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20
Apr 2008
5:34 AM WST
   

Recap 5 (the email)

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I’ve almost dialled your number for the 1000th time this week.I never knew it was possible to love and hate someone at the same time. I miss u so much that I constantly kiss my pillow at night.Every love song and romantic movie reminds me of us…..its hard to move on.
God knows I’ve tried……
You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me.
I lie awake wondering…What did I do. What did I say?
Then it hits me …he doesn’t love me anymore.
I cry myself to sleep…I’m crying as I write this
I need you, I want you and yes I love you.
What hurts me the most is that you used me….Yes Eddy*you did.
That night you came back to me and fed my heart with a load of shit…just to make yourself fell better….
But u didn’t feel as good as u thought u would…did you?
Maybe that’s coz our relationship had taken on a massive strain that needed work.
To add insult to injury, your “friend” sent me a text telling me to leave you.
You didn’t have the balls to say it to ME.
That was pretty WEAK and Disgusting.
Man…I still can’t believe you did that to me…..
I’m not entirely blameless either …I’ve done my share of mistakes and learnt from mine.
I hope you do so too…..No one deserves to be treated the way I was.
I keep having flashbacks of our late night talks.
We wanted to grow old together, have our babies.
Feed each other and even eat on the same plate.
I felt nothing but sheer bliss during those moments. I was the happiest woman alive
Remember when u said “Bambi I love u, I’ll never leave you”
Yea right…I’ll be Damned if I believe a word out of a man’s mouth ever again.
At least i walked out on this relationship
Knowing i did the best i possibly could to keep the love of my life
Too bad you didn't give us a chance...Maybe your affections lie with another woman.
I promised i wouldn't contact you but i just wanted to let my emotions out.
Don't worry i wont bother you again.

One more thing.....Don't exhaust yourself with work or Uni and remember to keep those you love close to you..

they are more precious than the finest gold and silver.

And�Eddy* i don't hate you...love outweights hate at the end of the day. ....take care of yourself my love.
P.S: U HAVE A 3 MONTH ALCHOL BAN
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