seamaiden's Journal

alot has gone on latly i met a guy from the internet i dont knwo how that will turn out .he seems nice time will tell,mom is now living in s.c. and from what im told not doing well except one minute im told shes walking and seeing agin and the next time im told she cant see cant walk and her alhiemers is real bad she has had a major stroke ,but she made my sister her power of attorney so my hands are tied i miss her so much but i cant take care of her and my sister is blaming me for all of it freaking out ,this is so hard to deal with if any body out there knows how to pray please please pray for our situation we sure could use gods help right now that is if your christian id appricate it thanks i wouldnt ask if the situation didnty look so bleak

coffee is on mmmmm,want some? its a good way to start my day which began at 100 in the afternoon,however ill be working all night so sleep is badly needed,still trying to get used to sleeping durin the day,no mail today hoiliday good no bills to worry over today!my back is a bit of a problem ever since my car wreck ive had severe back pain in the lower back so another thing to figure out.oh well! today im thankful for the health i do have im thankful for the job i have im thankful for any friendship i find im thankful that my vehicle runs and i can pay my bills i have loads of things to be happy about,i went hiking yesterday it was so enjoyable to be in the woods,quiet and peaceful,we had strong wind last night have had alot of rain but im glad there isnt any snow for now,im so looking foward to picnics camping trips day trips of hiking canoeing exploring the caves and the fun that summer brings,life in a small country town is rough it is a make oyur own fun kinda place,people are afraid to get to know me i seem to be a stranger to all and it is so diffuilcult for me to get to know other people,ive gone it alone for a very very long time im hoping that god will change this by the power of his word,i pray to him even when i think that he dosnt hear me or when i think hes left,prayer seems to be seasonal as well winter it seems like hes no where to be found,spring,i have possibilities of answered prayer,fall looks like a dire warning ,and summer is when prayers are answered by the lamb, i hope my summer comes soon. hope you all are having a good positive happy day!

today i spent way to much,just couldnt resit getting a few new things for summer camping .i went out hiking the other day and had a very enjoyable time the only thing missing was a good looking man from the u.k. to hike with,the trees dont have leaves on em yet bit i think they will soon. im so looking foward to summer fun,its been such a long time since ive camped,hiked,canoed down stream or explored a cave. these things seem to cheer me up being in the hot sun under a canopy of trees or sitting on a huge rock over looking a waterfall.and i cant wait for the sunsets, and checking out the milky way agin love looking at the stars,i did see deer tracks so hopefully this year ill get a few photos of them to add to my collection, and nothing like cooking over a campfire even if its just hot dogs hambergers and marshmallows, i plan on quabache trails,turkey run,spring mills and mc cormics creek not to metion shakamac state park these are some of indiannas finest,its get there earley first come first served