over50wifeandmother's Journal

Mar 2016
3:45 PM SAST

who am I

�I've spent so much years keeping the peace in my home, now that my children are older, 20 and 25, I'm not sure I know who I am anymore.
My husband has become loud, disagreeable and dismissive over the years and I have far too often kept quiet and allowed it in order to avoid an argument, after all, it takes two to argue I reasoned, no argument equals a peaceful environment for the children, even though never inner peace for me.
A sacrifice I was willing to make, but recently my eldest spoke to me in the same tone and attitude that my husband speaks to me.
I realised that while I was keeping the peace, the example I set was that it was okay to speak to me like that.
Ironically, she doesn't like how my husband speaks to me, yet she did the same without realizing it.
All of them expressed at various occassions that my tone and manner of speaking was not neccessary, yet it's okay for them to speak to me with tone and attitude.
Truth be told, I have actually been holding back, they have no idea to what extent my tone and attitude can go.
But if holding back and keeping the peace has resulted in a lack of respect, then I'm not holding back anymore because no one wins.
I THINK IT'S TIME I START CLAIMING BACK MY LIFE...

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Gender / Age: Female, 61

Location: South Africa