Dreamer's Big little world

After� a month of� grief he came back to me...he sent me a message asking how i was going.....i replied and he called me.

My voice like ive been told is a "spell"� We talked and caught up about what happend. It was a nice feeling being with him again.He pleaded with me about us meeting he really wants a real relationship with me.

We came to an agreement...i would meet him on New years eve 2009. we� also agreed to be friends but we or should i say I keep crossing the line. I couldn't be just�friends with him so we decided to be "distant lovers"

Distant lovers- we could only talk once in a while not everyday (he is extra busy has work and Uni) , kissing and holding and phone sex is allowed, its sort of like friends with benefit

I din't like the new arrangment i wanted it to be like the old times,back in the day we used to talk at least 3 times a day and Every single night. I wanted that back but he couldnt give that to me because the last time he thought he did look where he ended up�...lets just say he thinks this sort of arrangment willl ensure that he doesn't get as hurt as he was last time.

Problems arose...i couldn't stop whining about the arrangment so for now we have decided to be friends(i rather keep in in mylife than loose him for good) although we sleep together on weekdays because he goes out on weekends.

I cant help but think its all my FAULT...i have such a great man but for some reason i just think im not good enough for him