Courtney1316's Journal

 
    
08
May 2007
11:51 AM EDT
   

Dear Journal,
I don't know what to do. I was born and lived in Oregon till I was about 10 years old. Then my mother decided that we were going to move to Montana. I have moved a lot since I have been in Montana though. I have lived in Denton, coffee Creek, and Great Falls Multiple times, Then I live in Centerville, Stocket, and Lewistown, each one time. For the past. Last year I moved to Lewistown right before I started high school as a freshman. It was going great I thought that I had a lot of friends. But I was getting depressed and needed some help that I just didn't get in time. My mom and I were fighting all time. One night, I had a break down in OverDosed on Tylenal. I was so sick, but I really wanted to do. After that she moved me back to Denton, where I was worse even before living in Lewistown because it is that small town so everything about everyone know's. Everyone here gets along great together, except me. I am not athletic at all. But here everyone thinks that you are a bad and horrible person if your not. I am not bad or horrible. I just dont like basketball or softball. I hated having a gym class because of it. Also in the town if you are a little over weight at all, your FAT. I am not fat though, I know it. I am adverage, but its hard to believe after everyone tells it to you. I cutt on myself because I want out of my life so bad. I think it would be better if I left this town/school. My family had a plan to move back to portland at the end of this year after my sister graduates high school. But in order to be out of here in a few weeks my mother has to go to portland to find us a house the weekend of my sisters graduation. So my mother wants my sister to watch my little brothers for the week since I will still be in school and cant watch them till school is out. But Alyssa my sister was a graduation camping trip that week, and I just cant miss anymore school. So anyways, My mother says that we cant move because alyssa is being selfish. I can not stay in this school of another year. I would rather die that stay here or go to school here. I refuse to. Well I am 16 so I could drop out...which is what I will end up doing if I stay here. Its just these people here make it miserable for me here. I cant take it anymore. Plus, my little sister and I need tharapy (She is ADHD and I just have a Servere Depression Disorder) which we cant get here because its so far away to get it.Anyways I have to go but I will get back you. Sorry If I come off to strong, love Court
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  • Username: Courtney1316
  • Gender / Age: Female, 33
  • Location: USA - Montana
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    About Me: I am a Sophomore at Denton High School, in Denton, Montana. I just thought that if I did this journal maybe someone could help and give me some advice. I have 1 older sister and 1 younger sister. I also have 3 brothers.

    Interests: My two favorite things to do is dance and write. They seem to relax me.

    Favorite Music: I like R&B mostly. But I do listen to many other kinds of music to.

    Favorite Movies: My 2 favorite movies are "A Walk to Remember" and "Failure to Launch."

    Favorite Television: My favorite show is 7th Heaven, but I also like Parental Control and Exposed and Date My Mom. I like the whitest kids you know. (This show isnt very old. It has only been on TV for a few months.

    Favorite Books: "A Child Called 'It"

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