Courtney1316's Journal

Dear Journal

Well today is going better than yesturday, just because most of my high school is gone to a track meet. So there is only like 20 kids here in high school today. I still am depressed though..I just dont know how much longer I can handle them anymore. I am so tired of there shit. I hate it. I wish I could just disappear. I would be happier that way. I know that after I move fighting with kids in school will be tougher because there is more people there. But living in this small town like I do now is worse because if one person in the school is mad at you, the rest of the school is mad. I am not even joking, thats how it is. Its not just that I hate the kids here, but they hate me to...because i m fat and not athelitc, nor close to being smart. I try to get along with everyone, but it doesnt work, because they just annoy me about how they talk behind there "best friends" backs the way they do. I hate that....i would never talk shit about my best friend. I just couldnt. Well if you have any advice that you can share, I am more then willing to try it. I just want to know how i could start to like them and get them to like me too! Court