Miss1's Journal

Oct 2006
4:47 AM EDT

So I think I'm going insane! My mind and soul are so torn. How do you get out of something like this? How does it end? Without committing suicide of course, because although I feel like it gets no better, I desperately want to live. To get on a little different subject...I met a cute guy at work. He works in maintenance but the thing is...he's foreign. You know that may same insignificant to most but I've never really had any kind of experience with any race but my own. The thing is...I am really feeling this guy. He is so sweet and sooo sexy. The other thing is that we both are in relationships where we live with our mates. And I have a little girl with my guy and he has a little girl with his girl. Point is...we both have families that could possibly be broken up if anything was to happen. I just tell myself, noone has to know, right? He says he is feeling me too. In fact, he initiated the little flirting thing we got going on. So the other day he asked for my #. I said, well what about his gf he says "you live with your bf and I live with my gf but we can still be friends, right? I said yes and gave him my number. Was that wrong? I don't know what to do here but we are both unhappy in our relationships at home. I still no it's fucked up to do the others involved like that but I haven't felt this good in a very long time. Actually, I can't even remember the last time I felt this good in a long time. And that's the real fucked up part, because we haven't kissed or had any sexual contact yet. He just makes me feel so free and pretty with just his words and looks. It's amazing. But in the back of my mind, I can't help but to think it's a bad idea. But don't I deserve to feel free too? Please help because I am so tired of feeling the world is crushing me from the inside out!!!!Until then....

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Username: Miss1

Gender / Age: Female, 45

Location: USA - Kentucky

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About Me: Hello world!!!! I am 26 yrs old. I am 5"7 and weigh around 140 with dark hair and green eyes. I love music and I love to read. I am a mother of a 6 year old babygirl.I am now learning to love life again. Or, should I say for the very first time and it is a task!!! But one well worth it. Thanks for listening.

Interests: some of my interests...let's see... I love baseball and I love to read. I am very passionate about music.

Favorite Music: Since music is one of my passions I enjoy a little of all music but I prefer hip hop or hardcore music. I truly like when they mix those together. Like Korn, Rage...things like that. Also love '80's music!

Favorite Movies: Goodfellas, Scarface and Menace II Society

Favorite Television: Grey's Anatomy and My Name IS Earl...also Flavor of love

Favorite Books: Some of my favorite books are true-crime books

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