banglesaway's Journal

 
    
09
Aug 2007
10:53 AM EDT
   

"I have my guero, and that's all I need." - Nizhooni
"It was pretty hard to hang up the phone ...I just wanted to keep talking." -Casey
"You're my one, Casey Brandon." - Nizhooni
"Spending the rest of my life with you sounds so great." - Casey
"We're stuck with each other." - Nizhooni

Feeling better from this morning, and yesterday from that fact. Talked to him for bit today. Hearing his voice in the morning is just ----. Something I look forward to in the future.

I don' t know if I heard this from watching a movie last night (World Trade Center) but I recall the line:

"Don't worry, I'll see you in heaven."

It scared me a bit. Come to think of it, I dreamt him saying that ... I think.

It's a better day, that's all I can really say. It's better so far. Not great .... saying goodbye again to him later today is going to break me once more (as if I had more tears left in me to shed).

Talked to my mom before I left for work. She continued to preach. I told her to stop. I told I know she was right on the things she was saying at the moment, but it wasn't what I needed to hear. I told her Ineed someone to hug me,that I need my mom to hold me. I asked why it hurts so much. Of course, I got the ''that's why me and your dad didn't want you to have a boyfriend in the service."

Well, that can't be helped. I don't think you can help, so much, in exactly who you fall in love with. You can fight love all you want; push it away, refuse to acknowledge or accept it, ignore it, run away from it. It doesn't help. When you love someone, you just do. No, I didn't think I'd find real love at the age of 22. But I can't say it wasn't something I wished/ hope for ... one day. I'm just fortunate to find my true love at this age. And I honestly wouldn't want it any other way.

I'm in love. I'm waiting for him to return to me. I'm the luckest girl in the world.

God, I love him ... you know I do. I'm holding him right now, and I'm loving it.
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