It's now the end of november and much time has passed.  I did exceptionally well in my summer term, and am doing well in the winter.  I'm in much better shape than i was before, which is always a good thing.  seeing another girl... donya.  it's been a month and a half and i really liked her at first, but my interest is waning.  she has driven down from niagara 4 times or so and seems to like me a lot.  I liked her a lot at first too but for some reason am now feeling less interested.  Maybe its because shes not as physically attractive as someone i'd like to date?  Maybe it's cuz shes going to new zealand for 3-4 months in january.  Maybe its cuz shes trying to move things a little fast?   who knows.

In other news, i wrote some awesome essays this term.  I was pretty happy about that.  One about social interactionism, the other about eating disorders.  good stuff.

My 22nd bday was a lot of fun too.  good times.

Other things recently i'm not sure how i feel about my friends atm.  I feel in a lot of ways let down by them.  Whether it be them not reciprotating favours or whatever, or not being showed appreciation for the things i do for them. 

I Guess i'll have to think about these things more over the next little while or just let them take care of themselves.

In other news, im in my last year as a psych undergrad.  I'll have to do some more planning for the future.  I want to be a psychologist but there's a long road ahead...

My emotional neediness is killing.  My own insecurities are pouring out and i feel helpless.  I really like chantelle and for the last 3 months she has been expressed the same keen, genuine liking for me up until last week.  Now i feel as if im going crazy. Im analyzing every form of communication between us, second-guessing the text messages i send to her, questioning her motives and my sanity. For some reason i really like this girl and i want things to work. Even if they don't i know i'll get over it and find someone else and move on etc etc etc but for some reason i'm really drawn to her.... and feel really vulnerable..

My last post was in august. A lot has happened since then. I am 21 now. I feel i have grown more mature spiritually, physically, and mentally. Working out at the gym has definitely paid off. I went to jamaica with my mom, dad, and best friend. That was great. A good ol week of male bonding and relaxation. Not to mention excessive drinking. As it stands things are going good. Though financially my condition could be better. I owe about $2000 to my credit card and a fine. I should be able to pay it off during summer. No sweat. My gf of 2 years and I broke up in november. We were still 'seeing eachother' shortly thereafter up until end january when i realized it wasnt working and found someone else i saw potential with. It was past the point of no return with meghan. It was like when you get into a Car accident, and it will cost more than the book value of your car. There was no point in going on. It was for the best, for everyone. I've been seeing this new girl chantelle now. She's a true sweety. She is not without her flaws, like all of us. She has some self esteem issues but they're minor and the positives about her definitely outweigh those. Shes a sweet girl and has her act together. She teaches dance fulltime, works at a tanning salon part time, and babysits. She has ambitions and dreams and i know she can achieve them. Around the time of my car accident i did poorly on 3 midterms. It got me down at first, but i know with hard work and dedication i can bounce back. I won't let them get me down