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Oct 2011
4:02 PM EST

Lately I've been feeling soo alone.. I do have an amazing boyfriend, but we're always fighting..and I hate it. I'm 15 going on 16, and I know that's really young to be saying this, but I do love him. We've been together for almost 10 months, and he's made me a better person. He�was my first kiss and he just means everything to me.�He is definitely my best friend,�and I feel like he's the only one who cares.
I don't really have anyone else to go to anymore though. I have him, but I don't know how much longer that will be for. I'm scared he's going to leave me.. I'm terrified of that..and I can't talk about this with anyone else because there's no one I trust besides him. I feel like I lost all of my closest friends this year.
I feel so depressed and I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't help but cry myself to sleep every night. And I would love to tell my boyfriend about all of this, but I don't want him to feel like he's the reason I'm so upset. Honestly, he's kept me alive all this time. Through all the times we've fought, he's been the one to just hug me when I'm crying, and he's always been here for me. He respects me.�He tells me I'm probably one of the weirdest girls he has ever met, but that's why he loves me. And he says he loves everything about me.
So why am I still so upset..?
Can someone please just help me?

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  • Gender / Age: Female, 28
  • Location: USA - Texas
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    About Me: Hi...i'm julia. I'm a sophomore, and im just an average teenagerr! And well i love to write cause it's just a really good way to express yourself. I like to write stories, and in my stories, i like to base the characters off of real people in my life. The main girl is usually based off of me. Like she usually has my personality. And the guy that she loves is based on a person that i'm inlove with....Also, i absolutely love to write poetry. It's the one thing i do when i feel like there's no one to talk to. Anyways, i guess i'm gonna stop here cause i dont wanna take up all the space. Hah, well, yeahhh...k, byee?(:

    Interests: I like spending time with my friends. I absolutely love to writee! And I also love taking pictures and hope to become a photographer in the future.

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    Favorite Movies: The notebook, A walk to remember, The last song, && Dear john:)

    Favorite Television: Anything that's showing I guess.

    Favorite Books: I dont really read that muchh. I'm more of a writer(: