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I thought the title for this was perfect because Magic and I are '2 Peas in a Pod'.� Why you say?� Because Magic was diagnosed with DM, which is similar to MS in humans.� I have been diagnosed with MS for almost 2 years.� Magic was diagnosed towards the end of last year with DM, and that was only because I changed vets because I was HIGHLY irritated with my last Vet!

My last Vet had all new people working for her, and no regular people worked for her any longer.� When I had taken Magic in to have a Grade 3 Cancerous Tumor removed last year (which she didn't want to remove right away, just told me to 'keep and eye on it').�

So when I went to pick Magic up from the Vet's office, it took A LONG TIME for a staff member to bring her up from the basement.� And when the staff memeber had brought her up from the basement, she smelled of urine HIGHLY!!!� That is not something I willing to stand for!!� Yes, Magic does have SA (Separation Anxiety) and will pee/poop in her kennel/crate when no one is with her).� While I was waiting for her, I could here her barking in the basement.�

When I had Magic to this Vet's office to have Magic's dental done, Magic had soiled in her kennel, but the staff�bathed her and then kept her upstairs with them until I arrived to pick her up.

So to keep this short, after picking up Magic from the Vet's Office, I went on a journey to find a new Vet.� And I am PROUD TO SAY THAT I NOW HAVE A NEW VET'S OFFICE that came HIGHLY recommended by others that live in the Kenosha/Racine Area!!!� I do not think that I will be changing Vets anytime soon ;)

I'm going to start writing poetry again. I used to for�a long time. I'm hoping it will be as therapeutic as it used to be. Well here is one that� I wrote a few days ago. It doesn't really have a name.

No, Everything is not okay

Everytime night turns to day

I pray

"God let me die today."

I can't change the way I feel

People are trying with just a little pill

It all just makes me want to blurt

"God, stop making me hurt."

I know I have Jesus in my heart

Which means we'll never part

But I just don't feel him with me

Maybe they lied and he really left me.

God, if you left me, hear my cry

Please come back before I try

To take something that isn't mine

To take my life one last time.

I need some feedback, Please.� That is, if you want to. I can be short or long. You can tell me it sucks if you want to. Just give me something to work with.

��������� On Tuesday, April 8th, 2008, my grandma passed away. She was in rehab and we all thought that she was getting better. Then over the weekend we found out that she had caught a disease and was in the hospital again. It was called C-def or something like that and it messed with her intestines. Also my parents told me that her pnemonia came back.

�������� Monday night� someone from the family called and said that her blood pressure had dropped dangerously low and they rushed to the hospital. Grandma had hit lows before and i hadn't worried much about her. My parents were there all night so i went to sleep. The next morning my dad called us into their room. My mom told me that my grandma had passed away. Her blood pressure had dropped so low that her heart finally stopped. I have never cried so hard in my entire life.

������ How could this have happened? The last time before she was in the hospital, she looked totally healthy. Our year revolves around her. Every holiday is spent with her. I can't imagine not seeing her up at the lake, or at christmas, or at easter. Next time mom doesn't know what to do she can't call her. Its almost surreal that she's gone. I'm going to miss her so much.

������It feels like someone has clawed at my heart. Just thinking about her makes my heart, and body feel like its being weighed down. I went to school today and i thought of her almost all day. Every one said i was sorry. I have no idea what to do with that. all i said was "i'm fine" and "it's ok". I didn't know what else to do. tomorrow is the wake and friday is the funeral. I have no idea how i'm going to deal. All i can think about is running. Its the one thing that i've done today thats made me feel GOOD. i'll probably run all weekend.

��� What makes it worse is that she hated all of it. I couldn't even go into see her the first month or so. I was scared. I had never seen grandma sick, and seeing her anything but healthy scared me to death. I thought that if i saw her really bad i would never have hope that she would get better. Finally when i saw her i�was not scared, but heartbroken, to see her that way. she deserved better. she was an amazing woman and didn't�deserve how to go through that. I hated how she was weak and� it hurt to see her that way. I might have been happier�if i had more time with her,�and i�would have been more than delighted for her to�not have gone in that�way. Hopefully the lord is treating her the way she deserves. I am going to miss her so much. that phrase is said�so many times, and until�you�have lost something, you never truely know how much�meaning�it really has. �

hai. haha. gud day! just wanted to�tell more about myself. hmmm. just a simple junior student. well, my life isn't too hard coz i have�many friends out there. and�of course i had my family.�.�at this very young age,�many trials and problems has come in my life. problems on friends, family. haha.�but proud to say i overcome it all. well i just do�the things that�can make me forget and overcome it. haha.�...to be continue��

So the other day I was checking my facebook and like an old man was apparently checking out the people on the�flirtable application.� So he like clicked on like the yes button like I am flirtable or whatever and it's like OLD PEOPLE AREN'T SUPPOSED TO BE DOING THESE THINGS!!� That's just like not right...at all.� I've had an old man come up to my mom and I in the gym and told us that we knew how to shake our butts.� He kept on checking us out after that and then my mom gave him a nasty stare and he left us alone.� I really wanted to curse that guy out so bad.� I mean that's just like not cool.� They should go after old ladies with wrinkly skin who they think are hot not my mom and I!� Old people have to realize that once they look all wrinkley and shriveled up that nobody is going to go for them anymore!!

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