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bigtroubles5 65, Female, New Mexico, USA - First entry!

Feb 2007
8:16 PM MST

the middle

3:09 am

I have been awakened again because he has been up with the new puppy for two hours and now he needs his sleep. I went to bed at 12:15am myself, I look across the bed and the clock says 2:08. WOW what a contribution. Thats OK, he has told me he needs his rest for an important meeting tommorrow,his day off.Everything about him is more important than me. His religion, his demands, his expectations, his sleep. It is the end of Feb and I have not had the pleasure of sleeping through the night since OCT 10.

Saw the doctor again today, expressed my fear of the rap[id weight gain....23 lbs in 2 months. She confirms that if I don't sleep I can't keep weight off. I tried to share my fear with him...he gaffawed imediately then wondered why I was not talking to him. new pupppy out cold now... three runny bowel movements later..me I am wide awake will this be 1 pound or 2?

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maureen 62, Female, Ohio, USA - 8 entries

Feb 2007
8:13 PM EDT

we are starting couples counseling saturday.Im not sure what I expect to happen, but am glad we are trying. She has been telling me how much me being disabled is a financial burden to her. I have been fighting for my disabilty for over 2 years. I wish I could make it happen faster, I just have no control over the social security time table. She is so stressed about money. I know we dont have alot. Our bills are always late. But somehow I cant make her see how much we DO have. There are many people who have much less.I feel like the universe gives you back what you give to it. She is giving off so much negativity, that negative seems to falling in her lap every moment of the day, and unfortuneately what comes into her life is also in my life. I just feel like maybe we are on different paths spiritually. I am grateful for what I have, and most of the time I dont complain about what I dont have. I know what hard times are (grew up in a family of 13), and our life is not as hard as it could be.

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ladybugmama06 41, Female, Arizona, USA - 4 entries

Feb 2007
11:24 AM EDT

It been 10 years that my cousin giving me a really hard times and getting me depressed. She always think that she is the boss of me but she is not. She think im stupid cause i am hard hearing (deaf) but im not stupid, im smart for not doing something stupid like she did. She is pregnany and I don't think she is doing the right thing cause she is still dying her hair which is bad for the baby and her behavior isn't so good either. She is always jealous of me for some reason and she doesn't need to be so damn jealous of me. I got my own life and she got her damn life. She got husband who is also in the iraq right now and she carried their first baby. I got a beautiful son and im also single mother which is i am really happy about. I hate seeing myself getting hurt by her. I hate being hurt and depressed. It is time for her to stay out of my business and my life for now on! I wish I have something to talk about my life and stuff but i got my mom!

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TAC122 38, Female, Washington, USA - First entry!

Feb 2007
10:49 PM EDT

today my mom told me that she might have cancer in her overies. This scares the shit out of me. i dont know what i will do if she has it and if she dies. i hope that when they do sugery its just a growth. I already had a shaky faith and wasnt sure if there even is a god. But this, if she has cancer then i think that god doesnt excist. my mom is so unselfish. she would do anything for me and my family. she deserves the best. i love her so much. she has so much faith in everything she has this journal and today i read some of the things and she writes to god and the last thing she wrote was that she is praying for me and my sisters future husbands and that i got thanksgiving off from work and she is so amazing just the little things like that i just cant believe that she would pray for. if i lost my mom i dont know what i would do. who would i talk to about everything that happend at school? or my problems w/ my boyfriend. or watch scary movies w/. my mom is so beautiful to me i love her.

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tiffanybaldwin 48, Female, Idaho, USA - 16 entries

Feb 2007
10:38 AM EDT

HELLO!! Been a few days so I thought I would write down my feelings. Things are good. I've been fighting some BAD migranes lately .. but today is a good day. Mack is in school. Mike is at work. I am cleaning the house and baby is growing and kicking like crazy. Great Feeling. Well... gonna get some more cleaning done. I will write again soon.

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lprescilla 43, Female, California, USA - 5 entries

Feb 2007
6:13 PM EDT

Hey guys, how is everyone doing tonight. Well for me I am getting ready to visit my family tomorrow. In Germany, I have been packing for the past two weeks now. Crazy, I know.

I know I am late with this, but howwas everyones Valentines Day. Was it good? I hope so.

Alright guys, bye,bye now.

Oh, one last thing. Can anybody give me some advise on: when to know if its true Love, or Lust.

I know I sound a bit unexperienced for my age, but I can always learn new things from different people, looking forward to hear from one of you guys, thanks.

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Shorty 34, Female, Indiana, USA - 2 entries

Feb 2007
5:04 PM EST

Has anyone ever been to or live in Orlando, Flordia?
I'm going down there in 6 weeks
would love it if someone could tell me something fun to do or great tourist places to check out while in town. Also, what is weather usually like down there in late March early April?

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ciancasaje 34, Male, Canada - 2 entries

Feb 2007
11:02 AM EDT

Here I go again... After months of recovery, I am again hurt... Why? Why does this always happen to me? Is it because I'm a love addict? Is it because I look at things differently? Why is it so wrong for me to love? I give myself into it... I give my heart, my soul... I am sincere... Honest.... Loyal... But what do I get in return? .... Rejection! Oh I hate myself... I know it's not their fault... It's mine... I'm the one who kills myself piece by piece... Every little time I spent for myself gives me nothing but pain... Am I selfish? ... Why would I be? I give everything I could and do all my best for my love....And still I'm the one who's selfish? That's insane! This world is so messed up... Wait... No... I mean I am the one who's messed up! I can't get a hold out of myself... I feel I'm going crazy... I just need someone... Someone who will stay with me... Who will love me the same way I do... But heck! Shame on me... I always screw up!

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alicia 61, Female, Kansas, USA - First entry!

Feb 2007
2:44 AM CDT

I have in the past to be pretend to be something I was not. Maybe even in my current life I pretend to be something I am not. However, in my past, it was intentional to do so. For fantasy reasons. I was trying to "find" myself. I was bored with my life, and wanted to created some sort of character that I felt was exciting and fun. (my character was a blast). I picked a time in my life where I had felt it was perfect. So I created an on line person to relive that.

In the present, I feel that I am trapped into to something I am not happy about. But, I try my best to be happy or at least act happy as to not make any waves. I have a lot to be grateful for, however, sometimes it is very difficult to pretend to be happy, when my soul is hurting as much as it is.

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beckyleigh 34, Female, Florida, USA - 6 entries

Feb 2007
7:38 PM EDT

o yea... i haven't been on in a while now but i have resently found out that my best friend cuts herself...i don't know what to do...she got therapy for it but she is still cutting and she does not want to go to a hospital...she doesn't understand that she is hurting herself!!....it is getting rediculas...i wish i could help her...but i don't know how to....later*

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