling a lot of 'loss'. small losses, big losses - either way its still a loss. i'm teaching myself, just the right way how to deal with loss, whether big or small. a small loss (or many small losses) that i have been dealing with, come from my inside. not literally, my insides of course. but, the feelings inside. i remember when i had a boyfriend, the main feeling i felt inside was love; followed by a deep passion for everything around me. i enjoyed everything, happiness was the main theme in my life. and then, like everything else at the time, i lost him. i lost everything, or so it felt. and i realized the worst thing to do was to lay around and mope about how my life is unfair and cruel. i needed to get back on my feet. this all happened approximately 5 and 1/2 months ago, and im still recovering. although the relationship i had wasnt a long time (4 months the second time dating, 3 months the first time dating.. yeah i know, two times!) it was still long enough for me to become so emotionally attatched to everything i was experiencing with this boy. now, this boy has far moved on and is with another girl. which is like, screaming at me to either move on or at least move away from the thought that there is something left there.

i have since moved on, sort of. i still have reoccuring feelings of what i once felt. but now the only loss is what he lost. he lost me. but, he replaced me.
i havent had much of a big loss but im not complaining.
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