Everything seems like illusion.

Fiction holds more reality for me than life.  Television shows and fims engage me and feel real - I can respond to them; they make me laugh and cry, they enable me to feel.  Even playing a computer game holds more connection and reality for me than life.

The time I get to spend with G is too fleeting.  The rest of the time it's like I don't exist. 

Being on my own so much really isn't good for me.