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king10 38, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 2 entries

Jan 2007
10:58 PM EDT

have you ever had an unbelievable feeling of sadness overcome you? well I have, on more than one occasion. I dont know what to do I dont know why I feel this way, I have ended up doing things that are not good, like hurting myself intentionally. I know it is wrong, but sometimes it is something that takes away the feeling that is overwhelming me in the first place. I am not good at talking to people about how I feel. I know that I need to grow up and learn how to do this. All I really want is to stop caring about stupid shit, things that dont matter, and maybe for once let someone know the real me, but how can they know the real me when I feel like I dont even know the real me? I know that I should talk to someone, and get help. I am not the kind of person that easily admits I have a problem, and I do not want to go to the health center and say "hey, I have been feeling really sad lately, I would like to talk to a counselor." I just dont feel secure enough, I gaurd my feelings. I do not like others to know them, they are very private. I guess I just wish I knew what to do. I know I need help, and my friends have told me that they think I need help, and I do not want to hurt myself again because the sadness that is welling up in me as I type this has become so unbearable that I can no longer hold it in, and instead of talking about it or letting it out the right way, I take it out on myself.

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emokidluver1313 33, Female, Ohio, USA - 2 entries

Jan 2007
3:13 PM EDT

Hey guys me n my boyfriend are doin great. But we are deciding on whether to have sex or not. So its really hard for us. Be we are doing great. I love him to death. I would die for him. I mean people say its just puppy love but I dont think it is. I love him that if he was about ready to die I would switch places with him. And we want to have eachothers kids and everything so yea. well hey better go. Tosh Oh and one more thing my boyfriend is Tom.

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ortizdayday76 45, Male, California, USA - 10 entries

Jan 2007
1:32 PM EDT

my phone got stollen today and that really sucks because now i cant even look and find it because i know somebody has it at their house or somewhere i dont know.it pretty gay stuff.

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speedking 36, Male, California, USA - 20 entries

Jan 2007
12:56 PM PDT

the person i most admire is my god father because he is able to make any small thing into a business and be able to make it into a big money maker he owns a restaurant in new port beach and its amazing how he can at his age move so quick and be so energytic. I see that in myself as well as an energytic and quick person and i know i will be able to make anything into a big business as well if i just put my dedication and time into it. I also admire my god sister but i see her as my sister she worked so hard to get where she is at today now she is a nurse and is making a lot of money especially since she is bilingual she got that from her dad and mom.

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aini 58, Female, Singapore - 4 entries

Jan 2007
6:13 AM EST

Well this is the third week of school for the new year.. Wow... how time flies.. I feel that despite the buziness of school, I actually enjoy every minute of my day in school, interacting with the pupils and making learning fun for them. God has blessed me with a wonderful family and friends and I can't thank HIM enough for what I've been given. Every day I read in the papers about the tragedies that happened around the globe, people dying from natural disasters like flood, earthquake, and those who are waiting for their death from a cronic medical condition, and old age. Sometimes I compare my life with those in destitute and I actually wonder what problems do I have that can be compared to them..... So God thank you for all the blessings you've showered on me n my family. And to all the others out there, my prayers go out to you...may God give u the strength to face the hardship. Remember...God does not test u beyond your strength...coz he loves all of us.

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mexiCANballerSam24 36, Male, California, USA - 10 entries

Jan 2007
8:40 PM EDT

This past week of school was the week that we all came bak from winter break and i had to get used to waking up in the morning again and i hated it but oh well i gotta do the samething for the rest of the year. Today is Martin Luther King Jr. day so i actually took a litle time to think about what he really did and without Martin Luther King Jr. i would have some of the black friends that I have today and some of them im really cool with so I thank Martin for what he did. On Saturday I went to the movies with Isabel and we watched the movie Stomp The Yard, and that movie was siiiik! It was a really good movie about dancing and the hard life of this guy.Damn, I just came back from practice and Im tired as hell! It was a hard practice well not really that hard but we all got tired because the fact that we didnt do anything over the weekend probably but I know that I didnt play basketbal over the weekend.Now tomorrow iI have to wake up early again and go to school and Im going to stop typing this thing because Im tired of It so have a goodnight and I hope I do to. peace.

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tricia216 49, Female, Georgia, USA - 2 entries

Jan 2007
5:04 PM EDT

"I made this letter longer than usual because I lack the time to make it short." - Pascal

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octobersman04 74, Male, Canada - 7 entries

Jan 2007
1:52 PM EST

Went to Stevensville to look at houses met with realtor or contractor Ed. Lynchinson whom showed us the condo town house, approx 1350 square feet brand new $228000. for the one we were looking at, We did introduce ourselves and Ed took our phone number for what reason I really don,t know, We said our good byes and left the property, We stopped at Niagara square on the way home to look in one of the stores for a short while, the thing is when we got home around 5pm Ed called to ask if we had picked up a clump of keys he had left on the counter is seems they have disappeared I told him it was not us that picked up the keys and asked if he had alot of people through the house for which he said yes he didn,t really seem excited about losing the keys which made me feel like it was a sales ploy to verify our phone number or just to make contact, none the less I am recording this just in case it leads somewhere else

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AguilarBaby 47, Female, Washington, USA - 50 entries

Jan 2007
12:26 PM PST

Hi Mamas How are you... you were actually very quiet today but I felt you throughout the day. I know you are probally growing so you need your rest but you should start to get bigger quicker b/c you know that we only have 4 more monts and then we finally get to meet you We are also been together for 5 months. WOW. Well today we went to Meghan and Wayneman house to watch football and eat some snacks. It was fun. I came home and started cleaning and just could not stop so I know that you are actually tired so I am taking it easy now and watching my Sunday shows. Well mamas that is all for today...Don't you ever forget that I love you and I will talk to you later. Love Always Mom & Dad

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forenski 60, Male, Delaware, USA - First entry!

Jan 2007
2:12 PM EDT

Kefca's Story Prologe Long, long ago, the world of Cacario was dead; neither plants nor animals - nor even air - could exist. But the Goddess Althena, together with the Dragoonmaster and Four Dragoons, came and gave life to the land, magically transforming this dead place into a raident world overflowing with life. She blessed the world of Cacario, and the Dragoonmaster swore to her his undying loyalty. He and the Four Dragoons were entrusted with the Goddess's protection, and through her power, a magical world was born. Two races were predominant on Cacario, Dragoons and Humans. Dragoons were gifted with strength and agility. Humans did not possess the same physical powers, but they were intelligent and adept at using tools. The two lived in very separate worlds: Dragoons in their large cities in the center, and Humans in small towns on the outskirts. Balance was kept by the two very different lifestyles the races led. The story begins with Kefca, a Human in the port town of Searis. He works as a courier for Caliber's Express, delivering packages and seeking adventure alongside his partner and childhood friend Lloyd. When the two receive a request to visit the city of Healriz - also known as the Dragoon City - it seems that their longing for travel and adventure has been answered. But when they arrive at Healriz, Kefca and Lloyd find that the Dragoons, whose strength and agility they have long admired, regard Humans with sheer contempt. Enraged by their treatment, Kefca decides to challenge the Dragoon's arrogance, and inadvertently entangles both Lloyd and himself in a much greater adventure. Along the way, the two friends encounter a spirited Dragoonwoman, Julia; confront the Dragoon Lord, Xemnes; and soon hear of darker troubles than they ever could have imagined - rumors of a Dark Tribe that practices dark magic in the far reaches of the world, well beyond where Althena's power can reach. Soon enough, they find themselves propelled toward this distant frontier, unseasoned warriors on the threshold of a battle so vast, their entire world hangs in the balance. Chapter 1:The Church Kefca, Lloyd, and Julia come to a church and as they enter they here a voice, "You must leave now or forever face the consequences." "What the hell was that" said Kefca. "I don't know" said Lloyd. "I really have a bad feeling about this." cried Julia. But Kefca was determined to prove that Humans wern't just somthing Dragoons could step all over and that Humans could be as strong as Dragoons, maybe even stronger. So they slowly step into the church to confront what waited for them inside. When thay got inside they noticed that everyone was dead and Lloyd said"This is horrable" and Kefca just kept on going until he reached the middle hall and there stood a 50 foot beast that was frightining to even look at. So Kefca drew his sword and struck the beast, but the beast counter attacked with the magic Ultra Beam and blasted Kefca into the wall. Then as the beast was going to throw the finishing blow a fleet of Xemnes' men came in and slayed the beast. Kefca awoke in the king's castle days later and a nurse came in the room with a tray of needles and bandages. When Kefca saw the tray he jumped to his feet and fell flat on the ground. The nurse picked up Kefca and put him back on the bed to rest. As Kefca relized what happened he asked the nurse where he was and she replied, "You are in the king's castle." and then gave Kefca three needles into his right arm and as quick as he woke up Kefca fell fast asleep, and dreamed of where his friends were and if they were OK. Chapter 2: The Loss Of A Friend As Kefca was asleep he had a dream where someone in armor said "The Keyblade is said to hold phenominal power. One legend says it's weilder saved the world while another says that he wrought chaos upon it. I must know what this keyblade is. A key opens doors...". Then Kefca woke up with great force and slamed his head on the ceiling. Then the king walked in and told Kefca that Lloyd and Julia had gotten destroyed by the monster as his men ran in to confront the beast. Kefca then falls on the floor crying and then pulls himself back together and picks up his sword then heads for the door. Xemnes tries to convince him that he was to ill to leave, but Kefca stabs him in the leg and walks out. As he was walking Xemnes called out all his men to stop Kefca, but Kefca gathers all his power and summons Phoenix to destroy Xemnes' soldiers. "I guess that he's strong enough to go on his own" says Xemnes. And walks back into his castle with the surviving soldiers. Kefca was walking to the village of Ishbal to go and look for information on the person who created the monster he fought before. But all he got was a name that sounded so familier to Kefca (Cloud Strife). Kefca was determined to find Cloud but didn't know where to start looking. He headed to Niblihelm. Chapter 3: Cloud Strife? As Kefca reached the town it was in ruins. "Who the hell did this" ask Kefca to himself. "It was Xemnes" said a strange voice from the shadows. "Xemnes would never do such a thing as this. Maybe to an enemy but never to a neutral town" Kefca exclamed. But the voice left with one word "Keyblade...". As Kefca sat and wondered about why Xemnes would do somthig like this, but mainly focused on this Keyblade thing. Just then Kefca saw somthing in the shadows. "Who's there?",but no one answered. Then a giant sword went flying past Kefca's head and just barely choped his head off. "If your looking for me, well then... I guess you found me!!". "Are you Cloud Strife?" asked Kefca. "Quick learner are we? Ha, if you wish to kill me go ahead and try, but that won't do you any good now will it?". "What are you talking about?" Kefca nervesly asked. "You really don't remember me do you? I am your older brother.". "What!!" yelled Kefca. "When you were just a few months old mom and dad were killed by Xemnes because he was trying to kill every Human to prove Dragoons were all powerful, but I had my friend Sora's parents to take you in their Airship to Searis and they raised you as their own. So me and Sora stayed to try and fend off Xemnes, but we under estimated his powers and we were captured. As we sat there in our cells Sora told me that he will have to leave now and he relesed his soul and gave me his soul to teleport out. And ever since I have been watching over you and helping you as best as I could without Xemnes' men seeing me. Like your friends Lloyd and Julie. They were Xemnes' best henchmen that kept close watch on you to see if I would come out of hiding. After you fought the beast that I created I knocked you out and killed Lloyd and Julie just before Xemnes came. So Xemnes tried to kill you with poisens and needles, but after he gave you them I snuck up and poured you an antidote.". "But why haven't you just killed Xemnes with the monster?" said Kefca. "You don't understan....." Just then Xemnes stabbed Cloud in the back of his heart. "YOU BASTERD!!!!!!!!!" yelled Kefca, and charged at Xemnes. Xemnes just jump out of the way and slammed Kefca on the ground. Then a sword in the shape of a key appered in Kefca's hand. "What's this?". "Thats the keyblade." said a strange voice. "The Keyblade?". Then Xemnes lunged at Kefca, but Kefca stabbed Xemnes right in the heart. And then all the Dragoons vanished because the goddess Althena came down and destroyed them all and told Kefca that she made Humans all powerful. "But why did you take away all those innocent lives for nothing?". "I can do as I please, I made them and all of you, and I can destroy what I created if I want to.". "You evil Bitch!" yelled Kefca and with one swip of the keyblade, he sliced her in half. Epiloge The planet started shaking and all the Dragoons that Althena killed came to life. Then they all lived in peace forever. Or So They Thought...

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