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Tuesday - Nov. 14, 2006
- 11:01 AM - EDT
- #1
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my name is "Emma" you may call me Emma. i am ____years
old and i live in _____, Kansas. my phone number is(___)
___-____, and i am not an idiot. i go to _____High
school and i am in the __th grade. i am not a virgin, in
fact it is a high possibility that i am pregnant. i have
been smoking pot for 4 years, i have drinking for 6
years, and i have been smoking cigs for 4 years. i am a
cutter...sort of. i promised my boyfriend i would stop
if he stopped. my mother, whom i hate, has NO idea what
i do in my "spare" time. she has no idea that i sneak
out to get drunk and get high and make love to the man i
love. she has no idea i'm no longer a virgin. my life is
fucked up. i have been recently having quite a few
thoughts of suicide due to the tragic death of me
friends lives. 2 of my friend died in a drunken car
accident on Friday, October 13th, 2006. my ex--that i
loved with all my heart--, his father--who is legally
insane--was his (while on his motorcycle) by an oncoming
semi on the highway and died instantly. This friend OD'd
on a Speedball approximately one month later. his sister
killed herself by "playing" the pass-out game 2 weeks
after that, and their mother who was best friends with
my aunt, slit her wrists. Every REAL cutter knows,
however, that you must walk UP THE STREET not DOWN THE
STREET to do any REAL damage. i am sitting here in class
doing something i'm not supposed to be doing...i'm
masturbating. i'm kidding! that's nasty. not
really...just don't get caught in public. use it as a
way to make your boyfriend want you even more when
you're talking to him on the phone. start masturbating
while you're talking to him. tell him what you're doing
and how good it feels. it will turn him on to know that
you are pleasuring yourself while talking to him at the
same time. it'll make him rush right over to see you!
works every time! i get depressed really easily. a
little advice from me to you...do not listen to Eminem's
curtain call when you are depressed becaus eit will only
make your shit even worse. believe me, i know from
personal expierience. my mom is going to topeka today
for job training and as a result will not be back until
5 or 6:30, which is way after my boyfriend and i get off
of school. so i am going to make him come over and i am
going to give him head and make him give me head. he
LIKES giving me head though, so it's cool. just to let
you know, i am a very open person. i am open about
everything except where i live and people's names. i am
open about sex and drugs and alcohol and everything bad
like that. ask me anything. ask me how big my boyfriends
dick is and i'll tell you it's 7 inches and getting
bigger...for me. i might come back and write another
entry later becaus ei do actually like this site. it's
great for getting shit off your shoulders. i have been
doing very good about not drinking lateley. i have been
sober for a month and a week and i haven't cut for about
1 1/2 weeks. i haven't smoked in one day and i haven't
gotten high in 4 days. my boyfriend, however, is not
doing so hot.
P.S. i cuss a-hella-mother-fucking-lot as well.
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